What a surprise birthday party !

First of all, i would like to thanks to all my beloved friends for planning such wonderful surprise party for me...this year my birthday was celebrated earlier by 6 days due to the coming STPM...hahaha...actually i plan this year i won't be celebrating d because of the STPM la but Thanks GOD for giving me such wonderful friends planning and spending time celebrate for me...Txin was really a great actress, it's was really a surprise party for me...hahaha...

My early birthday party was on 23rd of October 2009...

Txin : Serena, later after school we go Taiping Central k…my sis wana buy shoe so we can go and see also…
Serena : ok…no problem…so that means u come and fetch me?
Txin : yaya…wear nice nice ya…
Srena : Huh…??? Why?
Txin : Aiyo…later I wear nice nice so u also must same like me la…
Serena : ermm…ok.
I start to feel curious…
Txin : Oh ya, don’t eat so full k…later we go eat together…
Serena : Ok since my mum didn’t cook today…^_^
During recess suddenly came two of my friends wishing me “happy birthday” and just ran off…lol…what’s going on…then…
Wei Sheng : Na na..Happy Birthday!
Serena : Huh…???Today is not my birthday.
Wei Sheng : Oh…never mine because tomorrow I can’t wish u d…hehe…
Serena : Huh…tomorrow is also not my birthday… my birthday will be next Thursday…
Wei Sheng : Oh never mine, never mine…hehehe…
I came back home…when I start to prepare for my lunch…came an sms from Poh Juan calling me to wear skirt go out…lol…what big day is that I need to wear skirt?...i just refuse to wear but Poh Juan kept telling me to wear, said me bad serena, if I wear then she will go out with us also…I just laugh non stop but feeling weird with Poh Juan response…she hardly sms me like this…
Anyway suddenly raining, i thought Txin is going to cancel the plan but she insisted to come fetch me go…lol…I hardly believe this…

In Txin’s car…
Txin : Ermm..okok…your dressing quite nice…
Serena : ???
Txin : We go pokok assam eat first then only go Tpg Central…
Serena : Ok…(I thought she wanna fetch Jenni)
I told Txin bout Poh Juan’s sms and she just laugh only…I feel weird because izit really that funny…on the way to pokok assam…
Txin : Eh Poh Juan sms wo…she said go Rex box.( fake sms )
Serena : Oh ok but we can go eat first because Poh Juan won’t so fast reach Tpg rite…
Txin : Oh she already in Tpg…never mine la after Rex box only come back eat la…hehe..
Serena : Oh ok lo…suddenly feel like don’t sing k-box la…
Txin : Har…why le…
Serena : No la..just haven’t found the mood to sing…all so sudden..haha…
Txin : Oh…hahaha…

When we are reaching Rex box…
Serena : Eh I saw poh juan car and li chui car oso…li chui also join us ar…
Txin : yalo...she sot sot 1 la…
Serena : Oh ya lo…hahaha…

In Rex box…
Serena : Txin…why we have to wait outside….quickly ask Juan which room…
Txin : Wait first k…
Then I saw Agnes, Jenni and even Sher Lyn…wondering what happen…
Txin : Eh u all come out didn’t ajak us…
Jenni : oh…^_^
Serena : Yalo…so kebetulan meh…
Txin : Yalo…they cum out with Sgi gang…
Serena : Oh…
then i saw them entering a room while me and Txin wait on the lobby...suddenly i saw a pair of hand telling us to come...i told Txin and she just say come go have a look...i saw is a big room and wondering how many people are those sgi gang?
Suddenly rush out Wei Sheng holding a bouquet of lily for me and i saw most of my friends started to sing "happy birthday" song...oh i was just shock and after all it's a SURPRISE party...hahaha...feeling very touch and happy, tears roll down from my cheeks...really thanks alot to all my beloved friends...love you all always...hehehe...my cakes is the Nash Donuts...hahaha...after eating this birthday cake, got to wait for few more months before can really enjoy eating donuts again...hahaha...in order to finish up the donuts as many as possible, i feed everyone at there...hahaha...so we just sing continuous for 3 hours at rex box...we managed to snap some photo and its already uploaded in facebook!!!

Thank you so much to U all !!!

My heart said...

"Overall my trial results was bad...very disappointed...i was feeling disappointed until i feel numb with myself...i start to feel that i was useless, why i can't remember what i have studied?Why i can't answer such easy question?...no matter how hard i had studied before yet i can't score well in exam...i hate myself...based on this trial results, i suppose to cry out loud but only a few drops roll down my cheeks...i was feeling very sad and disappointed until i don't think by crying will relieve my sadness...i blame myself for not putting much effort, blame myself for not paying attention in the class, blame myself to have such weak memory...i really want to cry out and shout as loud as i can but everything was just my wish...i can't do it...feeling stress with STPM...i try not to think of the past...till now i don't want to accept that i had chose a wrong pathway...i was still struggling to go through this few more months...to console a person is much much easier than to console ourselves..."cool down k...don't so stress ya", this is what i always told my friends and yet i found it difficult for myself to do it...my determination to study was not strong...i want to have strong determination to study just like how i can spend few days doing something i like...i am trying my best now to study for STPM...i don't want to fail...i hate failing...although this trial, i kept saying "fail ma fail lo...not a big deal right...i am ready to fail"...sound so relax but when i really got that result, neither cry nor happy, my mind was just feeling blank...i know my heart was very pain with those kind of results but i didn't cry so badly this time...sometimes i just thought of don't want study anymore...when i see my friends doing homework, i felt tired...when i see my friends studying and doing revision, i felt stress...i feel that everyone around me are so clever, even they didn't studied they still can score well...why i can't be just one of them? i felt myself so stupid...if my friends ask me question, i found it difficult to explain to them or i can't answer the question...feeling useless...sigh...as STPM is reaching, my shoulder feel more and more tired...how i wish the time can stop right now, i was scare to face STPM, i feel even more scared to face my result...i was scare...sob sob..."

i was feeling more better now after writing this blog...
this time i chose to say out instead of crying...as usual i have learn to think positive...there is still time for me to improve...i want to prove to myself that practice makes perfect...i give myself another chance to work hard for my real STPM...to my dearest friends, don't worry about me, i was just expressing my real feeling...don't worry, be happy...=)...my forever slogan "i know i can do it"...i am going to take my last chance...may God bless me...