Fighting...

"I would rather be in the friendzone than in a relationship with someone who doesn't appreciate me."

                                                                                      

I have slowly slowly adapt myself back to square one...

I allowed myself to feel sad and emo for few days..

I keep telling myself that I will be alright, time will heal it...

I tried to stay optimistic...

As days go by..

I start to build back the wall that is protecting me with better materials...

I have locked the door to my heart...

One message..

The wall just cracked...

I almost want to open the door...

I am still fighting...

I wondered how much energy left for this fight...

I wondered will I breakdown...

Somehow...

I know my buddies want me to win this fight..

They are ready to support me and stand by my side...

So...

I am trying my best to fight relentlessly...

Move on...

"You lost her and it was not because she is hard to hold, or love, or touch but because she was made of your absence, of all the things you ignored and all the beautiful poetry you read but failed to understand."

                                                                                                            

I know it may takes some time for me to get over it...

Maybe weeks...

Maybe months...

Maybe years...

But I know I can do it!

Because I always believe that.. 

Somehow I will meet the one who deserves me.. =)

Let it go and move on...

Time will heal again...=)

I Met the First Person...

"I am glad we had the times together just to laugh and sing a song, seems like we just got started and then before you know it, the times we had together were gone."

                                                                                                   

I am pretty much sure I met the first person in my life.

This person...
Does not really have any common interest with me.
Yet I feel the compatibility between us.

This person...
Initially makes me have that fear.
Yet I try to overcome my fear.

This person...
Does not seem to be a nature lover person.
Yet enlighten me with a different perspective on how nature goes.

This person...
Looks so stressful with so many things in mind.
I wish I can help to reduce the stress.

This person...
Hardly have time for me.
Yet I still hope that one day there will be time for me.

Somehow,
I really want to keep on believing, keep on hoping that...
Maybe I will become this person priority.
Maybe I am not an option.

This person came to my life and taught me a lot, I felt grateful and happy to came across this person.

But...
I know is time to stop hoping and believing.
I know it is time for me to let it go and move on.