Learning to be more independent...

Quite some time i never update my blog...kind of busy actually...so just a brief about my past few weeks...talk about the latest...i just pass 3 paper of my MUET test...now left 1 more paper to go which will be on 12 May 09...anyway most of my friends say this test was very hard but i didn't feel neither hard nor easy...for me is ok la but i don't like what i feel about this test...whenever i say that test is ok, i won't get good result...its true...if i think is very hard at least my result will become better...hehehe...anyway i really hope this won't be true for this test...i really want to get good result for this test because i don't want to retake...have to pay extra money, spend more time...sigh...really hope i can pass my MUET test with flying colours then only i can truly focus on my study...may God bless me k...hehehe...ok another 1 things which i would like to talk about is my Genting trip with my friends...19th and 20th of April, i went for a school trip to Genting...neither very fun nor very bored...but at last i manage to went into the casino...wow...totally a different world inside...the environment was so bad, smell of cigarette ...can't imagine the worker there have to work for hours under such environment, high risk of cancer...anyway i also didn't stay there very long but i thought of want to play...hehehe...so the next day we went to Ipoh for shopping...maybe it was to hectic and tired...so not really in the mood to shop...anyway overall the trip was not bad...do really learn a lot things...i love to learn new things...gain more experience and learn to be observant...recently facing some problems...sigh...very tired...sometimes i just found myself suffocate...hardly to be able to breathe...thinking that i can't go on with my life...sigh but anyway is just a thought...i won't be that stupid to end my life...i know there is still a lot more things to learn...so how can i give up?...i want to learn more...so be optimist...i always bear in my mind about my slogan "i know i can do it"...so i shall learn to be more independent...i know my whole life won't be like that..there must be ups and downs...so just face the challenge now...hehehe...