Missing you...

 "It takes someone really brave to be a mother, 

someone strong to raise a child and 

someone special to love someone more than herself."

                                                        

I miss you, mum! =)

Although I did not miss you every single day..

When I do, I still hope to meet you, to hug you and to talk to you all days..

Sometimes I wondered who will I be if you are still here..

Who I am today, will it be the same if you are here?

If I can trade anything that I have with just 5 minutes of meeting you, 

I will be so willingly and grateful to accept this trade..

Sadly, this trade will never come..

It will only be my dream..

Thank you for I have been smiling thinking of you..

Thank you for your sacrifices that makes me realize the importance of health..

Thank you for giving me this chance of living on my own..

Thank you for whatever you have did, is for my own good..

Thank you for I am proud to be your daughter..

Thank you so much and I will always miss you, mum! =)

Lets meet again in our next life..=D

Loving myself..

"If you love yourself, you love others.

 If you hate yourself, you hate others.

 Because in relationship with others...

the other is nothing but a mirror.."

 ~Osho~

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I am glad that I am on the right path..

Although it may be a bit slow, do I need to rush?

As I know myself more..

I think it is time to make some changes to myself..

After all, I am still young to fall, get up and fall again..

As long as I am standing strong on my own principle of life, I am doing alright..

I may need to let go a lot of stuff..

But true stuff will be always be with you when there is chance..

This is my life and I have full responsibility on it..

Changes is beautiful..

I have faith in myself..=)

Gratitude..

"I have to really love something for me to want it, 

crave it, spend my time on it, and 

give it a second chance."

                                                            

Hi my friend,

I decided to leave you as fast as you came into my life..

Thank you for becoming a short chapter in my life..

You allow me to experience the comfort of companionship.
You do help to temporary reduce my loneliness feeling.

You make me realize that I am not kind, I am just being nice to you.

Along the path, 

If I happen to do something that makes you sad or angry, please forgive me..

No matter what you said and do to me, I will forgive you..

I am sorry for cutting you off because..

I am stress..

I am scare.. 

I feel tired..

My sincere gratitude to you..

I hope you will be able to find back the confidence in you..

I hope you will be able to find back yourself, to know what you in want in your life..

I hope you will be able to meet that one person whom will choose to walk the path of life with you forever..

I hope you will learn to respect people as well as yourself truly..

I hope you will learn that happiness cannot be gain externally, start to look for happiness within yourself..

I hope soon you will understand that money is important but money is not everything..

I hope soon you will know that whatever changes in yourself, how you think of yourself is all up to your own decision, so choose to change for the better in you..

Always believe in yourself, I know you can do it! =)

Compassion...

“Sometimes it’s a form of love just to talk to somebody 

that you have nothing in common with and 

still be fascinated by their presence.”

                                                                                       

There is always a reason someone appear in your life..

Whether is good or bad..

It's all up to you on how you see it..

I am lucky to be able to explore the different types of love that are with us..

I experienced the love from close family..

I felt connected with my buddies..

I felt the love toward works and life..

I even explored the love that you are having a serious crush on someone..

Haha..I know I am weird and crazy..

Recently, I am trying to practice loving-kindness or be compassionate to people..

You got to be kind to yourself..

You got to be kind to your loved ones..

You got to be kind to strangers..

And lastly, be kind to your enemies..

My sincere gratitude to you for allowing me to practice compassion..

I cannot assure you that I will develop feelings for you..

But I am sure that my help for you is just out of compassion..

I hope you will be alright soon..

Always believe that...

After the thunderstorm, here come the beautiful sun shine brightly at you..

I know you can do it..  

Interesting...

The truth is, 

you only ever get one guaranteed forever person in life: 

And that person is you.

                                                                          

I always told my friends, "I am weird!"
They said, "YES, YOU ARE!!" 

Hahaha

I am always the one that throw questions which require deep thinking in a gathering with my friends. 

Although, some questions maybe tiring, confusing, blur, and took longer time to think of the answers, they enjoyed conversation like this because it creates bonding to have a better understanding on yourself. 

As interesting as it seems to me, I enjoyed the friendly debate among us. It allows me...
To see how ego works..

To see the sense of self in us..

To feel how your emotions go during the debate..

Surprisingly, my point of views are always contradict to the norm..

It's okay because everyone of us have our own definition or answer for the questions..

Respect is all we need..=)

Being Aware..

" The day you decide that you are more interested in being aware of your thoughts than you are in the thoughts themselves- that is the day you will find your way out."

                                                                                                            

I am glad that I attended the 10 days meditation retreat.

I gain something that I never expect I will be able to know about it which is Awareness. 

Do you know that..

Feelings (happiness, sadness, anger n etc) are all temporary?

Do you know that..

Everyday is actually never the same?

 

Do you know that..

Nothing is permanent?

If you always practice self-awareness, you will soon realize that...

We, humans, have complicated our own lives..

In fact, life is actually simple! =)

Thank You 2016...

 "Time flies, but the memories collected along the way can never be replaced."

                                                                                 

I still have some memories of 2015 and I barely believe that I am ending my 2016 to welcome 2017..

First of all, I just want to say "THANK YOU!"

Thanks to everything that happened in 2016..
I am so grateful that 2016 is a wonderful year for me..

As I have told myself to lead a better life since u left..
I guess I am doing my best, right? =)

You actually gave me the courage..
To overcome my fear..
To achieve what I want in my life..
To lead a happy and healthy lifestyle..

There are still some sad memories that happen in 2016..
I am happy that I keep learning..

Never in my life, I felt so contented, blissful, and gratitude..
For I have achieved some of the goals that I aim..

1) At last, I went to Sabah and it was a wonderful trip I enjoy so much.
2) I am leading a healthy diet by eating cooked food and cutting down the consumption of processed food, snacks and fast food.
3) I exercise regularly.
4) I completed my first half marathon.
5) I seriously attend workshop and become an OPM practitioner.
6) I will be attending a 10 days meditation retreat in Taiping.
 
I am proud of myself..
I am proud to be your daughter..

I am ready to welcome 2017!
I am sure is gonna be another great year ahead!

P/S:
Dear Mum,
I will be living better as years goes on. 
Thank you for bringing me to this world. 
You are the best mum ever!
I love you always and forever!
=D