Graduation night coming soon...

As graduation night coming soon its shows that we, the Upper Six 2009 are going to face the STPM and also means we are going to graduate!!!! This event can be consider as 1 of the grand event for the Form Six students...sigh...i shall feeling excited for the day but my feeling was moody...first is because i am having financial problem now and i don't have any dress for that event...my mum call me not to go to the party if we don't have any suitable dress but i don't want to miss that day...it will be one of the memorable day...sigh...i am searching for a solution now...May God come out with a perfect solution for me...honestly say i really don't want to look odd at that graduation night...really pray hard to God...i use to dream of someone giving me money now? although the chances is =0.01%, i do hope this dream can come true...hahaha...Serena!!!Stop Dreaming k!!!!...hahahaha...

A Tough Life To Go...

First of all, thanks very much to all my beloved friends who are always by my side to support me...THANKS A LOT YA...hehe...don't worry i am feeling much better now...i know i still have a long way to go...i must always be ready to face any challenge that are coming...oh ya i retake my MUET exam end of this year...i am not satisfied with my result..sometimes i do believe that everything u do not only need the determination and hardworking but must also have the luck...maybe i am having bad luck recently...bad mood will make everything turn bad...i know i have to learn from mistakes...got to brave up myself...finally i realize that money is really an important thing in our lives...without money u can't do anything...sometimes i do ask God why was Him giving me so many obstacles especially this year,the year for STPM? Why? Can anyone tell me why? Why can't i face it next year? i am really hope time pass faster...after STPM, i will work hard to earn more and more money for my family and also for myself...May God Bless me...so that i will be able to go through this year...

Brave up Serena!!!!

i have played a lot times the quiz asking what your horoscope means? what ur birthday means? and after all i found out that this is true to myself..what written here is quite true...

What Is The Meaning Of Your Birthday?
No matter what, every one will love you because you are ruled by the Moon.You day dream a lot, you have a very low-self esteem, you need to have a back up for every move in your life, you are very unpredictable. You tend to change according to time and circumstances, selfish, have a very strong sense of musical and artistic talent and powerful verbal communication.You can be sweet as an angel and can be ruthless when double-crossed. Some might say you have a sixth sense. You will become a poet, writer, an artist or a business person. You are not strong in love, so your relationship will be in disarray until you settle down. If you are a girl, you will be responsible for your family. If you are a man, you tend to get involve infights & arguments in the family. You will sacrifice your life for your family. You are gentle, intuitive with a broad vision. You make a well-balanced person.

I saw in many TV show stated that whenever u faced any sad things, don't think so much, wash your face and sleep early, tomorrow when you wake up, it will be a brand new day again...i try yesterday...before i fall sleep, i pray to God's once more...the next day i wake up, i feel refresh back...my energy to face the challenge is back to me now...sigh...maybe people will think i am a weird person as i do think myself is weird...i can feel very very miserable for 1 day and the next day this feeling just vanished...unbelievable right...hehehe...anyway life goes on...i can't just die like that...my family needs me and i am sure i am going to miss my family and my friends too...hehehe...so don't worry i am fine now...i have to regain back my energy as just left few more months to go...i know the next challenge might even be much much worse but i got to be well prepare to face it...always be ready...hehehe...

Everything is in God's hand...

My computer got virus and made me can't online for few days...as most people shall know what happen recently...that is the MUET result...i can't believe i got band 3 for my MUET...i don't know what happen also...recently i had been facing a lots of problems...a lots...so much that i hardly can survive anymore...i can considered this year as my toughest year...i am very fatigue now...my strength had been used up...i just hope every unlucky things that happen to me will end soon...i can't bear it anymore...pray hard to God...i am very scared i get depression...i try not to...when i knew bout my MUET result...at that time, my feeling was blank...i so hope i can remain that kind of feeling...neither cry nor relieve...its just blank...but when i was at school, seeing most of my friends...my feeling suddenly feel so down...almost thought of commit suicide and every pain just end...why i got band 3?...i thought i answered that paper quite well...i just don't know why everything turn so bad...i know life is full with happiness and sadness but why am i have been facing so many sadness...where have my happiness gone?...i am trying to regain my strength back..my strength to study for STPM...my strength to live through this year... astrologist said that this year is a good year for horse but i can't get any good things at all...i have tried to console myself but i don't know why this time this doesn't help anything...maybe i use to console myself to lead a happy life and this time i just can't accept anymore...i feel that i am telling a lie to myself...i lied to myself that everything is going to be fine...maybe stress that cause everything but how am i going to release my stress when everything happen to me is bad...not even a good thing i received...false hope...sigh...i envy my fiends...i can say most of my friends...seeing them got good result, lead a life without worries, doesn't really study hard but can get a good result, get to eat and sleep well...i really envy them...i so hope i can have this kind of life but i know only dreams can help me...too many challenge i have to face...i don't know when everything is going to be fine...i just hope that at least God's can give me some time to rest...i need to rest enough to face more and more challenge that is coming...i know i can do it...for one more time i told to myself "i know i can do it, i have to face it no matter what also"...brave up myself...that's my advice to myself...sigh...

Get well soon...

Just drop by to say that my wound are getting better now...
Last Tuesday, 30 June 2009, i went to the hospital to take out my stitches...
although this time will be my second time, i never thought it would be so pain...
so much more pain than my first time...plus from the way the nurse take out my stitches, oh my goodness, it made me feel more pain...hahaha..
anyway now my wound are getting better...hope that the scar won't be that obvious and i shall becareful in the future when handling sharp things...hahaha...