Happy Chinese New Year 2009 !!!!

First of all, i want to say to everyone...Happy Chinese New Year!!!...hehehe...as usual my first day of new year, i will stay at home...my relatives still not yet come to visit us...this year might be late... so sad...so i was kinda boring these coming new year day...but i do have plan for myself...hehehe...after all, i finally off work...no longer working part time anymore...yeah...i can start focusing on my study...i want to score good result...i want to enter local university...i want to keep on studying...may God bless me...ok..that's all...i want to go watch any nice chinese new year movie already...once again...Happy Chinese New Year!!!...may this year brings lots of happiness and health to you all...may your dreams come true...hehehe...

A Great Day!!!

This year is my last year of schooling...this mean my last time of attending cross country organized by the school...for the last 5 years, i had never won any prizes in running for cross country...so today i won...i won the number 11th among the 3o0+ students...so happy when i receive this...after that...i never thought my red team had won the champion of this cross country...i was called to go to the stage to receive trophy as i was the girl president of red team together with the guy president...
i think i really can't angry or hate a person for very long time...after 2 days of not talking to her, finally we start to talk back as usual...at that time i just felt relieve as i am not going to angry anyone anymore...its so suffer to angry a person...must well i forgive her but i think i will not forget what she had done to me...i will take this as a lesson for me to learn...don't trust her so much...hehehe...and some more i might going to get a new motor soon..my brother might help me financially to buy a motor...kind of happy...hehehe...
the best thing is 2 more days and we are going to celebrate Happy Chinese New Year!!!this year is the year of ox...may this year bring happiness and good health to me...hehehe...i was going to start my study now...after my last day of work...maybe i will rest for few days then have to start revision already...i really want to achieve my dream...i know i can do it...

Anger...

From the first i already tell myself that if possible try my best not to hate or angry with anyone...to hate a person is a very tiring thing to do...so i always tell myself learn to forgive and forget...sadly the first time i angry with a person...usually if i really get angry i will forget about it the next day but till today i can't talk to that person...not even a word...so i know that when i did really angry with somebody, i would not talk to that person...my mood will just turn dull when i see that person...i so hope that i can scold, shout and tell everything i want to tel to that person...at least by doing this i will feel better...so sad not even a word i was able to speak out...i just keep everything inside my heart...and as usual tears will flow down from my cheek...i thought,yesterday which is 18 of January 2009 will be my best day cause i am going to get something which i really want since December...so sad everything turn upside down...at that moment i got that feeling of being fool by people...i was so sad...thinking from the beginning everything was just a dream...if possible i don't want it to be a dream...i was very disappointed...i thought i can forget about it the next day but its impossible...since morning when i go to school i thought of "how nice if i can have it now"...everything was just like.........i just don't know how to describe...not many people will understand how i feel including that person...i never had such great disappointment before...once and again...that person disappointed me again and again...for the first time i had forgive and forget but the second time was terrible...i can't imagine it really happen to me...i want to try to forgive and forget...maybe it needs time to be able to do this...i just hope it won't take long but my feeling had told me that this was the first time i really get hurt...i need a very long time to heal my pain...

My Biology Project...

Taadaa...finally i and my friends had finished the most difficult part in our biology project, the collection of 25 species of insects...it almost takes us 2 month to complete this...nice right?...hehehe...i like the background of this board so much...we use nature resources to do it like sand and dry leaves...so happy that we did it so well...although this project is 6 people in a group but it seem like only 2 person in this group...majority of the work was done by me and my another friends...the rest kind of help also but not so much...before i complete this project, i got stress up quite a number of times...anyway luckily it had over now...just after we finish up this project, i was so relieved...Thank God...now only left the plants part...it was also almost finish...yeah i finally can rest, can have some time to relax, can have some time for my homework...very happy...hehehe...

Stress...

i can't believe today i wake up late for school...so end up i didn't go to school today...seriously say, kind of sad actually...if can, i want to go to school but i just don't know what happen to my body because it refuse to move...maybe i was really tired recently...i couldn't find any time to rest...i used to sleep at 1am to 2am even during my school day...i don't have enough sleep recently...very tired...really very very tired...sometimes i just hope that i could focus on my study...January 2009 is the most busy month for me...i have to go to school in the meantime i have to work...i tried to manage my time properly and wisely...i really tried my best...i just don't know why i have so many things to do...i hate myself...i don't like myself for being too hardworking and very scare if i didn't complete anythings...and sometimes i hate group work project...i would be the one who worries this and that and would tried my best to do everything in order to complete the project...i just wondering why my group members doesn't seem to be worried...i hate irresponsible person...i hate people who did not put effort in their work...from the group project, it makes me hates this kind of person more...most of the time,only me and one of my friend who did everything...we always sacrificed our time and energy to complete the work...i was very very tired...in future i hope my group members will be like me and my friend...willing to sacrificed...be more responsible...everyone have a limit...i have exceed my limit that is why i was saying something to make me comfortable...or in the other hand to help me release my stress...now i just hope i can complete my work as fast as possible...

The begining of the year 2009...

Today was the first day i went to school as an upper six student studying biology and chemistry subjects...i was kind of shock and feeling tired as i never expect this kind of situation will occurred...
after assembly, we went back into our class...as expected, our new form teacher will come in and discussing the organization of the class...my friend was voted to be the monitor of our class...hahaha...obviously she don't like this post...even me too...anyway i was chosen as her assistant monitor...i will try my best to help her...hehehe...at least she won't feel so tense up... after that our study life start as usual...teachers entering the class and start teaching...i was like thinking "Are we that hurry?"...everything starts so fast..i heard lots of announcement like next week there will be a pre-test for organic chemistry, next week we will have to pass up our biology project, this Wednesday have to pass maths and chem homeworks and do presentation for Pengajian Am...aaarrrghhhh...kind of stress up because i didn't complete yet...seem like suddenly everything move so fast..i want to slow it down...sigh...
then after school, my mum told me that today she want to bake biscuits for Chinese New Year...so i have to take leave for my work...during baking, i start to think...thinking i should speed up myself...thinking i should be more hardworking to finish up my homeworks, get ready for the pre-test...thinking i should plan my time properly as time is golden, i was studying while working..so time is very important to me...i will try to spend my time more wisely....
anyway today will be the start for my last year of schooling...i shall spend my time wisely in school with friends and teachers...hehehe...just be myself...enjoy my life...and my slogan "i know i can do it"...