Thoughts...

Thoughts come and go in our daily lives.
Thoughts varies according to our mood.

When happy...
I thought of building my own house.
I thought of involving myself to music.
I thought of success in my career path.
I thought of living my life without worries.
I thought of getting close to the nature as much as I can.
I thought of doing something incredible like handcraft stuff.

When sad...
I thought of myself being ugly, fat and anti-social.
I thought of myself being so useless and hopeless.
I thought of hiding myself until people come and look for me.
I thought of running away to a place where nobody know me.
I thought of myself as a lazy person that always waste my time.
I thought of ending my life because I am tired of living in this world.

When jealous...
I thought of how will I be if I am a genius.
I thought of how will I be if I am a celebrity.
I thought of how I wish I am born in a rich family.
I thought of why certain people have good and easy life.
I thought of why people have such loving and happy family.
I thought of blaming the world for giving me such difficult path to walk.

When lonely...
I thought of having a pet to talk with.
I thought of disconnecting myself from everyone.
I thought of having someone special to spend times together.
I thought of the memories spend with my mum back in Taiping.
I thought of my mum still living and waiting me to go back Taiping.
I thought of showing my vulnerabilities to someone I am really comfortable with.

When angry...
I thought of  forever not talking to people that cheat.
I thought of scolding ignorant people that waste food.
I thought of killing ignorant people that destroy the nature.
I thought of punishing road bully that endanger other people lives.
I thought of telling the whole world how stupidity a person can be.
I thought of blaming myself for being so ignorant to all the bad things that happen.

All these are part of my thoughts; come and go as they wish.
Awareness is important to allow you to determine your thoughts.

Some thoughts can be achieved.
Some thoughts can be forgotten.

Allow the thoughts to come and go.
As long as you are aware with yourself, never let negative thoughts consume you.

Always have a good laugh at your thoughts.
This is what I did always...=D

The One...

The One is always by your side through thick and thin.
The One is always by your side through sick and health.
The One is always by your side since the day you born.

The One see you grow.
The One see you fall.
The One see you happy.

The One will never give up on you.
The One will face death and live together with you.
The One will never forget you, yet you always ignore it.

I am grateful for I have found mine...
Even though, sometimes I am not sure but I think is The One...

Have you found yours? =)

You and The Unknown...

There are many things in our life is full with uncertainties and mystery.

It is never about other person;
It is always You...

To LOOK...
To LISTEN...
To SEE...
To CARE...
To AWARE..
To LOVE...

You, yourself.

The Unknown, creates FEAR.
The Unknown, makes you in DOUBT.
The Unknown, remains UNKNOWN if you chose to ignore.

The Unknown, requires COURAGE.
The Unknown, helps you GROW.
The Unknown, needs to be EXPLORE.

Once explore, The Unknown will disappear and You grow again.

My wish with you..

As the day approaching,
You are in my mind more frequent...

When I remembered memories of you laughs and jokes with me,
I smile and even laugh foolishly...

When I remembered memories of you in pain, weak, hopeless and suffer,
I cry silently...

Sometimes,
I wish I could turn back the time...

Sometimes,
I wish I could disappear your suffering...

Sometimes,
I wish I could fulfill your dreams...

Just sometimes,
I wish I can meet you;
I wish I can talk to you;
I wish I can hug you;
I wish I can kiss you;

I just wish to be by your side always...

My wish with you....will never be achieved.

Fulfillment...

When a problem or something unusual occur in your life...

You will start to think...

And think...

And think...

You may come out with many reasons or analysis results...

You may come out with one or plenty solutions...

You may even seek for advises...

Just when you thought you have finally know how to solve it,

Suddenly comes a thought...

A thought...

That makes you feel at ease...

That makes you think differently...

That makes you laugh at yourself...

Your whole self will come to peace...

And that is how fulfillment achieved...

How you define LOVE?

There are many definition of Love...
Everyone had their own definition of Love...

Some even define Love according to family, siblings, lover and etc.

To me...

Love is simple and it must allows freedom.

"A mature person has the integrity to be alone. 

And when a mature person gives love, he gives without any strings attached to it: he simply gives. 

And when a mature person gives love, he feel grateful that you have accepted his love, not vice versa.

He does not expect you to be thankful for it: no, not at all, he does not even need your thanks.

He thanks you for accepting his love.

And when two mature persons are in love, one of the greatest paradoxes of life happens, one of the most beautiful phenomena: they are together and yet tremendously alone, they are together so much so that they are almost one.

But their oneness does not destroy their individuality; in fact, it enhances it: they become more individual.

Two mature persons in love help each other to become more free. 

There is no politics involved, no diplomacy, no effort to dominate.

How can you dominate the person you love?

Just think over it..."

*Adaptation from Osho

To love and not to be jealous; 

To love and not to be possessive; 

To love and let the other have all their freedom;

Is really a great achievement. 

Only then will you really experience love and its fragrance...=)

Ego...

I could not find the courage...
   To face you in person for I knew I will end up crying...

I could not find the courage...
   To call you for I knew I will remain silent in the end...

I thought....and thought...and thought...countless times...

What is going on?
What really happen? 

Am I being rude?

Am I wrong again?

Why I feel sad?

Why am I acting like this?

All the unknowns, the questions has been playing around in my mind for the past few weeks...

Somehow today...

I finally realise who is the main culprit behind all these things..

The main culprit for making me acting like this..

*Smirk

Do you know who?

Is a person call Ego.

Because of Ego, 

I act like I did nothing wrong this time..

I act like I did not give a damn on what is going wrong..

I act childishly wanting to win this fight..

If I did not aware of Ego,

I know I will still go on with my life...

I know I will still think I did nothing wrong...

I know I will slowly show no concern to you any more...

I know there will be a distance between you and me when we meet...

All these is just because of Ego...

I gave myself a deep thought...

I asked my heart...

Do I really want these results that ego give me?

I smiled..

Because I realize and grateful that the answer is No...=)