Ego...

I could not find the courage...
   To face you in person for I knew I will end up crying...

I could not find the courage...
   To call you for I knew I will remain silent in the end...

I thought....and thought...and thought...countless times...

What is going on?
What really happen? 

Am I being rude?

Am I wrong again?

Why I feel sad?

Why am I acting like this?

All the unknowns, the questions has been playing around in my mind for the past few weeks...

Somehow today...

I finally realise who is the main culprit behind all these things..

The main culprit for making me acting like this..

*Smirk

Do you know who?

Is a person call Ego.

Because of Ego, 

I act like I did nothing wrong this time..

I act like I did not give a damn on what is going wrong..

I act childishly wanting to win this fight..

If I did not aware of Ego,

I know I will still go on with my life...

I know I will still think I did nothing wrong...

I know I will slowly show no concern to you any more...

I know there will be a distance between you and me when we meet...

All these is just because of Ego...

I gave myself a deep thought...

I asked my heart...

Do I really want these results that ego give me?

I smiled..

Because I realize and grateful that the answer is No...=)