Friday, November 3, 2017

Own path...

"Do not go where the path may lead, 
go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."
_____________________________

Titi is a small town in Negeri Sembilan..
A town where Hakka communities reside..
Pretty small and chill town..
People here mostly are either retired, old people..
Or youngsters waiting to graduate from secondary school..

After all I have been through..
Finally, I decided to choose the path less taken..

Questions like..
Why do you come here?
Of all place, why Titi town?
Why do you want to work in a farm?

I cannot really give an exact answer..

Recently, my dearest friend asked me..
"Is this the life you have always wanted? 
Or the life you have imagined it to be?"

I stopped and think for a moment..
As this question never came across me..

I would not say my current life is what I have imagined it to be..
I would not say this is my dream life..
I would not even say this is what I want..

But..
I enjoyed what I am doing now..
I appreciated what I am having now..
I contented with who I am now..

Everyone got to walk on their own path..
No matter how difficult it will be..
No matter how challenging it will be..
No matter how lonely it will be..

The legs are yours..
Stand straight and look forward..
You just got to walk on your own..

As long as I know I still can walk..
I will never stop walking.. 



Monday, October 23, 2017

Ego...

"Love is a dangerous path and 
only those who have courage can travel it. 
To love means to drop the ego, 
To drop yourself, love means not to be."
~Osho~
____________________________

Everyone has their own ego..
I do have my ego too..
I starts to aware that ego are pretty noticeable..

Recently, I saw egos among people..

Ego occurs in conversations between..
Mum and son..
Husband and wife..
Employer and employee..
Guy and girl..

I questioned myself..
"Does fear and ego related?"

Fear and ego exist together.
Fear is food for the ego, 
nourishment for the ego.
If you are dropping your fears, 
you are putting your ego on a fast unto death.

I guess I still have many fears to overcome..
Slowly dropping down your own fear will weaken your ego as well.. 
Then, you can experience love..



Tuesday, September 19, 2017

True Purpose..

"Each person comes into this world with a specific destiny; 
they have something to fulfill, 
some message has to be delivered, 
some work has to be completed. 
You are not here accidentally; you are here meaningfully. 
There is a purpose behind you."
 ~Osho~
                                                         

It is time to walk into another new path..
Somewhere totally different from my current place..

Things gonna be different;
Lifestyle..
Food..
People..
Environment..

I know I am going to miss a lot of things;
Time I spent with my friends..
Time I spent with my relatives..
Some activity that I enjoy on weekend..
Some places that I visit occasionally..
Some food that I have craving always..

It is going to be difficult..
I may cry..
I may feel lonely again..

But deep down,
I know this is my new path..
A path that I must go, on my own..

No matter what the outcome,
I will never be the same..
I will find my purpose..=)



Monday, August 14, 2017

Sudden Change...

"The secret of health for both mind and body
 is not to mourn for the past, 
nor to worry about the future, 
but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly." 
                                                    

I enjoyed my current work now..
It had been 3 years..
I used to say that I will not work for long in my current work..

Suddenly..
When my boss told me that he decided to close the company,
The fact that I am going to be jobless makes me cry out..

I am scare..
I do not know where should I go now..
How is my life going to be?
I am lost..

This is the time when I realize that I am living in my comfort zone..
So when I am force to leave out from my comfort zone,
I am scare..

The first time when I felt so down and lost is when my mum passed away..
Now this same feeling came back and I just let it flow inside me..
I cried for few days..

After that, I realize my thoughts are full with questions..
How my future is going to be?
Where am I heading to?
What should I do with my life?
These questions create fear, sadness, and lost in me..

After a while, I learn to accept and practice being in the moment..
Living in the present, calm myself rather than dwelling with the future..

I am feeling much better now..
I am grateful for this is a chance..
For me to change environment..
For me to accept new challenge..
For me to meet new people..

I will never know how my future will be..
But I know no matter what..
It's gonna be alright..



Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Kindness..

"Do not underestimate a moment of your kindness. 
It has the power to change lives in way you may never know."
                                                       

Recently, 
I think of you a lot, mum..
I recalled the times when your friends described you as a kind person..
I knew how you want to help people within your capabilities..

You never really teach me how to be kind..
"Behave yourself!"
That is the only sentence I heard from you always..=D

I do not know when kindness plays an important part in my life..
I am learning to practice kindness as an act of love..

Sometimes, I know I am just being nice instead of kind..
There is a profound meaning between being kind and being nice..
Most people are just being nice but not being kind..

Being nice means behaving courteously and politely so that our behaviour is pleasing or agreeable to others..

Being kind is based on wisdom and without needing to please anyone, including yourself..

To be kind, we need to be bold, daringly bold.
True kindness comes with discernment.
It is inclusive: within and without.
It is all embracing.
It is without limits.

Don't Be Nice, Be Kind! =)


Wednesday, July 5, 2017

I had Stopped..

"Stop the chase. 
Realize that just because something is hard to get, 
doesn't mean it is worth the effort. 
No one is worth running after. 
It is better to find someone who will meet you in the middle."
                                                                

I decided to find people out when I feel lonely..
I decided to watch series of movies just to kill my lonely time..
I decided to chat with strangers through dating apps because I feel lonely..

Every time you play dating apps, 
You are actually feeding to your loneliness..
You are trying to ignore the fact that you are lonely..
You are wasting your time chatting with people whom you clearly know is of no point..

I agreed human beings need companion in life..
Through dating apps, 
You get to know new people..
You chat with them..
You hang out with them..
Then..
The cycle will repeat with new people..

After a while, I find this exhausting and making me feel worse on my loneliness..

The moment when I decided not to keep distracting myself 
because I feel lonely, I knew I grew again..

Instead of wasting my time, 
its time for me to look at a different perspective.. 

At least I have the real courage now to face my loneliness..=)

Friday, June 9, 2017

Take it slow...

"No need to rush things, 
If something is bound to happen, 
It will happen in the right time 
with the right person and for the best reason."
                                                                       

You are wiser after you made mistakes..
Mistakes allow you to learn, be cautious and take it slow..

If this is fate, time will tells..
If you are right for me, time will tell..

In this busy life, we just got to learn to take things slow..
This will allow you to have a clearer picture,
thus, make better decision..

As long as you are clear with your values in life,
You know you are walking on the right path of your life..