Trial just over...

Yesterday, my trial STPM just over...till now i never plan to study yet, maybe i can do some revision on my Peng. Am and maths but obviously not bio and chem...i plan to do revision after tanglung festival...now enjoy reading storybook and of course my part time job haven't finish but will end soon...hehehe...as usual planing to celebrate tanglung festival this Saturday but not sure whether i will be able to make it or not because i was still working at that day...hehehe...
Sigh...my trial results really drop...i do felt sad and disappointed with myself but i know i had tried my best...=)...anyway live a happy life...stay happy, stay young...hehehe...

Time for study...

After 2 days of work...it's time to study for my coming trial..i don't think i will be able to study finish but I'll try my best...hehe...i don't put high hope on this trial, just hope for a pass in every subject then I'll be grateful...hahaha...sound so easy right but not to me...I've been wondering my memory start to deteriorate, i hardly be able to remember the fact...maybe i am more suitable to study those not involving fact all the time...in short form i am more to creative thinking...hahaha...anyway i will still study of course...hahaha...hope to go university is one of my wish...i want to experience the life at there...hahaha...i know i can do it...

Obstacles...

First of all i want to ask God, sincerely asking, When will i lead a peaceful life?A life without any obstacles?...pray hard to God for answer...
i do agree about a statement stated "God hid our biggest rewards behind the highest barriers - our deepest fears. God wants us to face our fears, and hold ground in their presence, and let them go, and that's how we get out biggest rewards.
I understand this statement but there are a lot of doubt in my mind...
Why i have to face so many difficulties?
Why couldn't i lead a peaceful and enjoyable life like some of my friends?
Why i have to work part time to earn a living?
Why i can't get a good result in my exam?
Why i can't remember anything that i study?
Why?Why?Why?
There are still a lot of the question "Why" in my mind...
i know and i believe that everything is in God's plan...sigh...kind of tired...tired of living in this world...sigh...God have plans so many obstacles to me that i can't hardly be able to bear it anymore...i know that every obstacle given will have a solution, this is what God's plan, HE want me to look for the solution, be able to solve any problems, and learn to be independent...this is how i always console myself...God, U can't expect me to face so many obstacles which happens continuously...one after another...i am just a lady, i need a shoulder to count on too...i need a shoulder for me to cry out as much as i want...since i heard my mum saying "sigh, so damn tired...sigh...what's the point of living in this world? i can't even buy anything that i like..my salary all gone for the house...sigh...everyday come back from work, have to do housework some more?i can't even find some time to relax, to do something that i like, to enjoy life?"i was just dumb folded figuring out what shall i say...anyway i end up just keep quiet and continue reading books...after that i do keep thinking of this and started asking myself too...what i can say is "tomorrow will be better"...hahaha...always trying to think positive and that's all i can do...

My hectic life begin...

i started working part time today...sigh...i only manage to rest for 2 days after my trial paper...haha...sound like i am a money minded person...haha...most of my friends encourage me not to work, better study for STPM and my another half trial paper which will be on 28th and 29th of September, so better study instead of working...i really got think of the pro and cons...so i just made up my mind to work but don't worry i won't work for very long because i need to prepare for my trial too...i hope i can manage my time well...i got to be more organize now...since i have chose to work so that means some of my time got to be sacrifice...the time for taking nap, time for playing and time for watching movie have to be sacrifice...sob sob...even though i have to work, i will try my best to spend some time for study...i know if i didn't do it, i can guarantee my friends that i am going to fail my bio and chem paper...so got to be extra hardworking d...i shall not disappointed myself and also my mum...hahaha...i was actually luckier to have a considerate mother...my mum won't give me any pressure on my study...she won't say anything such as "you better go study now","don't watch tv, go study","why u get such bad result"...till now i never heard her say so...hahaha...i only heard she will say "don't pressure yourself so much la, relax a bit" especially during exam time...hahaha...that's why she tell me that if i fail also never mine la...hahaha...so i won't have very much tension from my mum but sometimes i do jealous to see some of my friend being pressure by their parents...it's funny right...hehehe...anyway i was feeling very grateful to have such wonderful mother...hahaha...

It did really happen...

I never thought it would happened to me that soon...i hear my uncle told me that every driver will need to experience this...so its the matter of time...sigh...people say during the month of Ghost Festival, better stay at home especially at night...i never thought this would happen...its still fresh in mind...5 of September 2009, i was involved in a motor accident...i was lazy to explain the whole accident...so my dear friends who are interested to know then ask me when u saw me k...i am sure at that time i will explain to u...hehehe...anyway its just a minor accident k but i was the one wounded the most...my left hand and leg got a bit bleeding then lebam...next is my right leg kena lecur a bit then my waist got lebam...aiya...very pain lo...sigh...but i also want to Thank God...i believe God is trying HIS best to save me...luckily just minor injuries...i can't imagine myself in hospital either broken legs or hands...lol...God really bless me...hehehe...

Half of my trial paper is over...

hahaha...just only finish of of my trial exam paper...i got to thank to the school because my another half trial will be in three weeks time and that would be for my biology and chemistry paper...so now i got three more weeks to study for that 2 papers...since i feel i am going to fail my maths paper but hope not pa paper because i really got work hard on pa paper, i do hope my bio and chem paper will pass...this time i really want to pass my chem paper...hopefully my wish do come true...hehehe...now i give myself few days to rest then have to work hard for that two subjects d in the meantime i working part time job after school...so i have to put extra more effort to achieve my goal...i know i can do it...hahaha...