Life like a Marathon...

"If you run, you are a runner.

It does not matter how fast or how far.

It does not matter if today is your first day or

if you have been running for twenty tears.

There is no test to pass, no license to earn, no membership card to get.

You just run."

~ John Bingham ~

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My story at Standard Chartered Full Marathon 2018...

At the start of the marathon,

I saw..
Everyone running at their own pace.
Some enjoyed talking while running.
Some already sprinting far from my sight.

I feel..
The nice cool morning breeze.
My heart beats pretty stable.
My body starts to warm up as I keep running.

Halfway through the marathon,

I saw..
Some had slowed down their footsteps.
Some breathing heavily trying to keep running.
Some decided to stop and rest.

I feel..
My stomach grumbled as I need food.
My body keep sweating.
My mind is telling me to rest if I need to.

Almost at the end of the marathon,

I saw..
Some had completed the run.
Some had injured.
Some are still running.

I feel..
My energy is low.
My right leg started to feel pain.
I am fighting against my mind to never give up on the run.

When I end the marathon,

I saw..
People cheering for the runners.
Runners smiling happily as they finish the run.
People taking photos of their achievements.

I feel..
Grateful as I completed another full marathon.
Happy as I can finally rest and have a nice meal.
Exhausted after running non-stop for about 6 hours.

Life like a marathon..
Everyone have to go on their own route in life.
Either you run or walk at your own pace.
You may face obstacles, challenges and helps.
You may experience injuries, failure and victory.
You may feel pain, hopeless and happy.

No matter what, 
Live at your own pace and never give up on Life.
Because at the end of your Life,
How you see Life?
Will be what Life have give you.

Although I decided to stop running for full marathon,
I will never stop running..=)

Sometimes...

"In your hopelessness is the only hope, 

and in your desirelessness is your only fullfillment,

 and in your tremendous helplessness,

 suddenly the whole existence starts helping you."

~Osho~

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Sometimes I am happy,
Because I get to do what I really enjoy doing.

Sometimes I am sad,
Because I do not get to spend my time with other things.

Sometimes I feel contented,
As I have a shelter, food, clothing and water.

Sometimes I feel greedy,
As I hope I can get better things.

Sometimes I am afraid,
Because I do not know what is my future going to be.

Sometimes I am fearless,
Because I know that death is our final destination.

I saw my emotions..
I can feel it..

Aloneness..

"Aloneness simply means completeness.

 You are whole; 
there is no need of anybody else to complete you. 

So try to find out your innermost center where you are always alone, have always been alone. 

In life, in death - wherever you are - you will be alone."

~ Osho ~

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We are always afraid of being alone; being lonely..

We rather stick to discomfort, sadness, frustration, and annoyance..

Aloneness is a deep form of you that is hard to understand..

There are articles that stated to be really happy especially in relationship..

First, you need to be alone; you need to know what you want; who you are..

I do agree that we need to know what we want in our life..

Be truth to yourself before you fall into any relationship..

However, loneliness is quite scary..

Sometimes being alone for too long, makes me feel scare..

No matter how comfortable I am being alone..

I do hope to meet..

Someone that can walk hand in hand with me..

Someone that I can fully put my trust on..

Someone that connects with me..

Despite the past years where I do tried to look for that person..

I decided to stop searching and slowly walks on my own path..

Deep down I know that..

I cannot waste my time looking anymore..

I may fall for the wrong guy if I insist to be in a relationship..

Hence,

I can only put my trust that..

While I am walking on my own path, 

I will meet you along the way..

Smile..

"Happiness happens when you fit with your life;

When you fit so harmoniously 

that whatsoever you are doing is your joy."

~Osho~

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Since I started looking at the world on a brighter view, I smile a lot..

I realized that there are so many things..

To feel impress..

To feel amuse..

To feel grateful..

Do not cling to negativity..

Because things will change..

Do not take things to personal..

Because things might not be you..

I watched an interesting short video..

The whole content says this:
"We don't LAUGH on the same JOKE again.

  Why do we CRY on the same PROBLEM again?"

We will never know what our future will be..

Are we going to fall sick?

Are we going to have our own family?

Are we going to be rich or famous?

Are we going to get into an accident?

So no matter what happens, 

just SMILE and everything is gonna be ALRIGHT..=) 

   

Wants...

"Stop caring what people think. 

Stop taking caution in your actions, 

Listen to what you want, 

Do what you want, 

This is your life. 

Live it."

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Am I chasing what I want in my life?
Am I on the right path?

Most of the time, my answer is a yes..
I have seen how much I have grown..
I am more clear with my own goals..

I am happy now on my own..
I realized happiness have nothing to do with people or things..

True happiness comes within you,
No matter where you are..
No matter what you do..
No matter who you meet..

Of course two is better than one..
I do really wants to meet another person that will walk with me..
People told me that I need to know who I want to attract the person itself..

Question is..
What do I want from a relationship?
I have yet to know the answer..

Sometimes, I wondered...
Have I met you?
Have I missed out the sight of you?

I still have my own issues to settle..
I just wish if I happen to meet you,
Please let me know..=)

Happiness...

"Happiness starts with you. 

Not with your relationship, not with your job, 

not with your money, but with you."

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I am not sure..

Am I really happy with my life now?

At least,

My heart is at peace.

My mind is at ease.

My body is fine.

I start to believe if you are really happy,

People sense your happiness.

Recalling back my memories,

I am surprised, contented, lucky, grateful and happy.

For I had changed to become the who I am today. 

Stay positive with your life.

Stay motivated with your life.

Stay hopeful with your life.

Stay happy with your life.

There is no path to happiness.

Happiness is the path. =)

Own path...

"Do not go where the path may lead, 

go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."

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Titi is a small town in Negeri Sembilan..

A town where Hakka communities reside..

Pretty small and chill town..

People here mostly are either retired, old people..

Or youngsters waiting to graduate from secondary school..

After all I have been through..

Finally, I decided to choose the path less taken..

Questions like..

Why do you come here?

Of all place, why Titi town?

Why do you want to work in a farm?

I cannot really give an exact answer..

Recently, my dearest friend asked me..

"Is this the life you have always wanted? 

Or the life you have imagined it to be?"

I stopped and think for a moment..

As this question never came across me..

I would not say my current life is what I have imagined it to be..

I would not say this is my dream life..

I would not even say this is what I want..

But..

I enjoyed what I am doing now..

I appreciated what I am having now..

I contented with who I am now..

Everyone got to walk on their own path..

No matter how difficult it will be..

No matter how challenging it will be..

No matter how lonely it will be..

The legs are yours..

Stand straight and look forward..

You just got to walk on your own..

As long as I know I still can walk..

I will never stop walking..