To face you in person for I knew I will end up crying...
I could not find the courage...
To call you for I knew I will remain silent in the end...
I thought....and thought...and thought...countless times...
What is going on?
What really happen?
Am I being rude?
Am I wrong again?
Why I feel sad?
Why am I acting like this?
All the unknowns, the questions has been playing around in my mind for the past few weeks...
Somehow today...
I finally realise who is the main culprit behind all these things..
The main culprit for making me acting like this..
*Smirk
Do you know who?
Is a person call Ego.
Because of Ego,
I act like I did nothing wrong this time..
I act like I did not give a damn on what is going wrong..
I act childishly wanting to win this fight..
If I did not aware of Ego,
I know I will still go on with my life...
I know I will still think I did nothing wrong...
I know I will slowly show no concern to you any more...
I know there will be a distance between you and me when we meet...
All these is just because of Ego...
I gave myself a deep thought...
I asked my heart...
Do I really want these results that ego give me?
I smiled..
Because I realize and grateful that the answer is No...=)
