Learning to be more independent...

Quite some time i never update my blog...kind of busy actually...so just a brief about my past few weeks...talk about the latest...i just pass 3 paper of my MUET test...now left 1 more paper to go which will be on 12 May 09...anyway most of my friends say this test was very hard but i didn't feel neither hard nor easy...for me is ok la but i don't like what i feel about this test...whenever i say that test is ok, i won't get good result...its true...if i think is very hard at least my result will become better...hehehe...anyway i really hope this won't be true for this test...i really want to get good result for this test because i don't want to retake...have to pay extra money, spend more time...sigh...really hope i can pass my MUET test with flying colours then only i can truly focus on my study...may God bless me k...hehehe...ok another 1 things which i would like to talk about is my Genting trip with my friends...19th and 20th of April, i went for a school trip to Genting...neither very fun nor very bored...but at last i manage to went into the casino...wow...totally a different world inside...the environment was so bad, smell of cigarette ...can't imagine the worker there have to work for hours under such environment, high risk of cancer...anyway i also didn't stay there very long but i thought of want to play...hehehe...so the next day we went to Ipoh for shopping...maybe it was to hectic and tired...so not really in the mood to shop...anyway overall the trip was not bad...do really learn a lot things...i love to learn new things...gain more experience and learn to be observant...recently facing some problems...sigh...very tired...sometimes i just found myself suffocate...hardly to be able to breathe...thinking that i can't go on with my life...sigh but anyway is just a thought...i won't be that stupid to end my life...i know there is still a lot more things to learn...so how can i give up?...i want to learn more...so be optimist...i always bear in my mind about my slogan "i know i can do it"...so i shall learn to be more independent...i know my whole life won't be like that..there must be ups and downs...so just face the challenge now...hehehe...

Doubt....

Something just happened...i don't know is a good things or a bad things...but this time i was quite calm...never over worried...hehehe...i believe as people grew older, their mind start to think more mature...this is what happen to me now...oh my goodness...sometimes i just feel that there is a gap between my friends...not all of course...maybe because i had experienced a lot of things, somethings which i don't hope to experienced it and yet it happened to me...so i learn to be tough...i know everything must end with a solution...so i learn to figure out the solution...there are a lot of things i have thought before...something impossible but what will happen if that is possible? Just like an example of if i was not good in my study, maybe i will start working right after SPM, then i can earn money for my family...if not like now, i still need money from my family...sometimes i just think what is the purpose i study? People will say you get a better degree then your salary will be higher...but i start to doubt...

Time pass quick please...

Recently i felt my life was so busy...i never felt like this before...maybe because i stress up myself...STPM do really a scary examination which makes people headache, hectic and fatigue...almost like dying...anyway i just pass my MUET trial yesterday...i sat for 3 papers except speaking...so at least i do got a good result in paper 1 which is listening part...very happy but yet tired because this was not the real MUET test...how nice if it is...at least i can relieve for a while...anyway 2 more weeks and i am really going to sit for the test...but i can't focus fully on MUET as my mid year exam is coming soon...this time is even much much harder than my previous test...awww...i not really can understand chemistry...really very tired...i so hope this year can pass as fast as possible...i really can't bear to face it...

Busy yet fun...

I can say that this year is the most hectic year i ever faced...somehow is kind of fun also...compare to last year, this year i knew more friends...hehehe...early month of this year i had been busy working and doing biology project and after that i thought i could rest but i had to study for monthly test but the result was bad..sigh...so after attending today's six form counsel meeting...my life start to turn back busy...i have been in charge of the souvenir for Teacher's Day and orientation camp...then i was chosen to participate in Forum Pelajar competition...some more mid year exam is coming and MUET test also...next Wednesday will be MUET trial...oh my godness..almost going die soon...sigh...

Another piece of artwork after 2 years...

When i heard about a stamp design competition which held in school on last Monday, my reaction was nothing...if the past of me i am sure i will be very interested to took part but not now anymore...after all i do took part in this competition...hehe...first is because my friend called me to took part seem like i guarantee will win..hahaha...its funny k...second is because i want to get co curriculum marks...i plan to complete my co curriculum marks as soon as possible so that i can spend more time for study...anyway i started drawing on Tuesday and then spend about an hour per day to complete my drawing...so i took 3 days to complete it as the dateline is on Friday...hehe...when i finished my final touch up, i have the feeling of don't want to pass up..i prefer to keep it...hehehe...anyway i was happy that the drawing turned out great...since i had pass my SPM, i think almost 2 years i never touch on my water color...hehehe...i thought my coloring will drop but luckily i still manage to maintain my standard...hehehe...

School reopen...

Finally after 1 week of holiday, everything back to school life...recently i felt that what i wants to do end up doing nothing...sigh...what's wrong with me actually...i got to wake up from dream now...no longer honeymoon time...now is time to study...today one of my teacher told us about how good if u become a teacher...teacher is the only job that after you graduates, you will automatically become a teacher with a basic salary of almost RM2+++...after that, i just can't understand why suddenly i feel of wanted to be a teacher...one of my friend got shocked and asked me "are you serious?"...then i think throughly all over again...hahaha...i guess i was just out of my mind for a while...after some time of thinking, i don't think i can teach...honestly, i can understand something but i can't explain about it...a funny thing right...hehehe...anyway i will think is a waste of 1 year if i give up STPM and go teaching courses...moreover i wants to experience the life in local university whom my cousin and teachers were telling..."the most enjoyable time in your life is the life in university"...so i don't want to miss this...hehehe...so i think the only way for me to achieve this is to work hard...gambateh serena!!!!hehehe...

Its holiday...

Happy Holiday...hehehe...seem like i had been so long didn't update my blog...anyway i just finish my monthly exam and the result are not that good as what i wish...got improved but also vice versa to certain subject...overall i am kind of disappointed with my result...the effort that i had put shows such kind of result...so just disappointment fill my heart...anyway i will think positively..i shall think this way...i have not put much effort, i shall work even harder and harder now...so this holiday is not a holiday to me...i must take this time to work hard...i still believe if i work hard i will success...i know i can do it...