Sudden Change...

"The secret of health for both mind and body

 is not to mourn for the past, 

nor to worry about the future, 

but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly." 

                                                    

I enjoyed my current work now..
It had been 3 years..
I used to say that I will not work for long in my current work..

Suddenly..
When my boss told me that he decided to close the company,
The fact that I am going to be jobless makes me cry out..

I am scare..
I do not know where should I go now..
How is my life going to be?
I am lost..

This is the time when I realize that I am living in my comfort zone..
So when I am force to leave out from my comfort zone,
I am scare..

The first time when I felt so down and lost is when my mum passed away..
Now this same feeling came back and I just let it flow inside me..
I cried for few days..

After that, I realize my thoughts are full with questions..
How my future is going to be?
Where am I heading to?
What should I do with my life?
These questions create fear, sadness, and lost in me..

After a while, I learn to accept and practice being in the moment..
Living in the present, calm myself rather than dwelling with the future..

I am feeling much better now..
I am grateful for this is a chance..
For me to change environment..
For me to accept new challenge..
For me to meet new people..

I will never know how my future will be..
But I know no matter what..
It's gonna be alright..