Is a choice...

“Love is a choice.

Love is making a choice every single day, 

to either love or not love.

Sometimes it is easy to love. 

Sometimes it is extremely difficult. 

But at the end of the day, 

it is always a choice.”

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People say fall in love is by chance..
While stay in love is by choice..

I feels both are also choices that you make in your life..

People makes decision every single day,
Is just a difference between conscious and unconscious decisions.

Some people know that they choose their own action..
Some may not realise that the inner self of you have make the decision..

To choose to love a person is easy..
To choose to love the same person every single day,
That will require a lot of works..

Limit...

“Within this life is time, 

And within time is a limit.

Not all notice,

But once you do it changes all”

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Everyone has their own limit..

Limit to learn..
Learning new things..
Learning new words..
Just try to exceed the limit..
By not harming your health..
People grow the most when they are out from their comfort zone..
Keep learning and never stop growing..

Limit to hold..
How much can you hold..
Holding onto someone..
Holding onto something..
When you have exceed your limit of holding,
Letting go may be the best choice..

Limit to give..
The value of giving is priceless..
Giving out your love..
Giving out your time..
Even giving out your life..
Is what we should always practice..
People tend to expect what to receive..
Yet least have expectations on what to give..

Time is running fast and so is your limitation to live...

Awake...

“Be the witness of your thoughts.

You are what observes.

Not what you observe.”

 ~Buddha~

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What you think you are,
You become..

So,
If you tend to think towards the positive side,
Good things will always happen to you..
However,
If you tend to think towards the negative side,
Then eventually you will feel nothing is good for you..

Our thoughts can be pretty amusing..
Sometimes if I am not alert enough,
I may do something unconsciously and cause consequences.

Meditation did make me more awake of my own thoughts..
Useless thoughts that just flow freely..
Messy thoughts that makes you uneasy..
Nonsense thoughts that create fear..

I feel shaken..
I feel scare..
Just observe and embrace it..

Missing you...

”The desire to cry, 

or an overwhelming feeling of sadness for no apparent reason, 

is linked to emotional stress caused by missing someone.”

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Feeling uneasy..
Feeling sad..
Feeling down..

Everything just does not seem right to me..
It has been sometimes I have this feeling..
Feeling of missing someone so much..

3 years ago..
The last time I missed someone so badly..
I almost forgot..
How I cried when just the thought of you..
How I cried in my sleep..

That feeling of missing someone..
Just surge into me like waves..
I am drowning for few nights..

I just let myself drown..
Until I decided to tell you..
I am glad for I feel much better..

Thank you for making me recognise back these feelings..
Love you always..=)

Lucky...

"A man is lucky if he is the first love of a woman. 

A woman is lucky if she is the last love of a man."

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When I told my friends about you..
They always asked me..
Who is that lucky person? =D

You say you are lucky..
In fact..
I am lucky for I believe that you will love me dearly..=)
Your love, care and respect for me..
I see it always..

Having a person beside each other do make us feel less lonely..
We feel valued and appreciated..

Relationships always start with honeymoon period which everything looks good and happy..
After that period, only will be the real test for a relationship to last..
We will never know when the honeymoon period end..
But I promise that I will try my best not to give up on each other so easily..

I do not know how long it may last..
But whatever that happens now..
Will be one of the best memories throughout my life..

Writing down this post is to remind myself in future..
How wonderful you are in my life right now..

3 years...

"In life you may be poor or rich, 

but death is the great equalizer. 

The greatest communism is in death. 

Howsoever you live, it makes no difference; 

death happens equally. 

In life, equality is impossible; 

in death, inequality is impossible. 

Become aware of it, contemplate it."

~ Osho ~ 

                                                 

Just in a blink of an eye, 3 years have passed..

I still miss you..

Although not so often, I know I miss you..

I am pretty sure you must have been either,

In a totally new dimension,

Or reborn again..

I am happy for I have met you in this life..

If you are still here,

I want to share with you my happiness..

Thank you..

Because without you,

I will not be in this life..

Sometimes I will recall the day when you left the world..

Is fast and mystery..

That scene is precious to me..

Vividly clear in my memories..

I did not know how it happened,

But that experience makes me grow a lot..

Way beyond what I expected..

Yet I know you saw how well I handled it..

Just let me miss you more today..

Sadness..

Happiness..

I appreciate it..

I love you, Mum..=)

Thanks to you...

"Love is not a relationship, love is a state of being.

It has nothing to do with anybody else.

One is not 'in love', one is love. 

And of course when one is love, one is in love.

But that is an outcome, a by-product, that is not the source.

The source is that one is love."

~Osho~

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The first time I met you,
Never thought that things will turn out this way..

Maybe you are not sure when it start..
To me, I start to notice you last year..

I still remembered when you texted me "See you on the route"
Really out of my expectation when you patted me halfway on the run..

We chatted as we run..
You passed me the drink..
And also after the run,
When you suddenly poke me before leave..

In my mind, I was like...
Nah, we are just friends..

I guess I kind of like telling myself not to overthink stuff..
Probably my past experiences make me not to over assume things..

Every time when we chat, I just feel like we are trying to drag our conversations..
Because if it stops then I do not know when we will chat again..

I still remembered there is this one night I feels like chatting with you..
But I do not know how to start..

During the trip, I noticed your actions..
I still told myself that we are just friends..
Although, I still do something more than a friend will do..

I am really glad that you tell me the truth..
Which is why I am slowly letting you know more about myself..

Thank you..=)