My Driving Test...

yeah..finally i had pass my driving test...now waiting for my motorcycle test which might fall on the 14th of January...first of all i was very grateful and thanks God for protecting me throughout my driving test...if not i am sure i will have to take the test for the second time...luckily God bless me...and of course not to forget my friends support to me..thanks so much ya...what i had experience during the test will be remember forever...i really believe that God's is always by my side to help me and guide me...feeling very thankful...hehehe...

i am scare...

how nice if i can be like my friends, not to over emotional and over worried...i hate myself for being such a crying baby...very easily my tears will drop...i just don't know what happen to me just now at my friend house...maybe i was kind of too stress...so after that i felt much better...i was really scared...i didn't finish up my homework...i was very scared...i am going to sit for the JPJ test for driving...i was really scared as i didn't do any revision this holiday...every time what i have thought doesn't seem to happen in daily life...i thought i could finish up my homework before i am working...i thought i could finish up my school project by early December...i thought i could do revision everyday...and yet not even one have completed...i don't know why i like to blame myself for being so lazy...if i could be more hardworking to do what i want to do,maybe i won't felt that stress now...i want to relax myself but i can't make it...i found it so difficult...i tried to spend more and more time to do my homework but i don't know why i can't complete even one of my homework...what i have study from June till November in Hua Lian is like i experiencing lost memory...i don't know how to do my homework...my maths especially, spend so much time to answer the question and yet i can't even answer the question completely...sigh...anyway i still hope i can finish up my homework as soon as possible...

A busy holiday....

sigh...i was so tired...my 2008 holiday is so busy than my school life...i want to find some time to relax myself, yet is so hard to find out...sigh...so miss the time when after SPM...no worries and no school work...i was very busy...i just can't believe and don't want to accept the fact that my holiday are going to end...oh my god...my homework are still at my study table...i scare i can't finish up my homework...so sad...i was damn sad not just because i didn't finish up my homework but i also didn't spend some time to do revision...i just hate myself for being so lazy...sad...when the clock struck 12 in midnight...MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!....first of all i would like to make my wish...ermmm...hope i can finish up my homework as soon as possible...hope i can catch up with my study at school...hope i can improve myself in every subject that i was studying now...and hope i can get what i want in the future...hehehe....may dreams come true...

i think is quite some time i didn't write on this blog...a lot of things really happens during this period of time...some good and some bad...anyway good things that happened is i pass my KPP test n now already in the process of learning to drive motor n car...i am going to take the test on 31st of December...kind of scare but i think i can do it...just relax right..hehehe...then my biology project are going to finish already, we have finish almost 70% of the project even my PA folio too...kind of happy with this...and on 6 of December i got the chance to see Linda Chung Kar Yan in Taiping Central...quite ok la although that day really crowded with people...oh almost forgot i also got to watch the latest Disney movie entitle Bolt...quite a nice and funny movie..worth to watch...ok now is turn for the bad things that happened to me...first is friendship problem that happened a few days after the maxwell hill trip...kind of can't believe what i had read..i quite angry with what i had read...anyway i am not sure that girl realize or not but i don't think i will be very close to her anymore...now we are like just a very normal kind of friend..of course she don't know anything but i and my another friend will be very careful whenever with her...she looks scary to us now...hehehe...kind of wearing mask to face us...hahaha...after that is my school homework!!!!!i didn't even touch it also...anyway now i had touch it but i don't know how to do...somebody please help me...i need to finish it as soon as possible...i want to...i am going to work this sun which is 14th of December..so i want to make sure that i almost complete everything that was given...then only i will have the time to do my revision...aaarrrggghhh...God please help me k....

My undang-undang test...

Saturday, 15.11.2008, finally i go listen to khusus KPP...whoa the time was so long from 8am to 4pm...at first it was very boring and as usual i fall asleep during the khusus...it was divided into 2 sessions so the first session was very boring but the second session must better...so after that i knew that the latest test is on Tuesday...if i didn't take Tuesday test then Friday only i can take d because i have a trip to Maxwell Hill with my class friends on Wednesday and overnight at there...only yesterday i come back from Maxwell Hill..this is all because of the biology project to catch insects...so finally i made the decision to take the test on Tuesday...only 3 days for me to study...luckily i pass the exam...so happy...so tomorrow i will go for khusus motor...haiz again will take very long time until 4pm...

Thank God...

i am thankful to God about yesterday incident...if i give up, i am sure that will be the end of my life...i went to waterfall nearby my house with my cousin sister...i almost drown...my legs are unable to stand on any stone in the waterfall...so at that time i only use both of my hand to hold on a big stone...if i leave my hand, i will be drown in the waterfall as the water is flowing very fast...my mind at that moment was like "shall i die here? Is this the end of my life?"...till now i still remember this incident very well...still fresh in my mind but i felt scary also...luckily at last my leg manage to touch on a stone ...wow...a very scary experience to me...this year is a bad luck for horse...so be careful k...hehehe...

disappointment...

i kept consoling myself...feeling very sad and disappointed with myself...my final year result is not satisfactory for me...i think is worse than august test...so sad...i just keep blaming myself for not working hard enough for my study...or maybe i should change the way i study for my exam...i must proof to myself that i can do it...i know i can do it and i must make sure that i can do it...don't give up...never ever thought of giving up...as long as i work harder and harder for my next exam, i am sure i will get good result...may God bless me...i know that i must sacrificed a lot of things in order to get what i want...its just depends on whether i am willing or not....

Maxwell Hill...

wow after the final test i have been going out everyday...from Friday night till today still going out...hahaha...on Sunday around 11am already go out with my old friends again,Cynthia,Rue Wen,Yee Ling,Chong,Beh and Pei Ying...this time is not bad but also got a bit boring...hehehe...then yesterday again go out ..hahaha...but i go watch movie with my friend at her home then at night go my friend,Raimathy, house to celebrate Deepavali...hahaha...really look more busy then during exam...hahaha...
then today go hike Maxwell Hill with Tee Xin...first of all felt sorry because i wake up late so actually start to hike at 7.30am but end up 8 only start to hike...hehehe...anyway quite nice...we hike quite high but Tee Xin say we have not reach half of the hill also but i feel like we had hike very high already...so tired and we didn't bring anything go up also...water, camera all also didn't bring...hahaha...at first we thought want to go Maxwell Hill to catch insect for biology experiment but end up didn't get anything also...luckily went we went down the hill we get to watch something interesting,a very long and big insect..i am not sure the name of the insect in english but we use to call it train worm...wow really very big and we saw twice...so sad can't take picture of it...hahaha...anyway planing to hike again some other day and will be going up higher than today...hehehe...

finally i knew that as time pass,we as a human being will change...i was very surprise just now,i went an old friends gathering at kenny roger...i hope i can enjoy but it is not as fun as yesterday gathering with my new friends...i am not sure weather is i have change...feeling kind of odd at there...it is not like the old times anymore...things will change...when we are get use to another new environment, the old environment will make you uncomfortable...kind of sad...anyway forget about this...i am going to take motor and car license....yeah hope that i can pass my exam one time will do...hehehe....

first time i go out together with my new friend in hua lian...quite a lot of people almost two classes...hahaha...at first i thought it will be boring but so happy because it turns fun although we didn't follow our plan to go watch cinema...no more ticket tats why have to cancel but if really want to watch will be very late already...so maybe plan next time only go...anyway i knew that whatever my result will be,life still go on...so must well lead my life happily rather than worrying this and that...hahaha...

Finally....Exam finish...

today i should felt very happy for finishing my final year exam...but...sigh...although i didn't fail my math paper,the marks have drop...feeling very disappointed with myself...sigh...i am too confident that i can score well in math but right after math test,i am very regret...luckily i didn't fail but there still be some feeling of sad....sigh...anyway i hope i will pass all the subject in my final year exam,i won't hope for good result as i know my limit...in addition, this test i didn't really prepare myself well so i don't hope much...may god bless me...i will take this results as a lesson...learn from mistakes...sigh...now i have about 3 months to make myself get ready for the coming test...must work hard to achieve my dreams...oh ya my friend told me about a career that i never heard before..."art therapy"...such an interesting career...i have do some survey and i knew that i want to study this i must get very good result in my STPM because the course is in UM...ever since small i already felt that i would like learn something related to art...so after SPM,i was given a chance to fulfill my dreams but i have give up...maybe i am not suitable to become a designer so maybe something else related to art...hehehe...i will work extra extra extra hard for it...i know i can do it...

just now received a call from my old friend, Iqmal, actually was a bit shock because yesterday one of my friend just said that she miss Iqmal...hehehe...anyway we talk for about 7 minutes...within this 7 minutes i flash back my life in convent...honestly say i really enjoy my life in Convent...not to confuse...i enjoy study in Hua Lian, the teaching skill in Hua Lian is much better than in Convent but if talk about enjoy myself to have fun among friends,i would say Convent better...hehehe...at Hua Lian quite stress especially when exam coming because the students will be all studying even in class...this hardly been seen in Convent...in Convent, even when exam is coming, everyone are still enjoy maybe some will read at home but hardly i will see people read books in class, we all end up chatting together as if we have pass our exam...not stress and yet fun...hehehe...kind of miss my old friends but i think if i will be given a chance to meet them in a certain gathering i either may feel bored or enjoy myself there...i hope i can enjoy myself.........

finally...

finally......after 1 week....finally i can online back...sigh...anyway got good and bad also...good thing is i can focus on my study so that i won't spend too much time online...bad thing is i can't study so long...u can't expect me to study for 3-4 hours...hehehe...end up i will fall asleep only...anyway this coming exam is very important but i don't felt as nervous as my august test...i make myself so relax about the test...sigh...i think my brain has gone something wrong...hahaha...anyway i really hope my wish come true...i really enjoy studying in L6C much more enjoy than in convent...study in my current school really help me improve a lot in my science subject and i start to like biology and chemistry...may god bless me...hehehe...

Experiment...

finally i have finished the potato strip experiment...wow so relieve now...i think this is the first experiment i face difficulties...so difficult to cut the potato into equal strip...i had practice in house but then i found out that actually i had done wrong,thats why just now i having difficulties cutting the potato strip...sigh...luckily now everything is over...actually i felt only biology experiment make me so tension,chemistry experiment do make me feel nervous but not as much as biology experiment...anyway now i only felt tension with my study...scare...damn scare...may God bless me k...hehehe...

School reopen....

so fast my 6 days of holiday past...sigh...didn't really have enough time to rest and study also...sad,i still didn't touch anything on my study...i must speed up myself now...add more oil to myself...hehehe...anyway today went school,everything seem the same...nothing changes but i do enjoy today lesson...surprisingly today i didn't fall asleep in the class because yesterday i slept quite late around 1.30am only fall asleep...so i thought i might felt sleepy in class but luckily i don't felt so...so happy if everyday was like today,never feel sleepy in class...hehehe...hopefully i can change this habit...hehehe...

yeah i finally finish my working already...although at first is quite tiring but i do really enjoy...i learn a lot at there...hehehe...i got a lot of things to tell but i can't remember already...so sad...or maybe is just something not really important so i have forgotten...anyway i meet my old friend,Jun-Lyn yesterday...she still look the same so thin but sad la because she still can't find her pathway to her future...she now neither a student nor a worker...what i can do is to pray for her...oh yeah tonight there will be a BBQ party at Mei Chen's house...i might be going but i will end up only drinking and eating fruits...can't BBQ...i become a vegetarian for 9 days until next Tuesday...sigh...never mine i cant eat but i might help them...hehehe...i would also like to know all my friends life after SPM... everyone had gone to their own pathway...same to me...hehehe...anyway hope i enjoy the party tonight...hehehe...

tomorrow will be the last day of my work...quite happy because i finally have the time to study already...i got a lot of things to tel but will tell some other day k.....

yeah school holiday...haha..even though for only 6 days...it means a lot to me and i am going to stop working already...as u know raya is coming so i might off already either tomorrow or the day after tomorrow...have to stop soon as exam is coming so must focus on my study...sigh...
my friend say me again...sob sob...hehe...maybe i wrong? or maybe it the way i use to do it?...i know is a bit rude...hahaha...i try will try to change this habit la k...anything special?...ermmmm...let me think...sigh nothing to tel...hahaha...got to stop here...have to work later...gambateh still few days more and then i can stay at my home already...i miss my home...hahaha...

recently have been busy wrapping hamper already...first time i heard so many orders(150 hampers and need it by the next day)...thats why yesterday i work so late around 2 am only go back...hahaha...so tired..even worse is tomorrow which mean today morning i still have to go school...damn tired...hehehe...anyway just a few more days and i will focus on my study already...later i have to go work...hopefully i can finish up my homework tonight...gambateh...

i have pass my essay and finish up my homework...i plan to do revision but i think i have to postpone again as now i am still working and i still have a story book to read finish...on Thursday,18/9/08, i have watched a movie entitled "Money Not Enough II"...a very sad and touching story...its show how great a mother's love to their child...i watch that show until late at night about 2.30 in the early morning...hahaha...then i wake up at 6am to get prepare to go to school...i can't believe i only sleep for 3 hours and thats why i fell very sleepy during class lesson...my friend don't like my habit of falling asleep in class...very sorry...hardly for me to control myself from fall asleep..she more angry when i fall asleep during tuition too...i very remember her words to me,"serena are you really that tired? do u know u had miss an interesting story told by teacher?..after hearing this,i am awake now...hehehe...i promise not to do it anymore...sorry ya...

today seem to be my lucky day....very happy...how nice if everyday is also my lucky day...first of all,the most important thing is my exam date is going to be postpone to 13/18 of October...yeah i will have extra time to study already...thanks god so much...God's have given me the chance so i have to appreciate it properly...i will not disappointed everyone...hehehe...i know i can do it...then i have already finish typing my essay competition which have about 1500 words...and i also have finish my homework already...so i have a lot of time to play,study,read story book and many more...yeah...some more tomorrow no school....yeah...things suddenly goes so well...Thanks God's...

sigh...i didn't go out today...today,15/9/08, is the moon cake festival!!!! i am sure lake garden have a lot of people playing candles and lantern...a bit sad because i didn't go lake today but yet i had go lake yesterday..although it will not be as crowded as today...anyway i am grateful,at least i can get the chance to go celebrate...next year i must grad the chance to go lake to play lanterns at there because every year i went lake just to have a walk and look around people lighting up candles...so next year i must really join together to have fun!!
oh my god...time did really pass very fast...honestly say,i still didn't do revision yet...i have been busy working and then do my homework...thats all...i can't continue like this...i will fail in my exam if like this...die la me this time..."HARDWORKING + DETERMINATION = SUCCESS"...yet i only have hardworking but no determination to study...so it can't end up success...now i have to make myself have the determination to study...serena gambateh!!!!! I KNOW I CAN DO IT!!!!!
11 o'clock at night...i receive my friend,Ong's message,after reading it,i smile...first time i receive a friend's thanks message...she thanks me for my advice to her...the message was sweet,a wonderful thing for my friend...wish her good luck in both exam and human relationship...

i was quite happy today...having the chance to go out with my new and old friends to the recently opened Taiping Central to have our lunch...we chose to eat at Sushi King...quite enjoyable during that time...we are having our jokes and playing games together...i did really enjoy it...such a memorable day for me...hehehe...dun worry our next plan is to go starbucks coffee...hehehe...

today...sigh...my mood seem to be more sad than happy...happy because i might have the chance to go celebrate moon cake festival with my friends at lake garden...yeah...but.... =( ...history is going to happen again...my end year exam might change two student to L6D...this had happen before during my august test...teacher had also choose two students name to be put at L6D but they will study at L6C...so i thought it will be end...so shock when my class monitor told us that teacher will choose again two student to be place in L6D based on our final year exam...die la this time...the past test i study so hard also get such bad result already,now even worse already because i am now working while studying some more i didn't really concentrate in class...i use to over sleep in class...hehehe...just now my friends and i together had a discussion about our chemistry exercise question...at that time only i realize that i don't know anything...what my friends say out,in my mind was like "oh my god i had totally forgot everything...die la"...i hate myself for being so forgetful...i use to think that maybe i had chose a wrong path but i can't reverse back now...i have to go through this path by hook or by crook...i very scare now...i must really wake up already...be more hardworking,serena...i don't want to go back L6D... i want to remain in L6C...may GOD bless me...i know just asking for GOD help,will not make me remain in my class...all i have to do now is study hard,be prepare for my coming exam...i know i can do it!!!!

today is quite a hectic life for me in school...i got two practical experiment to carry out...sigh...the result was not really very good...anyway at least i manage to finish it...maybe have to deduct a little bit marks...hehehe...oh moon cake festival coming soon...i am very happy...as u know moon cake festival is a very fun festival..maybe for me la is very fun...i love to enjoy the candle light in the lake garden...wonderful scenery with the full moon...amazing...ever since i saw this scenery,it always kept in my mind and i will not miss the chance to come lake garden during the moon cake festival day which will be fall on this Sunday!!!!...sad to say,this year i think i can't go...i have to work...maybe if can at least i hope i can go have a look..not to walk around the lake garden with my friends but maybe sit on a motorcycle with my brother and pass by the lake garden...sigh...hopefully can la...hehehe...

recently feeling much better...i try to relax..not to worry so much as i am still a student,all i have to do is to focus on my study...so now i really have to start do revision for my own good...hehehe...i know i can do it...i think now my life is getting better...i and my friends also start to turn better...i know how to handle already...thank GOD for helping...i know GOD are always by my side to guide me...thank very much...

after hearing what my mum had told me yesterday...suddenly i ask myself is it i too worried already...i always worried even is just a small matter...my mum call me to relax...don't too worried...she scare i might gets some kind of sickness...hahaha...after hearing i think i realize that there is no point i keep worried too much...let it be...let the GOD's decide my future is going be...relax serena...i do really change a lot...i feel that there is a gap between me and my friends...can't be like last time during form 5 where i always happy go lucky...now i hardly laugh or make joke...even if i am making joke now to my friend,they feel like whats wrong with me and i feel like i was so stupid...i hardly can talk or play with my friends...to my friends,they feel so tension when with me...i now always do my homework and hardly talking in the class during free period...one of the reason is because i have a part time job...so i cannot waste my time...sigh...my friends tell me to join together when they are talking...i try but end up i feel that i am only watching u all talking...i hardly can join u all...i don't know whats wrong with me...feeling like want to shout out loud...can anyone help me???.........maybe i think too much...i will try to relax my mind...be optimistic...

wow...luckily i get well today..that is why i can donate blood...ermmm...how was the feeling when donating blood? its not that pain like what people say...my process of donating the blood was quite fast as my blood flowing was fast...the nurse said is a good thing but my blood colour was not dark red,slightly lighter...maybe not enough hemoglobin...hehehe...but after donating blood i was given hot milo,an apple and a packet of cookies...then my hand start to feel tired and a little bit pain..nw i looked at my hand and it seem that my hand start to lebam...dun worry it will soon be ok back...anyway i am happy because i can donate blood,i can help to save people...yeah...hehehe...
just now my friend told me about my response to her...i can't describe how...but i felt sorry after hearing it...i didn't mean to hurt her...anyway i will try my best to change this bad behavior...i am so sorry...

i fall sick,i had flu...sad...more sad because i can't donate blood tomorrow!!!!i want to donate,not just because want to help people but also because i want to get the experience of donating blood...most of my friends scare so they dare not donate...i didn't scare but i can't donate...damn sad why i sick? sigh...what i can do is to wait for the next donation already...hehehe...today i saw my overall result..not really satisfactory...must get a better result ...

i can't believe what i had listened yesterday...it makes me surprise,shock and also envy...hahaha...so hard for me to believe...really we can fall in love so easily?i have no idea...but i do really hope it won't happen to me...i mean in now age and also i didn't meet my mr right yet also...hahaha...anyway i was just shock a can people fall in love and then break up so easily...not to everyone but most of the teenagers nowadays...sigh...

i quite scare now...i must train myself to have the determination to study while working...i set the date 1 sept,i will do revision everyday...i must more hardworking...

today go back sch d...luckily din late to school...as usual sch lesson start then time out go back home..luckily today no homework...but i have to work around 5 in the evening...hehe...quite happy today,not because of school reopen but because of i had finally finished watching a Taiwan drama entitled "fated to love you"...what a wonderful drama...1 of the best Taiwan drama i ever watch...ya besides that i was happy because my math result was better than i expected...very happy...i thought i might nearly fail math test...thank GOD...i will work harder 4 my coming exam..i know i can do it...

sigh...sch holiday goin to finish oredi...seem lik tis holiday i din reli enjoy oso cos been bz wif sch tin then workin sumore...sad..sumore tot holiday wana study 4 my final exam,end up din study anytin oso...hehehe...mz reli plan a time 2 study d...i dun1 my final exam result is the same lik my august test...mz be better...gambateh....

wow during tis holiday i cant rest at all...after the graduation nite,the next day i hv 2 go work part time oredi...pity me rite...hehehe...actually if can i dun1 2 work cos i wan 2 focus on my study but becos of having financial problem so i hv 2 work...sigh..my life seem so tough...sumtimes i do reli jealous bout sum ppl who ntg 2 wori,they gt money,a complete family n a prefect love...hahaha...money?if my family got then i nonit cum out work d...family?mine not bad la live wif my mum ,uncle,brothers n recently 2 new member my sis-in-law n her daughter...love?ever since i born i dun even hv a date be4...ermm..mayb becos i am ugly n sumtimes do reli quite fierce n oh ya last time i study in all girls sch so i dun reli hv guys fren...i am an introverted person...tats y i dun mix wif ppl easily..i hv lots of frens but i dun hv best fren...so sumtimes i do jealous my fren who got their own best fren...hahaha...seem lik i am a person who lik to feel jealous but dun wori my jelous is 4 a while oli...whenever i felt jealous of sumtin the next day i wil be fine bak oredi...hehehe..same 2 my love life oso...majoriti gals n guys nw enjoy dating life..tat goes 2 most of my fren too..i do jealous my fren who gt ppl 2 love n care...i 1 2 experience it oso...hahaha...tis is wat i always tin but if i tin long i wont hope 4 tis kind of love life which is cal puppy love...i would prefer a long lasting love rather then a short n sweet love...n honestly say if i reli fall in love i would love tat person 4 the rest of my life...i jz wonder hw can ppl change their love partner so easily...i am a person who reli appreciate love...love is beautiful n mystery..cant u jz wonder hw special the love is..hahaha...i blive one day i wil meet my mr.right..dun hv 2 be very handsum,rich or hv a good body figure..my request was jz a guy who can make me feel secure n loyal...i jz 1 a guy who is loyal 2 me...if i find him i would be very grateful 2 GOD...thankz 4 full full filling my wish...

I am very sad yesterday...not oli tat sad+stress...aaarrrggghhh...almost wana give up myself d...luckily i knw hw 2 stop tis thinking...so nw i am ok d...be optimistic...ntg is impossible...wana knw y i sad...sigh...becos of my exam result lo...although din fail but sad cos din gt the mark i wish for..i reli study finish the scope needed but i cant blive my marks is lower than my frens who not study finish...very dissappointed wif myself...sigh...f6 is reli a very hard..much much harder than f5...anyway tats wat i am thinking yesterday...anyway i knw hw 2 release my stress...hahaha...i knw i can do it...

ok hw bout 2day? i am very happy cos i almost finish wat i hv 2 do...i oredi plan after mon,i wil do revision evryday...hope i can gt a better score on the cumin final yr exam...i blive practice makes prefect...hehe...n of course i knw i can do it...hahaha...is impossible 2 call me study 4 the whole daysrite...so i do wil find my time 2 relax such as watching movie...recently i am looking for a japenese movie entitle "Hana Yori Dango"...i wish i can gt 2 watch tis show cos tis show is worth 2 watch...in meantime i wil be watching other show 1st...i pray hard everyday not oli hope i can score better nx time but oso hope i can find tis show...hahaha...i blive GOD my help me...hehehe....anyway maybe after mon i wil update my blog again...cos i am bz wif the graduation nite tats goin 2 hell on tis cumin mon..so sfter mon i tin i will hv the time but if i din update my blog tats means i wil be working part time d...sigh...seem lik my life is so hectic...hahaha...anyway do enjoy my life...

hahaha...after so long...finally i do write sumtin here...my exam jz finish today...a relieve 4 me...yeah !!!!!!! wat shall talk bout 2day...ntg special happen...

Well a brief description bout me k...hehehe...
i am nw a pre-U student(lower 6),studying bio,chem in SMJK Hua Lian...i stil dun understand "y i give up a chance tat r given 2 me once be4?"...tats y i end up in pre-U nw...honestly say,i do regret bout my decision...y am i not tough enuf 2 take the chance...hahaha...god hv given me tis chance but i giv up...felt so sori...sad...anyway since i hv chose a new path nw,i shall go on..i mz prove 2 myself tat tis path wil be better than tat chance...i my slogan "i knw i can do it"...keep goin serena...ok tats all 4 2day k...will be continue...hehehe...