Graduation Dinner...

Yesterday 6th of November, is our graduation day at school...2 more weeks and STPM is coming...wow really enjoy that last day at school...busy watching performances and snapping photo with friends...hahaha...snap funny photos with the guys...too bad i be the evil girl torturing them...hahaha...u will see it soon after my big exam over...after that went for lunch with Txin, Poh Juan, Li Chui, Ber YIk and Wei Sheng at Nagaria...that restaurant was not bad..i mean the food and the surrounding too...we plan to have trip to many places after exam...wow sure very fun at that time...can't wait anymore...hahaha...
Then at night around 7pm, my friend come fetch me to Txin house and we are going for dinner...a class gathering dinner about 13 out of 18 classmates come then join by 2 other not from U6C that is Ber Yik and Jennifer...both of them are only o.5% of U6C...so two together add up will form a person...hahaha...so actually U6C got 19 people...hahaha...we plan go Matang eat dinner...that dinner was not bad and the bill is RM212 for 15 people...the meal consist of 6 types of dishes and our stomach is very full after the dinner...then we went to Txin house to play some stupid games...hahaha...around 11 something only reach home...first time i never prepare anything for my MUET exam...i only manage to study until iam...luckily the test was not difficult except for writing paper...anyway i just try my best la...everything is in God's plan...now just have to focus on STPM...study hard, study smart...

What a surprise birthday party !

First of all, i would like to thanks to all my beloved friends for planning such wonderful surprise party for me...this year my birthday was celebrated earlier by 6 days due to the coming STPM...hahaha...actually i plan this year i won't be celebrating d because of the STPM la but Thanks GOD for giving me such wonderful friends planning and spending time celebrate for me...Txin was really a great actress, it's was really a surprise party for me...hahaha...

My early birthday party was on 23rd of October 2009...

Txin : Serena, later after school we go Taiping Central k…my sis wana buy shoe so we can go and see also…
Serena : ok…no problem…so that means u come and fetch me?
Txin : yaya…wear nice nice ya…
Srena : Huh…??? Why?
Txin : Aiyo…later I wear nice nice so u also must same like me la…
Serena : ermm…ok.
I start to feel curious…
Txin : Oh ya, don’t eat so full k…later we go eat together…
Serena : Ok since my mum didn’t cook today…^_^
During recess suddenly came two of my friends wishing me “happy birthday” and just ran off…lol…what’s going on…then…
Wei Sheng : Na na..Happy Birthday!
Serena : Huh…???Today is not my birthday.
Wei Sheng : Oh…never mine because tomorrow I can’t wish u d…hehe…
Serena : Huh…tomorrow is also not my birthday… my birthday will be next Thursday…
Wei Sheng : Oh never mine, never mine…hehehe…
I came back home…when I start to prepare for my lunch…came an sms from Poh Juan calling me to wear skirt go out…lol…what big day is that I need to wear skirt?...i just refuse to wear but Poh Juan kept telling me to wear, said me bad serena, if I wear then she will go out with us also…I just laugh non stop but feeling weird with Poh Juan response…she hardly sms me like this…
Anyway suddenly raining, i thought Txin is going to cancel the plan but she insisted to come fetch me go…lol…I hardly believe this…

In Txin’s car…
Txin : Ermm..okok…your dressing quite nice…
Serena : ???
Txin : We go pokok assam eat first then only go Tpg Central…
Serena : Ok…(I thought she wanna fetch Jenni)
I told Txin bout Poh Juan’s sms and she just laugh only…I feel weird because izit really that funny…on the way to pokok assam…
Txin : Eh Poh Juan sms wo…she said go Rex box.( fake sms )
Serena : Oh ok but we can go eat first because Poh Juan won’t so fast reach Tpg rite…
Txin : Oh she already in Tpg…never mine la after Rex box only come back eat la…hehe..
Serena : Oh ok lo…suddenly feel like don’t sing k-box la…
Txin : Har…why le…
Serena : No la..just haven’t found the mood to sing…all so sudden..haha…
Txin : Oh…hahaha…

When we are reaching Rex box…
Serena : Eh I saw poh juan car and li chui car oso…li chui also join us ar…
Txin : yalo...she sot sot 1 la…
Serena : Oh ya lo…hahaha…

In Rex box…
Serena : Txin…why we have to wait outside….quickly ask Juan which room…
Txin : Wait first k…
Then I saw Agnes, Jenni and even Sher Lyn…wondering what happen…
Txin : Eh u all come out didn’t ajak us…
Jenni : oh…^_^
Serena : Yalo…so kebetulan meh…
Txin : Yalo…they cum out with Sgi gang…
Serena : Oh…
then i saw them entering a room while me and Txin wait on the lobby...suddenly i saw a pair of hand telling us to come...i told Txin and she just say come go have a look...i saw is a big room and wondering how many people are those sgi gang?
Suddenly rush out Wei Sheng holding a bouquet of lily for me and i saw most of my friends started to sing "happy birthday" song...oh i was just shock and after all it's a SURPRISE party...hahaha...feeling very touch and happy, tears roll down from my cheeks...really thanks alot to all my beloved friends...love you all always...hehehe...my cakes is the Nash Donuts...hahaha...after eating this birthday cake, got to wait for few more months before can really enjoy eating donuts again...hahaha...in order to finish up the donuts as many as possible, i feed everyone at there...hahaha...so we just sing continuous for 3 hours at rex box...we managed to snap some photo and its already uploaded in facebook!!!

Thank you so much to U all !!!

My heart said...

"Overall my trial results was bad...very disappointed...i was feeling disappointed until i feel numb with myself...i start to feel that i was useless, why i can't remember what i have studied?Why i can't answer such easy question?...no matter how hard i had studied before yet i can't score well in exam...i hate myself...based on this trial results, i suppose to cry out loud but only a few drops roll down my cheeks...i was feeling very sad and disappointed until i don't think by crying will relieve my sadness...i blame myself for not putting much effort, blame myself for not paying attention in the class, blame myself to have such weak memory...i really want to cry out and shout as loud as i can but everything was just my wish...i can't do it...feeling stress with STPM...i try not to think of the past...till now i don't want to accept that i had chose a wrong pathway...i was still struggling to go through this few more months...to console a person is much much easier than to console ourselves..."cool down k...don't so stress ya", this is what i always told my friends and yet i found it difficult for myself to do it...my determination to study was not strong...i want to have strong determination to study just like how i can spend few days doing something i like...i am trying my best now to study for STPM...i don't want to fail...i hate failing...although this trial, i kept saying "fail ma fail lo...not a big deal right...i am ready to fail"...sound so relax but when i really got that result, neither cry nor happy, my mind was just feeling blank...i know my heart was very pain with those kind of results but i didn't cry so badly this time...sometimes i just thought of don't want study anymore...when i see my friends doing homework, i felt tired...when i see my friends studying and doing revision, i felt stress...i feel that everyone around me are so clever, even they didn't studied they still can score well...why i can't be just one of them? i felt myself so stupid...if my friends ask me question, i found it difficult to explain to them or i can't answer the question...feeling useless...sigh...as STPM is reaching, my shoulder feel more and more tired...how i wish the time can stop right now, i was scare to face STPM, i feel even more scared to face my result...i was scare...sob sob..."

i was feeling more better now after writing this blog...
this time i chose to say out instead of crying...as usual i have learn to think positive...there is still time for me to improve...i want to prove to myself that practice makes perfect...i give myself another chance to work hard for my real STPM...to my dearest friends, don't worry about me, i was just expressing my real feeling...don't worry, be happy...=)...my forever slogan "i know i can do it"...i am going to take my last chance...may God bless me...

Trial just over...

Yesterday, my trial STPM just over...till now i never plan to study yet, maybe i can do some revision on my Peng. Am and maths but obviously not bio and chem...i plan to do revision after tanglung festival...now enjoy reading storybook and of course my part time job haven't finish but will end soon...hehehe...as usual planing to celebrate tanglung festival this Saturday but not sure whether i will be able to make it or not because i was still working at that day...hehehe...
Sigh...my trial results really drop...i do felt sad and disappointed with myself but i know i had tried my best...=)...anyway live a happy life...stay happy, stay young...hehehe...

Time for study...

After 2 days of work...it's time to study for my coming trial..i don't think i will be able to study finish but I'll try my best...hehe...i don't put high hope on this trial, just hope for a pass in every subject then I'll be grateful...hahaha...sound so easy right but not to me...I've been wondering my memory start to deteriorate, i hardly be able to remember the fact...maybe i am more suitable to study those not involving fact all the time...in short form i am more to creative thinking...hahaha...anyway i will still study of course...hahaha...hope to go university is one of my wish...i want to experience the life at there...hahaha...i know i can do it...

Obstacles...

First of all i want to ask God, sincerely asking, When will i lead a peaceful life?A life without any obstacles?...pray hard to God for answer...
i do agree about a statement stated "God hid our biggest rewards behind the highest barriers - our deepest fears. God wants us to face our fears, and hold ground in their presence, and let them go, and that's how we get out biggest rewards.
I understand this statement but there are a lot of doubt in my mind...
Why i have to face so many difficulties?
Why couldn't i lead a peaceful and enjoyable life like some of my friends?
Why i have to work part time to earn a living?
Why i can't get a good result in my exam?
Why i can't remember anything that i study?
Why?Why?Why?
There are still a lot of the question "Why" in my mind...
i know and i believe that everything is in God's plan...sigh...kind of tired...tired of living in this world...sigh...God have plans so many obstacles to me that i can't hardly be able to bear it anymore...i know that every obstacle given will have a solution, this is what God's plan, HE want me to look for the solution, be able to solve any problems, and learn to be independent...this is how i always console myself...God, U can't expect me to face so many obstacles which happens continuously...one after another...i am just a lady, i need a shoulder to count on too...i need a shoulder for me to cry out as much as i want...since i heard my mum saying "sigh, so damn tired...sigh...what's the point of living in this world? i can't even buy anything that i like..my salary all gone for the house...sigh...everyday come back from work, have to do housework some more?i can't even find some time to relax, to do something that i like, to enjoy life?"i was just dumb folded figuring out what shall i say...anyway i end up just keep quiet and continue reading books...after that i do keep thinking of this and started asking myself too...what i can say is "tomorrow will be better"...hahaha...always trying to think positive and that's all i can do...

My hectic life begin...

i started working part time today...sigh...i only manage to rest for 2 days after my trial paper...haha...sound like i am a money minded person...haha...most of my friends encourage me not to work, better study for STPM and my another half trial paper which will be on 28th and 29th of September, so better study instead of working...i really got think of the pro and cons...so i just made up my mind to work but don't worry i won't work for very long because i need to prepare for my trial too...i hope i can manage my time well...i got to be more organize now...since i have chose to work so that means some of my time got to be sacrifice...the time for taking nap, time for playing and time for watching movie have to be sacrifice...sob sob...even though i have to work, i will try my best to spend some time for study...i know if i didn't do it, i can guarantee my friends that i am going to fail my bio and chem paper...so got to be extra hardworking d...i shall not disappointed myself and also my mum...hahaha...i was actually luckier to have a considerate mother...my mum won't give me any pressure on my study...she won't say anything such as "you better go study now","don't watch tv, go study","why u get such bad result"...till now i never heard her say so...hahaha...i only heard she will say "don't pressure yourself so much la, relax a bit" especially during exam time...hahaha...that's why she tell me that if i fail also never mine la...hahaha...so i won't have very much tension from my mum but sometimes i do jealous to see some of my friend being pressure by their parents...it's funny right...hehehe...anyway i was feeling very grateful to have such wonderful mother...hahaha...