Thoughts...

“The thought manifests as the word:

The word manifests as the deed:

The deed develops into habit:

and habit hardens into character.

So watch the thought and its ways with care, 

and let it spring from love born out of concern for all beings”

~Gautama Buddha~

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Thoughts can be pretty scary if you let it unguarded..

I am used to think a lot..

Sometimes I wish my mind will just stop thinking..

The thought that have been buzzing in my mind can get pretty annoying..

People told me that I think too much..

I agreed for I can think till a point when...

I need to tell myself..

“Steady, everything will be alright. Nothing to worry about.”

I feels like I am a mad lady..

Seeing how my thoughts come and go..

The only thing I can assure is when..

My true-self really want to tell something,

then my body expression wil be seen easily..

Only people who are close to me..

Will be able to realise me..=)

This is me...

“Remember, when you are deeply in love your mind ceases to be. 

There is no past, only the present moment becomes everything. 

When you are in love the present is the only time, 

the now is all- no past, no future.”

~Osho~

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So fast 6 months had passed..
How are you feeling it? =D

Sometimes you will feel annoy or angry,
When I keep asking you questions..

You feels worried,
When I always skipped my meals..

I guessed you do feels hurt,
When I tease you..

I cannot remember every single things you did told me..

Sometimes I feels I am taking you for granted,
Asking you to be my driver and help me buy stuff..

I still remember your face expression of devastation..
When I cried so badly and saying harsh words..

The moment when I did not convey my message properly to you,
You feels angry and voice out..
That scare me a while..
But I feels touched..
When you actually cried regretting your action..

Sometimes I am trying to bring fun into my life..
When I act cute in front of you..
When I do stupid things and you will say me crazy..
You must have a lot of patience in entertaining me..

So like it or not,
This is me and I see it in myself..

Until today,
Occasionally...
I still ask myself..
Am I really have a boyfriend?

I always feel grateful..
For your presence in my life..

I am pretty sure you will not like the following sentences..

If one day, we will not be able to be together..
Be it death or some other reasons..
Let’s cherish every moments now..
For you have bring colours to my life..
Love you always, my pig..=)

Is a choice...

“Love is a choice.

Love is making a choice every single day, 

to either love or not love.

Sometimes it is easy to love. 

Sometimes it is extremely difficult. 

But at the end of the day, 

it is always a choice.”

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People say fall in love is by chance..
While stay in love is by choice..

I feels both are also choices that you make in your life..

People makes decision every single day,
Is just a difference between conscious and unconscious decisions.

Some people know that they choose their own action..
Some may not realise that the inner self of you have make the decision..

To choose to love a person is easy..
To choose to love the same person every single day,
That will require a lot of works..

Limit...

“Within this life is time, 

And within time is a limit.

Not all notice,

But once you do it changes all”

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Everyone has their own limit..

Limit to learn..
Learning new things..
Learning new words..
Just try to exceed the limit..
By not harming your health..
People grow the most when they are out from their comfort zone..
Keep learning and never stop growing..

Limit to hold..
How much can you hold..
Holding onto someone..
Holding onto something..
When you have exceed your limit of holding,
Letting go may be the best choice..

Limit to give..
The value of giving is priceless..
Giving out your love..
Giving out your time..
Even giving out your life..
Is what we should always practice..
People tend to expect what to receive..
Yet least have expectations on what to give..

Time is running fast and so is your limitation to live...

Awake...

“Be the witness of your thoughts.

You are what observes.

Not what you observe.”

 ~Buddha~

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What you think you are,
You become..

So,
If you tend to think towards the positive side,
Good things will always happen to you..
However,
If you tend to think towards the negative side,
Then eventually you will feel nothing is good for you..

Our thoughts can be pretty amusing..
Sometimes if I am not alert enough,
I may do something unconsciously and cause consequences.

Meditation did make me more awake of my own thoughts..
Useless thoughts that just flow freely..
Messy thoughts that makes you uneasy..
Nonsense thoughts that create fear..

I feel shaken..
I feel scare..
Just observe and embrace it..

Missing you...

”The desire to cry, 

or an overwhelming feeling of sadness for no apparent reason, 

is linked to emotional stress caused by missing someone.”

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Feeling uneasy..
Feeling sad..
Feeling down..

Everything just does not seem right to me..
It has been sometimes I have this feeling..
Feeling of missing someone so much..

3 years ago..
The last time I missed someone so badly..
I almost forgot..
How I cried when just the thought of you..
How I cried in my sleep..

That feeling of missing someone..
Just surge into me like waves..
I am drowning for few nights..

I just let myself drown..
Until I decided to tell you..
I am glad for I feel much better..

Thank you for making me recognise back these feelings..
Love you always..=)

Lucky...

"A man is lucky if he is the first love of a woman. 

A woman is lucky if she is the last love of a man."

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When I told my friends about you..
They always asked me..
Who is that lucky person? =D

You say you are lucky..
In fact..
I am lucky for I believe that you will love me dearly..=)
Your love, care and respect for me..
I see it always..

Having a person beside each other do make us feel less lonely..
We feel valued and appreciated..

Relationships always start with honeymoon period which everything looks good and happy..
After that period, only will be the real test for a relationship to last..
We will never know when the honeymoon period end..
But I promise that I will try my best not to give up on each other so easily..

I do not know how long it may last..
But whatever that happens now..
Will be one of the best memories throughout my life..

Writing down this post is to remind myself in future..
How wonderful you are in my life right now..