My True-self...

Excited...Curious....Scared...

2012-02-11T08:09:00.000-08:00

Currently in my university for the 3rd IASS(International Agriculture Student Symposium)...this is an international event that held once a year in our faculty...it is about sharing the agriculture technology and culture too...i am glad that i have pass the interview to become one of the members...hehehe...this time i challenge myself because if i recalled my past, i will join the design department for almost every event...this time i join the diplomatic department which require good communication skills...this department is important to take care and build a good relationship with the participant from all around the world...hehehe...so this time the countries that involved is Canada, China, Japan, Philippines, Indonesia, Thailand, Russia, United Arab Emirates and Malaysia...
i am EXCITED because i never join such grand international event...
i am CURIOUS because i want to know how is it going to be...
i am SCARED because i scare i cannot communicate well with the participant...
hahahaha....i do hope everything is going smooth and fun...and the most important thing is i am sure i will learn a lot of things from this event...^_^

Jz drop by...^_^

2012-01-02T17:00:00.000-08:00

Hahaha...i cannot believe that i was sooooo busy till i really do not have the time to update my blog...maybe partly is because of internet connection too...anyway just drop by to say few sentence to my friends:
"Good luck in finals!!!"
"Hope to see u all soon!!^_^"
The first day of me coming to UPM is stil fresh in my mind but i am going to finish my third semester soon so i just left 5 more semester to go...how can time flew so fast till you barely have the speed to follow it? My following semester is going to be as busy as third semester...sigh...i do manage to lose few grams maybe of my weight...hahaha...but my skin turn darker and darker especially my hands...sob sob...many people told me to use this skincare products, wear this and that protection...hahaha...i gave up on those cause i know i am going to face the sun for another 2 years or maybe till i worked, so already gave up in turning my skin fairer...i guess i will choose dark skin better...hahahaha...
My New Year resolution......ermm...wait ya...let me think think...erm...do i make New Year resolution before? hahahaha...i guess i will just hope for a better year ahead...can't wait for Chinese New Year to arrive...hehehe...

P/S: i should be studying now for my finals but since the internet connection is good, i will take this chance to update my blog. K shall back to study mood again...sigh...

Busy...busy...busy...

2011-10-05T00:02:00.000-07:00

If you call me to describe one word for my third semester, i can only tell you "busy"...hahahaha...I came UPM for roughly 3 weeks and i did not get to go Midvalley at all...hahahha...i have been so busy visiting the farm, doing reports, meetings, taking care of my trees and vegetables...hahahaha...anyway i did enjoy going to the farm...hahahaha...i am currently planting onion and kangkung, then have been giving the responsibility to take care of 6 durian trees of 7 months old...hahahaha...got to make sure that the trees does not die because if die mean i am going to fail this practical result...so really have to put in effort...hahaha...starting from the month of September, many things happened around me...got good, bad, sad and happy things...anyway i learn a lot throughout this month...hopefully everything is fine now...exam is coming so got to study hard lo...hahaha...actually now i really wish for a motor...sigh...UPM is so big that i find it so difficult to walk...too many farm and they are not all in a place...it can happen to be fruit farm is on the South while vegetable farm is on the North...sigh...i turn darker and darker...i scare i might become Indian soon...hahaha...

Back to UPM...

2011-09-18T15:25:00.000-07:00

The first thing when i reach UPM, i face water shortage...OMG...this is how UPM welcome me back...so damn sad as i not really can tidy my room properly cos no water...i want to mop the floor but no water...sigh...now even wan to get drinking water also a problem...hopefully water supply will be back soon...pray hard to God...

After reading back the one week lesson that i have miss, i did feel scared because this semester is much harder than previous semester...quite a lot of tests and practicals...hopefully i will be able to cope with it...shall work hard and less fun d...sad sad...hahahahaha...

Anyway at first plan next weekend only go back but seem like this time i forget 2 bring too many things d...i do not know why...very sad lo...maybe holiday too long till forget many things that are not in my room...i forget my toner, lotion and toothpaste and many more that not really important as compare to this...sigh...still thinking whether want to go back this weekend or next weekend...

I learn the most precious lesson...

2011-09-14T12:12:00.000-07:00

If I recalled back last last time how I used to help my mum with her household chores, I realize that I am just helping only a very little things…the job as a housewife is not as easy as it seem…hahahaha…only when you are in the real situation, you understand something...I used to think that why my mum is being so busy at home that I hardly saw her take a rest…I will never forget last Monday, 12.9.2011, this is the day which I finally realize how hard the life of a mother…hahahaha…I will never forget that day because start from 9am till 3pm I have doing what a mother should do…offer food to God’s, wash clothes, hang clothes, boil water, prepare food for lunch, cook, bath my mum and few more that I cannot remember d…hahahahaha…i did manage to take a rest for few minutes then there will just be something to do...hahahaha...it was really a tiring day for me but I did learn a lot that day…thanks God for giving me this opportunity to learn what a precious lesson…hahahaha…I guess the next time I am back home, I shall help my mum to do as much work as I can…hahahaha…

I really want to go back study but suddenly my heart feels so heavy to leave my mum alone in the house…I do wish that I am still on holiday then I have no worries about my studies…I worried my mum being alone in the house…she must feel lonely without me by her side talking to her and taking care of her…I felt sad for myself too…I did want to go back UPM but I also do not want to leave my mum alone...sigh…as time approaching, I have mixed feeling…I am happy because I get to study but I also feel sad because I have to leave my mum…how I wish to keep her by my side all the time…what I can do now is to pray to God…
I hope that she is fine without me by her side…
I hope that she is always happy…
I hope that her wound can heal faster…
I hope that she can regain her energy and rest at home as long as she wants…
I am willing to do anything as long as my prayers is hear…Thanks God…^_^

My choice...

2011-09-10T05:16:00.000-07:00

If you will be given another one week holiday, will you be happy?
I guess the answer should be yes, of course…^_^
However I did not feel that…

I see and read many of my friends who are now packing and feeling sad of leaving their hometown…most of us seem to refuse to go back study while me was given another 1 week holiday…hahahaha…I should feel grateful right…the reason is I have to take care of my mum who have just finish surgery…
Luckily my mum are now getting better so hopefully by the time I am really have to go back study, she can take care of herself…My brothers? If I really depend on them, the house will be in complete mess…so I have to stay at home not only take care of my mum but also to do all the household chores…at last I understand how great our mum is to in charge of the house…keeping a house in clean condition is quite a challenge…hahahaha…luckily I did manage to do it well…hahahaha…

I guess hardly there are people who can understand my feelings now…if nothing happens, then I should now be in my hostel room blogging about how I feel to be in UPM…hahahaha…sometimes things are just not in our control…I never thought that I would skip for a week classes…anyway this is my choice and i will never regret it…^_^

2011-09-04T00:10:00.000-07:00

So fast my 4 months of holiday is going to end soon…I feel sad but at the same time also happy a bit…I am sad because I cannot take care of my mum when she really need me and happy because I can study back…4 months of holiday neither be short nor long…time just pass so fast that you barely follow up the speed…I guess I will just like to make a summary for my holidays…hahahaha…

SUMMARY OF MY 4 MONTHS HOLIDAY

May (the starting holiday month)
My holiday started and I feel so happy to be back Taiping and meet all my friends…this is the only month where I met majority of my friends…although we hardly got any big project that I can remember but I do met Sher-Lyn who going back Singapore at the end of the month…hahahaha…shall meet her back during next year CNY..

June (the slow and steady month)
Hahahahaha….I think for quite a long time to figure out what is happening during this month and I get nothings…hahahaha…maybe someone can let me know because I guess this month I stay most of the time at home, watching dramas and doing my university task…hahahaha…if I not mistaken there is this one times that we went out to Station One at night and really enjoy the music and games too…^_^

July (the most enjoyable month)
This month was quite nice…the first day of the month already went to Penang with Poh Juan, Txin and Li Chui…quite an enjoyable trip that I can still remember…hahahaha…then went to Sunway Lagoon with Txin, Khai Li, Jen Yong, Yan Ming, Jennifer, Poh Juan and Poh Juan’s friend, Alex…this trip was very fun…after a long long time I did not enter Sunway Lagoon, finally I get to go and I feel so excited…hahahaha…during that time get to met up with Cynthia, Shirleen, Khai Ming and Jun-Lyn was nice too…hahahaha…do not forget another trip to Ipoh with Txin, Jennifer, Poh Juan and Alex…that is also another nice trip to Ipoh…not only get to eat nice food, we also manage to visit beautiful temple in Ipoh…yeah…hahaha…

August (the fastest month)
To me, this month pass the fastest…the first of August, I started working and just yesterday that I end my works…so most of the time I spend was in my working place…but during this month I did went to Penang with Siew Yong, Txin, Jennifer and Jing Rui…quite nice too because we went to Gurney Drive to eat…hahahahaa…then there is few farewell gathering for Jane and Siew Yong…one back to Texas and the other one is Miri…oh not to forget a very nice and big sleepover at Txin house on the end of the month…that was also a very nice things…We chat and play all along then too bad that I have to work so I could not join them to Mcd for breakfast…hahaha…

THE END

1 more week to go…
Now I shall spend my last week in Taiping to the fullness…I have a lot of place to go and a lot of food to eat…hahahaha…hopefully my mum is going to get well soon and hopefully my coming semester will be more fun…hahahaha…I really miss studying and excited to meet my juniors…hahahaha…so fast I am now a senior…one last things, to my buddies, hopefully we will have lots of gathering in KL too...hahahaha…

I hate my current mood...

2011-08-08T09:55:00.000-07:00

Recently been in a moody state most of the time...sigh...i hate my current mood and i cannot make myself happy...the main problem is i do not know the reason why i feel moody...maybe because i feel sick as i have been falling sick since holiday...sigh...i just hope i will be happy back again soon...please go away my moody mood...i hate it!!!!!

I do not know why out of sudden i will be in an emo state...hopefully by writing out my current mood will make it disappear from me as fast as possible...I know i can do it!!! all i need is time...

Hong Kong Drama...

2011-06-28T07:42:00.000-07:00

Maybe it is due to recently being spend most of the time watching Hong Kong drama, I start to feel that Hong Kong drama is kind of boring...hahahaha...maybe it is also because I watch too fast that is why I hardly can remember the drama...I also started to feel that the background prop of the Hong Kong drama really not good...I can say almost 80% of the drama background is fake...their budget is so low that makes the whole drama boring...the only thing that I am impress is the actors and actress...they are really good because they tried to improve the overall standard of the drama...if without them, I think Hong Kong drama will not be that nice any more...but the storyline of Hong Kong drama is getting boring...hardly there is anything memorable that I can remember after watching the drama...I watch quite a number of Hong Kong drama since my holiday start and I can hardly remember any nice parts that want me to watch them for the second time...I cannot say it is about my speed of watching the drama because even watching Korean and Taiwan drama, there is part that I would love to watch again...Korean drama is far more interesting including the background and the look of the Korean people are also better looking...hahahaha...sigh...started to feel disappointed with Hong Kong drama...so I am now planing to quickly complete watching few more Hong Kong drama and then can delete from my movie collection d...then i can look forward for Korean drama...hahahaha...

Recover with some memories...

2011-06-25T02:13:00.000-07:00

Last Monday was my last day of wrapping the pampers and I felt extremely tired that day but still going out at night with friends…I am still fine with this but just one day after Monday, I catch a mild cold but I again go out to Txin house to watch Jay Chou concert…hahaha..of course through DVD in her home…then the next day, I felt dizzy and slight fever…so as usual I know what to do that is eat panadol and let myself rest…but the mild fever just come and go and come again…hahaha…in the evening I felt okay but at night I start to feel dizzy and my cold still have not fully recover…so again take medicine and rest…hahahaha…early morning, my bro wake me up cal me to bring him to work…that time I felt okay again so I just get up as I also felt that I sleep too much…hahahaha…but after came home, I felt not really good…again feeling uncomfortable but not as worse as yesterday…I planned to go visit doctor at 10am but no helmet so cannot follow my second bro out…so I rest again and planned to visit the doctor at 2pm…my mum phone me at 10.30am and told me that if I follow my bro out later then I have to wait till 3pm only will have doctor…you know yesterday is Friday which explained everything…hahahaha…so I continue to sleep and kind of lazy want to wait for so long so I give up on meeting the doctor at 2pm…my mum say if really not well then she bring me meet the doctor at 7pm…actually I am feeling much better already but not yet fully recover…my friends did called me out yesterday but I think I really cannot and I got thought of go someone funeral but at last I gave up also…after dinner, my mum gave me flu medicine to eat and I fall asleep after that…hahaha…I think I slept from 8.30pm yesterday till 6.30am today….woke up morning because bring my mum to market…of course drive car because I scare the morning breeze might cause me to fell sick again if I drive motor…hahaha…anyway thanks God as I finally recover…

Suddenly feeling weird of what I am thinking yesterday…if I can still recalled, I found it weird…as I fell asleep, I recalled back the time I in UPM; when I sit the bus to main campus, when I have been alone in the library studying and the time in my hostel room watching movie and also chatting with roommates and course mates…I also think back of the time I had with my buddies at a lot of places; Tambun Lost World, Gua Tempurung and shopping at Queensbay Mall…hahahaha…suddenly missed all this moment together…I am now getting use to the life in Taiping, I do not know what will happen when I have to go back to UPM…maybe homesick and missed my buddies again but at the same time excited as i can learn more of my courses and graduated…although I do not know what my future might be, I am going to face it bravely…even though in the future I might end up working at the field not related to my course, I will try my best to do for the best…hahahaha…

So to my friends,
Do not think so much of what your future might be…do not worry too much of what you will be in the future…as long as you been able to live each and every day with no regrets; you have did the best for yourself…hahahaha…crapping again but this is what I always told myself…I am now trying to live my life with no regrets but I just feel that my life is some kind of boring…hahahaha…

How your future will be?

2011-06-18T00:53:00.000-07:00

This thought came in my mind today…suddenly feeling curious of my future…hahahaha…now I lead a not really exciting yet not really boring life…sigh…other than eating, sleeping and bathing, I will just online, read books and watch drama…sigh…been repeating this kind of life since holiday…I do went out with friends for movies, drink and recently is picnic…it is this part that add to the exciting point of my life…I know human being will never satisfied with what they have…when you are given this, you ask for that…so when you get that more than you wish for, than you will hope to get back this…hahaha…actually I am describing myself…for examples, if I everyday went out with friends, I will miss the time staying at home and vice versa…just the same as a single person will always hope to find a partner because they do not want to stay single and yet for some people who are now currently couple might wish to go back to their single life…this is my today thought…this thought always come in my mind, I want to kick it out because it make me feel life is kind of boring but I know maybe I need to use my whole lifetime to get rid of it…never mine I know this thought will disappear soon but also will reappear again…hahahaha…

It's my luck...

2011-06-14T06:34:00.000-07:00

Hahaha…I am sooooo happy today…yesterday feel so tired and sad because of that job but today is vice versa…hahaha…they told me that they had made a mistake, I was actually require to pack 35 boxes instead of 105 boxes…hahahaha…I was shocked at first to listen this then they confirm with me and I feel happy and relieve…hahahaha…I was told to wrap according to 3 sizes of the pampers…so now I just left M size which is out of stock…that is why tomorrow I am off…the stock for M size will only come on Thursday and since I already finish packing L and XL so tomorrow off day for me…hahaha…but now I think back, I actually wasted 1 extra day because 35 boxes can finish in 2 days time…hahaha…plus my skill improve today, I can pack per box with just 22 minutes…hahaha….so today is not as tired as yesterday but I still clumsy because I injured my leg…hahaha…yesterday is my left hand, today my right leg turn…anyway just a small bruises and feeling slightly pain but still I can walk…hahahaha…oh ya not to forget, I also going to have sore throat soon…sigh…

Time do pass really fast…I guess another few weeks my friends who study private universities are going to study their new coming semester…how come this is so fast…too fast that I have end 1 month out of 4 months of my holiday…so I just left 3 months but I think is no longer holiday for me because the coming months I will be working d so hardly be able to enjoy that much…actually I do feel a bit sad because at first I thought my this holiday is going to be very fun with friends outing and gathering but everything just seem normal…nothing very exciting happens that I want to say…I am not saying that I do not enjoy my holiday with my friends and family, I did enjoyed but there just lack of something…something that I do not know how to describe…hahahaha…

My so called part time job...

2011-06-13T10:13:00.000-07:00

Sigh...after 1 month holiday break, I get to feel back the tiredness of working…the past month I have been sitting at home, surfing internet, watching dramas and doing house works so today I went to work as a part timer to wrap pampers in my relatives shop…I have to wrap 105 boxes of pampers into smaller pack and they will pay me RM 120…no time limit…they just want me to complete packing all this and you will get the pay…so depends on yourself to work for how long…sigh…here comes the sad thing…yesterday, before I know anything about my job, I thought I will be able to complete this task in 3 days but sigh…cause today I only be able to complete 17 boxes so I calculated that if I can only complete an average of 16 boxes per day then I got to spend 6 and a half days to complete everything…aiyo…then I feel myself not worth to work for so long and only get RM120…I consider this is so far my most tired job…I have been packing the pampers from 9am till 6.30pm…I tried my best to pack as fast as possible but I think the fastest I can do is 30 minutes per box… while I pack, I recalled all my previous job…at least they involved communication so I will not feel that bored but this time I am the only one doing this…I am doing this all by myself…impress with myself for not talking for so long…hahahaha…for the first few hours I still feel okay but after lunch, I started to feel bored but my hand cannot stop…that is why now my left hand feel super damn tired…I think this is due to never work for quite some time, so not feeling good with my left hand…sigh…I do think of giving up but this is so hard…I have promise and agree to take that job so I cannot give up so easily…I try to give encouragement to myself and even imagine of that day where I manage to pack till the last boxes; I feel so happy …hahaha…funny right…anyway this is it for today…
I am sure you all will hardly be able to know what exactly I am doing…wrapping pampers sound easy but you will not feel that if you are working alone…hahahaha…so friends, I will tell you a further details when we meet again k…Gambateh, Serena!!! I know I can do it!!!! ^_^

My thought of today...

2011-06-11T04:34:00.000-07:00

Since I am so free at home now…I think I will try my best to spend some time for storybooks and also my blog…hahaha…so I just want to share my thought of today with you all…

Early morning around 6 something, my mum woke me up to bring her to Tesco…hahaha…the weather was cold so I decide to drive car go there and luckily my mum agreed too…this is the first time I shop at Tesco for so early, as if the whole Tesco was being booked by me…no one is there except the workers…hahaha…so just my mum and I in the supermarket and that is all also because of the promotion for a detergent call TOP…sigh…early morning woke up just to buy this…so we brought 7 packets of TOP...sounds crazy right… hahahaha…bad luck is we forget that today is Saturday so no plastic bag…hahaha…thanks to mum also for saying that we only want to buy TOP so no need to take the trolley…sigh…I have to carry 4 bags weigh 3 kg each to walk back to my car…so as I walk, due to so heavy and my hand hardly can hold it; suddenly came a thought of how nice it is if there is man to help us…hahahaha…I feel so funny to have this kind of thought…

Do you know sometimes I just wish there is someone I can depend on…someone who can help me when I am in need for help maybe just helping me carry heavy things…I feel myself too independent…I learn to fix the electric switch because the guys in my family just love to drag things…when you call them to do it, they will never do it on the spot…so I get fed up and I learn it by myself…I do not like this but I have to do it…sigh…every time when I face any problems, I will just figure it out myself…my mind automatically will find alternatives for me to settle the problems…I guess this is because of my mum too…thanks to my mum for training me up to become independent…hahaha…since secondary, I have to settle my problems by myself...I learn to arrange which tuition shall I take and my transportation to tuition too…unlike nowadays teenager who have parents bringing them to school and tuition; taking care of their children so much…I am not saying that my mum does not love me but I know she has her ways of loving me…as I grows up, I start to realize and clear with what my mum is doing…that is why I feel myself is mature, at least more mature than my two elder brothers…hahaha…people usually say that the youngest is the most childish and love pampers…that is why some of my friends thought I was the elders in the family…hahaha…I can feel that too because sometimes I have to take care of my brothers more than they taking care of me…I was so jealous to people who have brothers that loves and take care of their younger sister…hahaha…how I wish my brothers will be like that too…hahaha…sound impossible right…hahaha…

Maybe you all will think that women nowadays should be independent…I agree too but there is just sometimes where women hope for someone to rely on…I just do not want to be too independent…hahaha…

Updated...

2011-06-09T10:26:00.000-07:00

Today my friend told me to update my blog so as her wish I did it...hahaha...honestly said what that have been written here is only part of me...maybe only 85% of myself while the other 15%, I would like to be kept in mystery...something that sometimes I also do not understand…I guess you all know what I mean…maybe there is people who really understand themselves so much but not for me…I do not 100% understand of myself…sometimes I just feel weird with what I have done…hahaha…

To my buddies, I maybe kind, loving, caring, hardworking and sometimes crazy but to my university mates, I am a mystery girl…hahaha…that is what I have heard from my roommate…she told me that I am so mystery, I heard them told stories involve every aspect – family, friend, education and love but hardly they will be able to hear story from me…hahahaha…

Sometimes I do prefer to just listen because I know WORDS can be a dangerous weapon…you must learn how to use it properly…otherwise it will only brings bad impacts to you…there is once ago this WORDS had bring me sadness, guilt and regret…so I have promise and tell myself that I am not going to repeat the same mistake…

Just only know my second semester result…”Thanks” to one of my course mate who took results so importantly…it is she who told me that result is out and as usual she will ask the same question…I know she treat me as one of her competitor…honestly say I do not like this kind of situation…sometimes it make you feel stress…I want to enjoy my life…I do not want to go university just to get good grade, at least I hope I can balance between my social life and education…so far so good…of course my this semester results have dropped and if I say I feel nothing, confirm that sentence is not said from my mouth…hahaha…I do feel kind of sad but I accept my results…I know the effort that I had put in my second semester so this is the results…what I can do is to work even harder for the coming semester…I know my following semester might be more busy but hopefully I can cope with it…eh I cannot hope but is a must to me…I must make sure that I can handle both my university activities and results well…I know I can do it…hahahaha…

P/S: recently there is some idea appearing in my mind…maybe shall do some handicraft for my collection soon…hahahaha…

Summer's Desire

2011-05-20T11:32:00.000-07:00

This is the first time i want to review about a Taiwan drama called Summer's Desire...this drama was introduced by my cousin sister...she told me that this drama was not bad, worth watching, at least for once...my first impression towards this drama was not really good because of Barbie Hsu...hahaha...not really like Barbie Hsu acting but after watching this drama, i was impress with Barbie Hsu acting...i couldn't think of anyone else that suit her character in this drama...i am not going to like Barbie Hsu anyway but i really enjoy watching her act in this drama...

Of course there will be people who after watching this drama will feel okay only or boring or so so only...i am not going to say that this drama is very nice but i enjoyed watching this drama...at least for the first time i feel that Taiwan drama does not drag that much and every episodes is not bad; it only contains 14 episodes...if i not mistaken, there is only 1 episode that i feel quite boring, the rest was okay...although the starting part i feel blur but soon i get to understand what the story is about...hahaha...it is a love story anyway...a very special love story about two guys who so deeply in love with a girl...i think i like to watch those love movies that show how deeply in love a guy/girl towards their love ones...i found that this drama focus on love more than anything...i like the "young master" in this drama...he shows me how deeply he is in love with Barbie Hsu...he is willingly to use any methods to get the one he loves...maybe after you all watched, you will feel that he is overbearing, high ego or wicked but i feel this is all because of love...he put love more than anything...hahahaha...

Anyway it's up to you whether you want to watch it or not, whether you feel nice or bad...i just feel love is a very special things that happens in human being...some may thinks love is complicated; love is blind; love is tiring but to me love is sweet...as long as you know how to love a person, love will make you alive...so i hope i can fall in love...of course not now, but maybe in the future...hahaha...

I've came back Taiping!!!

2011-05-17T00:27:00.000-07:00

It have been a week I'm in Taiping...of course i have go out several times with my friends...one word to describe enjoy...hehehe...but this time i came Taiping, i cannot just relax and have fun everyday...of course i got to work, this is what i will always do when i have holidays...moreover this time i have 4 months holiday, impossible to call me just stay at home and watch movies...i feel guilty and wasting my time...hahaha...so anyway i sure have to search for job soon but i have another work to do...something that requires me to face the computer almost whole day...sigh.. i am very impress with those who can face the computer 24 hours...hahaha...somehow i manage my time quite well so i have no problem with my task so far...i manage to pass up on time to my leader and in the meantime i still go out with my friends...hahaha...now trying to complete my task for this week then i can have fun for no worries...i am still waiting for more friends to come back Taiping and we will have party once more...hahaha...just only tidy up my room and recall back all those memories i have been through...it's memorable and i feel grateful for i still keep those sweet memories with me...hahahaha...

Recently i have another new hobby...maybe it is due to my course so i loves gardening now...hahaha...First semester i have been to the farm and do gardening but second semester, i always stay in lab...never been to the farm throughout the semester...
Before i came back, my mum been asking me how to propagate peppermint and pandan...so i just briefly told her the way and what type of soil should use...hahaha...then when i came back, i saw the plants and hope that i can save them back...hahaha...i quickly change the soil medium and ask my mum not to water that plant so much of water...this is because i could not find a proper vase so i am using a container without hole at the bottom...so we cannot water the plant too much because excessive water will not be able to flow out but for few consecutive days i saw the plants is flooded with water...i ask my mum why u keep watering the plants...she said "I scare the plant will die, if wait you water, the plants died long time ago.Some more ee poh said must always water the plants." sigh and i replied "Mummy, do you know the plants will also die due to excessive water intake, the plants will die of drowning.I think no hope d la this plants all." My mum just laugh and said she will buy a new one and just let me do with it...so now the new plants grow well and i hope the pandan can grow too...i really enjoy gardening...hahaha...watching them grow with new roots and leaves, i feel so happy...hahahaha...

Desperate for love????

2011-04-21T04:42:00.002-07:00

I was just wondering is that true that every singles especially girls are desperate for love…recently I heard from my friends that they want to have a date; they want love; they want somebody to care for them…

I was shock at that moment because there was also one time when I had this kind of thought but soon this thought fade…so out of sudden my friends asking me for advice…hahaha…I also do not know how to advise them…what I can do is to tell them how to handle this kind of thought…hahaha…

I know how this thought came…it is because of the surrounding…when most of your friends have at least experienced what love is, courtship and dating stage…so of course you who remain singles since the day you born will feel sad, lonely and maybe jealous towards them…all those questions will pop up in your mind; Why I can’t be like my friends to have a date? Why are there no guys who like me? When will I meet my prince charming? When you cannot find the answer then you will look for somebody to give you the answers…of course I did advise my friends as how I had advise myself…hahaha…

My friend told me that it is because of her looks or her body that make her still single but this is not true…obviously it is a false statement…it is fate and destiny that control everything…of course everything is in God’s hand…you cannot rush in finding your true love…

There are people who asking me how is the feeling of falling in love? Hahaha…can you, my friends who have fall in love before answer this question… I had once asked one of my friends who is so deeply in love on this questions…guess what’s her answer? She told me that she do not know how to answer…so how do you expect me to answer when I have zero experience in love…hahaha…I can just briefly told how is it based on what have been told by love dramas…I am still wonder is that really true when you fall in love with someone, you feel heart beating extremely fast when talking to that person…hahaha…I guess there will be still some time for me to really find out the answer…

For my friends, I look like a love expert but the truth is I never involved in any relationship…hahaha…that is just so funny…one of my wise friend told me about something that I start to realize and agree with him…he said that hardly a woman will be able to find her true love with just first love; a woman can only find her true love is after 2 to 5 times of involving herself in a relationship; women learn to become more clever to choose their ideal partner with every break up but the MOST WISE woman is those who are still single but have listens lots of stories from her friends who always in a relationship…^_^

Past Memories…Sweet Memories…

2011-04-21T04:42:00.001-07:00

Hahaha…yesterday I thought I was suppose to start study at around 11pm but end up I look back those past photos that I have taken with my Convent girls and also Hua Lian friends…hahaha…all those sweet memories will live forever in our mind…even though there are some memories that I have forgotten but once I saw back the photos, my memories are back…hahaha…I was so miss those past memories…memories of friends gathering, birthdays, lantern festival and also graduation photos… those photos are just so sweet and enjoyable to have a look…from that photos, I also realize many things have change especially people…I saw some of my friends turn prettier while some still remain the same… for myself? I tin no difference…maybe I just change my hairstyle but I still feel I am still look the same…there are people who called me to keep long hair…they said I look better when long hair…is that true? I doubt…

At last, I am back...

2011-04-16T22:29:00.000-07:00

This is the longest period i stop blogging...as usual reasons like busy, exams, poor internet connection and many more are the reasons to explain it..honestly say i was really very busy with my university society, exams, quiz, presentation, reports and assignments...so now i am clear with all this things, that is why i am able to blog back again...hahaha...i am grateful for i enjoyed better in my second semester...although works are more but friends also increase...among course mates, we are getting better together, laugh, talk and even jokes around...hahaha...that is a good sign...
now i am studying for my finals, then maybe i will have fun for few days...then got to work already...otherwise my coming semester, i am going to eat bread and stay in hostel only...this is scary man...hahahaha...my finals finish on 8th May but i will be in Taiping on 12th May...hahaha...this is because i am going to spend my time with my room mates to Malacca...yeah...great at last can go Malacca d...hahaha...
During my semester break, i will try to find as much money as possible...i got plenty of things to buy...camera, clothes, accessories and many more...hahaha..hopefully i will be able to find a job soon....
hopefully my finals is not going to be very hard...hahaha...i cannot wait to go back Taiping and meets my friends...hahahaha...miss you, gays so much!!! ^_^

A boring Life?

2011-01-20T18:47:00.000-08:00

I am sure many of us do heard about life is short so we must live to the fullness but how many of you all really feel that you are having a great life now? There will be people who are really enjoying their current life but this does not happens to me...of course i am not saying that i lead a boring life now...it is just that i feel my life is some kind of dull...i define my boring life not in the sense of the courses i am taking but it's the surrounding environment that make you feel so tired...if you do not understand how i feel, that is fine because i am also feeling myself sometimes just like to have this kind of weird feeling...hahahaha...actually i have this kind of feeling this some times ago and i wonder why i am telling it out today...hahaha...maybe it is due to my today's mood which wants me to say it out...hahahaha...anyway have a nice day everyone! ^_^

Welcome back to life in university...

2011-01-01T08:56:00.001-08:00

Another 8 hours and i will be heading back to UPM...sigh...why i sigh? do i feel excited for the coming semester two? during my secondary time, i used to feel nervous and excited when there is school reopen...the day before i will hardly be able to fall asleep as i will be wondering what is going to happen? As usual meeting new friends and learning new things...so this time i did feel the same but i also feel so sad for i have to leave my hometown soon and my beloved hometown friends who spend most of our times going out together during the 1 month holiday break...hahahaha...let me just recalled what i have been doing during this holiday...

i start my holiday earlier than my others friends so i went back to my hometown and spend the time on movies and online...then i start to work as a part timer in a fair and then went back to work at my old workplace...then we have a great BBQ Christmas party at Tee Xin house on 23rd December...that was a great party...everyone enjoy at that day and many of our secondary classmates meet up together on that day...going to have this kind of party every year...hahahaha...after tat almost everyday been going out with my friends until my mum call me just stay at my friends house will do...hahahaha...felt sorry for making my mum angry a few times...hahahaha...during Christmas eve, have just a small outings with friends to lake garden...next will be the Form 6 gathering at Prima cafe...i considered it to be quite fun too...spending time talking with friends and meeting those who have long been seen...

tonight is the last night my holiday in Taiping...it is already 2am and yet i still cannot sleep...maybe i just do not want to waste my time sleeping...i rather sleep in the bus...hahahaha...

My first semester was kind of boring...i hardly got any sweet memories excluded when i carry out my practical which is like planting trees and going out for an activity held by my co-curriculum course...so when i think of what is going to be like in semester 2, i hardly can think of anything...hahahaha...my semester 2 does not have many core subject which means i will be having less time doing practical on plantation but rather spend most of the time memorizing facts...sigh...will it be more boring than semester 1? hopefully is a NOT...hahahaha...what is on my mind which make me feel boring is, i spend most of my time facing 4 walls in my room, maybe sometimes did talk with my room mates and sometimes successfully being able to online in my room...hahahaha...other than that will be watching movies and reading books...sigh...kind of boring life right...hahahahaha...so i am going back to that life tomorrow...hahahaha...last but not least, hopefully i can keep up with my study and get excellent result for the coming exams...hopefully there will be some unforgettable memories in semester 2...hahahaha...

ALL THE BEST, MY DEAREST FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy and Unexpected...

2010-12-16T21:50:00.000-08:00

I would like to thank God for everything...so glad that i manage to get much better result for my finals than i expected...overall was good...i still hardly can believe that i score this result for my first semester...hahahaha...i do not think that i really study so much for this finals...i was more relax and lazy than when i was studying for my STPM...hahaha...of course i will say this is much much easier than STPM...hahaha...anyway i will keep up for my coming semester...hopefully i will be able to maintain my requirement...i will bear in mind that the coming semester will become harder and harder so i must also work harder for it...hahahaha...Thank God...^_^

Better hurry up...

2010-12-15T01:18:00.000-08:00

Yesterday when i had dinner at Pizza Hut with my friends, Txin,Jenn,Jing Rui,Sher Lyn, Yling and Khai Li, only then i realize that only left 2 weeks before i go back to university...Oh my goodness...the time pass so fast and yet i hardly spend times with my friends...hahahaha...at that time only i start to calculate what are the things i still have not complete and yet time left is just so limited so i got to be hurry up...^_^

Things i got to do before i go back university...
1)i want to buy new clothes for Chinese New Year.
2)i want to go for a trips with my friends.
3)i want to rest at home a day before i go back study.
4)i want to buy storybooks.
5)i want to go for a day trip(food hunt) to anywhere.

Anyway i guess after this Sunday, hopefully i will be able to spend my time to do all the things...hahahaha...we do have plans for trips and what we got to do now is to wait for the time when everyone are available...hahaha...

My opinion...

2010-12-14T23:35:00.000-08:00

I am back again to have some words for my blog...something which i very long ago want to say it out...do not think that it is something secret or happy things to share...it is somehow not a very good thing about women of these days...i heard from aunt, friends, my mum and my mum's friends...even i, myself also realise this situation...

"MOSTLY NOWADAYS WOMEN ARE JUST BEING SO LAZY"

First of all, i got no intention to offence anyone...maybe some of you will think that this statement is wrong so everything is up to you all to see this matter...an example to prove this statement is women lazy to do house works...i do not mean those heavy housework like wash clothes with your hand, cooking, mop the floor with ur hand...what i mean is just simple household chores like sweep the floor, hang clothes, fold clothes, wash plates ad many more...some of them just being so selfish to just only wash her plates, cook also only cook for herself...i hate this kind of women...

That is why majority of the aunt said "nowadays daughter-in-law are just so "xin fu/ho mia", no need to do housework, no need to cook, wake up late, some even no need to take care of their child...not like them last time when they just married, they have to wake up early morning to prepare food for the family, by evening must finish cleaning up the house, waiting husband home"...i heard this almost 4 to 5 times ...hahahaha...

i do feel pity for those aunt but what they said are indeed true...i saw this before...i think this is the effect of women receive education and lack of parental care too...i will not say thess are the main cause but it do make sense to be one of the cause for women being lazy...when women receive education, some of them feel that they are smart so they will not do household chores which they feel is a waste of time...some is because parents never ask their daughter to learn how to do those household chores...nowadays parents too pampered their children..they are over protective about their child safety...that is why some teenager almost going to adult life and yet still do not know how to cook instant noodle and even fried egg...

Some of my friends told me that the guys should also help to do household chores, why must only girls to do all this while the guy can shake their legs, sit down on the sofa and watch movies...this is not fair...hahaha...i can only agree partially about what my friends suggest...anyhow all depends on both guy n girl...an example, a couple who live to together, if both of them also being so lazy to do house works then who is going to clean the house...maybe you all will think that i show bias but i do agree that i am slightly a traditional woman...unless the guy can show me that he can did house works better than women, then i will have no opinion on women being lazy at home...

P/S-i would like to apologize if it did offence you but this will only prove that you are belong to this kind of person...i do hope that women can be smart in the meantime being hardworking and responsible to their own family...^_^

The end of semester 1...

2010-11-03T10:45:00.000-07:00

I am now supposed to study for my finals but I choose to spend some time to say out what I have gained and learn throughout my first semester in UPM...

I am proudly to say that I have no regrets in choosing the course, Bachelor of Horticulture in UPM...I love this course...^_^
So far I really gain a lot of new experiences about plants...I know the ways and have tried to propagate plants...I have been to a turf grass farm and it is really fun...hahaha...
I learn to speak more confidently during my presentation...^_^
In order to know more friends, I join several activities held in UPM...
I was just like majority of the girls who is still single wishing to find the other partner in university but I guess I get to know more about myself since I come UPM...so I am telling my dearest friends that I guess my another part is not in UPM...hahahaha...
To make it clear, UPM does have more girls than guys and guys who look or act more like girls but UPM do have good looking real guys...hahahaha...maybe you all can say me as kind of choosy but I think my another part is not in UPM....this is my sixth sense k...hahahaha...

However....
Sometimes I do feel moody and lonely for I still could not be able to find a close friend to share my sweet and sorrow...I miss my hometown friends, my buddy...^_^...they are still the best...I enjoy talking with them even just in msn...I miss those sweet memories where we have fun from morning till late midnight, spending time go shopping and watch movie...even though I do have this with my course mates but it is totally different...
We do really meet people from all walks of life...each person have their own character so it is not an easy task to get well with everyone...I do try my best to just be myself but sometimes you will just find it so difficult...
Sometimes they are very good with you but the next day they might just act as if you have did something wrong to them...
Some of them are revengeful, they remember what you did to them and will say it out sometimes or return back to you what you have did to them...
Some of them just like to act innocent as if they are still in primary school...
Some of them just feel not grateful for what they have got, they keep complaining this and that...sigh...I do advise them to be grateful but they just refuse to hear...
Some of them are too stubborn, when they say one; you can never say two...
Some of them like to praise themselves as if scare that I might win them...

Hahahaha... these are some of the people I do meet in UPM...what I can do is try to not get too close with them...they are my friends but NOT best friends k...hahahaha... so I can conclude that it was indeed a great experiences when you are in university life...I really learn a lot and will keep learning for the years ahead...
Now I am looking forward on my holidays...yeah...since I come UPM, the greatest moments I have is when I am doing my practical on plants and 1 more important thing is when I start packing my things to go back to my beloved hometown, Taiping...hahahaha...
That is all for now...I shall stop blogging and go back study for finals...hahahaha...
ALL THE BEST YA!!!!

P/s: I guess I did some mistakes in my previous post, what I mean of soulmate is not refer to boyfriend or any guy k...as I have said before, if I really my prince charming, I will tell the whole world this good news...so be patient ya, my buddies...hahahahaha....

Soul mates…

2010-10-22T21:46:00.000-07:00

I feel happy and grateful for I have found a soul mate…of course I won’t be telling you who…it is a secret and please do not ask me k…

But now I am in the university somehow I miss my soul mate…^_^

People told me that when you came university, you came to learn new things, came to gain new experience for your future but university life is not that easy…you really got to learn a lot of things…I does not only mean the academic k…you meet people from all walks of life…from the first impression, you will never know whether this person is good or bad…impossible a person character has written on the face…so you need time to explore…now I almost finish my semester 1 in UPM and I realize a lot of misjudgment I had made…although I did manage to find a more close friend but I cannot consider her as my best friend…sometimes I not really like the way she is talking…maybe that is her character so I could not say anything...i have learn this moral values since young just that when I came here only I realize how important this values means…so the important thing that I learn is…

“In order to go through the life in university, all you need is patient and tolerant”

I Have Been So BUSY!!!!!

2010-10-13T19:43:00.000-07:00

First of all, i got to apologize for not updating my blog for so long...hahahaha...i can just say the main reason is i am busy...
right after my 2 weeks of Raya holiday at Taiping, i have been busy with test then assignment then presentation...recently some more busy practicing for diabolo performance...
wah i cannot believe i have been busy right after the holiday...until today, i still will keep on busy till the end of the month...then i will focus on my final exam...sigh...
hopefully next week i will be able to spend some time watching movie and relax...hehehe...

So i feel sorry for not being able to update my blog so often...anyway i guess by end of this month, i will be more relax and just face the final exam...i do feel sad for i think i cannot score well in my first semester...this is because UPM plan to change new system and we as usual become the white mice...so my final exams for every courses will be in essay and structure form...as i know last time our exam paper is in this format but i never expect Kenegaraan paper which is almost the same as Pengajian Am paper will turn from objectives paper to essay form...
oh my goodness this will make me recall back my Sejarah Paper 2 in Form 5...sigh...so i guess it will be kind of hard for me to get a good grade in first semester...
anyway i will try my best...so that goes same to all my friends who are having final exams soon...
All The Best to You All!!!!

My Faculty Nite...

2010-08-27T19:22:00.000-07:00

I cannot believe the night just gone like that...it is too fast...hahahaha...
faculty night was quite fun...it include five courses in agriculture that is my course,horticulture then agribusiness,agriculture science,aquaculture and animal science...agribusiness has the most number of Chinese and then will be my course...hahaha...

we start the event with slide show from every course then will be juniors performance that is only my course taken part in it...we dance stupidly...hahahaha...then will be a game only we can eat dinner...
honestly speaking the food there was delicious...many variety of food...salad,rojak,cheese cake,banana cake,butter cake ,fruits,fried rice,curry chicken,sotong and many more...of course i cannot list down all the food...

after that will be introduction of us,juniors to the seniors then we have another game again...they will vote for the course king and course queen from every course...so glad that i am not the one being get chosen because there will have few more games for them to play...hahaha...

before it is going to end soon, the seniors will vote for the fac king and queen from the course king and queen...so this year our fac king and queen both also from agribusiness...hahahaha...

the last event is photo snapping sessions..i get to knew my seniors,super seniors and super super seniors...they are all very friendly person...so happy to know them...we do snap a lots of photo together...hahahaha...
That is all for that day...i went back my hostel around 11 something then chat with Li Chui and my roommates till 2 something...hahahaha...

P/S: i guess i will attend faculty night again next year...i really enjoy at there...^_^...

Taiping here i come!!!

2010-08-25T20:29:00.000-07:00

1 more weeks i will be back to my lovely home in Taiping...so damn miss my family members all..hahahaha...after all, i have been in UPM for 2 months n throughout this period of time, none of my relatives and family have come to visit me but i do understand the reasons...so i was kind of jealous to see my friends here can meet their love ones and go home quite a number of time...now i was feeling excited to go back home...everyday keep counting the days to pass...hahahaha...

Somehow i do feel tired because i will be working part time at my old workplace, the hamper shop...i really enjoy working at there...although sometimes quite tired, overall was fun...hahaha...it's just that i will be spending less time at home and with my Taiping buddies...at first i thought of want to enjoy during Raya holidays but after that i thought for quite some times only i decided to work time in this coming 2 weeks holiday...i try to earn as much as i can for my living expenses in UPM...i know that PTPTN loans can help me but not all...it only help slightly in my living expenses...sometimes i do spend a lots so i should also learn to earn back what i had spent...hahahaha...

My dearest old friends...

2010-08-17T21:48:00.000-07:00

I was feeling kind of sad when i heard 'you all' can meet up...twice already k...i also want to meet you all...why you all never ask me...so bad...sob sob...
Anyway i know the reason i can't meet you all...so don't feel guilty k...i just want to say it out to let me feel better and to express my "kerinduan"...hahahaha...kind of geli lo...hahahaha...

For those who live in other state like Perak,Kelantan,Penang and Terengganu...i miss you all so much...i will try to meet u all when we are back to Taiping k...^_^
For those who live in other country like Singapore...i hope to meet you too...probably end of this year k...must make it ya...^_^
For those who just live in Selangor state, if possible i really hope to spend time meeting you all...so what i am going to do is:-
1)I am learning how to sit KTM, LRT n all the public transport in KL...hahaha...
2)I am learning where and how to meet you all...
3)I am learning to remember the places in KL...
4)I am learning to remember the KTM,LRT and monorail stations,where will lead to where...

i guess i still need some time k...hahaha...don't worry will be meeting you all soon...

Last word....

Honestly speaking, I REALLY MISS YOU ALL!!!!!

Should or should not?

2010-08-14T19:54:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to The Mines with my course mate again...sigh...everytime i go out, i only go The Mines...i really boring about that place already...anyway since nobody really want to go Midvalley so i just have to follow her go The Mines...we go there to buy some stuff and also to look for my prom dress...i did really go see and try but i can say those dress are quite expensive to me...my range is only about RM50...i did get to see 1 dress which cost about RM40 but it looks mature on myself then i try another one which looks good on me but cost around RM90...it's already out of my budget...my mum call me just buy and tel me that RM90 is consider ok not that expensive...i still doubt because i need to pay RM65 for that night...Few questions that i hardly can answer:-
1)Shall i spend around RM155(RM65+RM90) for a night?
2)Shall i lend prom dress from my friends?
3)Shall i buy that RM90 dress which i feel nice when i am wearing it?
4)Shall i go to the faculty night?

Sigh...anyone can help me to answer all my doubt...i really feel i want to go out with my old friends,Txin,Jun, and Agnes again...the last time at Queensbay Mall was indeed very nice and fun...i enjoy shopping that day with Txin and Jun...miss those moments so much...^_^...anyway if i really want to go to the faculty night, no matter what i need a dress so i will go out again...hopefully i can meet u all up ya...i need u all opinions...

It's just too soon...

2010-08-10T22:16:00.000-07:00

First of all i am not talking about my exam k...hahaha...what i am trying to say is my faculty night on 27th August 2010 and the theme for that night is "Red Carpet"...sigh...i should feel happy and excited because i can meet more new friends but instead i just feel kind of sad and tired...sad because i don't have any prom dress to wear...tired because i have to look for a suitable prom dress...aiyo headache lo...after last year Graduation Night, i never thought that another prom night will be hell so soon...i only thought maybe when i want to graduate from uni only there will be another time...so this was totally a shock to me...anyway i do hope i will be able to find a suitable dress for that night...^_^

Enjoy and busy...

2010-07-30T21:40:00.000-07:00

Recently my life looks so much like the time in school...everyday repeat the same routine...go class then go back hostel...sigh...luckily UPM have a great peaceful scenery otherwise i might feel a little stress and boring...hahahaha...

The time when i enjoy...
Currently i am busy with my horticulture project...i enjoy going to the farm...so far my group members have planted 3 types of flower and oil palm seeds...hahahaha...for the flowers project, the result was not satisfactory as only 1 type had successfully germinated so we have to plant back the others again on this coming Tuesday...another 1 is the oil palms project, we manage to plant them last Tuesday and the result will be reveal after 2 weeks...i pray hard for this project to success because if the oil palm seeds manage to germinate then after 4 years i can bring back the trees and can sell for around RM200+...hahahaha...next week my new project is to plant fruit seeds..i think is durian, rambutan and nangka...so that mean next week i can eat rambutan, durian and nangka for free just to get the seeds...hahahaha...i also enjoy spending some time playing badminton with my roommates and course mates...we usually play on Friday and Saturday night...then the next thing is i join the Zhong Hua Chinese Cultural Club...i join the diabolo class and i really enjoy playing diabolo...^_^...It is so fun but have to train our hand to be strong enough to turn the diabolo...so far i only know 1 diabolo trick...hahaha...i plan to bring back my diabolo and let my old friends especially Txin to have a look...hahahaha...

The time when i have to be busy...
The time is coming which means my first exam is coming soon in 2 weeks time...sigh...so fast i have to face examination again...so fast i have to force myself study again...everythings seem so fast...hahahaha...anyway due to the lack of entertainment in UPM, what i can do during my free time is study...so hopefully this coming exam i can score well la...^_^

A Brand New Life in UPM...

2010-07-14T01:56:00.000-07:00

After 1 week of orientation, i finally know the feeling of homesick...throughout the week of orientation,i was still fine and i feel myself like participating in a camp...it was indeed a busy and tiring week...then the orientation ended on sat night...on sunday i went to The Mines with my roommate and Li Chui...the next day i fall sick, i guess i am having mild fever...today only i feel myself had recover...

University life was so much different...many things i have to settle myself...now i still not really get use to the new environment but the only good things i can say is i can focus on my study because here hardly got any entertainment like television...sometimes i do feel boring...hahahaha...anyway this is my new life...i have 3 Chinese same like me is a junior as my roommates, 1 of them are taking the same course as mine...hahaha...anyway they are indeed friendly too...so far we live in peace...hahahaha...i am glad that quite a number of Chinese taking the same course as mine...at first i thought my course might have only 3 to 4 Chinese but luckily we do have 8 Chinese...i quite enjoy the lessons i attend but start to feel headache when i heard about the presentation then exam coming and assignment...hopefully i can score well in the exam...i can say i have no regret of choosing Bachelor Science Horticulture in UPM...suddenly feel that this course can help me to achieve my dreams of becoming a landscape designer...of course with an excellent results only i will be guaranteed with a good job...so i must work hard for my future...hahahaha...

Goodbye Taiping...

2010-06-29T22:04:00.000-07:00

"Goodbye Taiping" sounds like i am not coming back to Taiping anymore...hahahaha...what i mean is the first time i am leaving Taiping for so long...i will miss the rain, scenery n peaceful town of Taiping...hahahaha...tomorrow i am heading to KL with my mum...the time has arrived so i shall just face it...hahahaha...recently i am no longer having sleepless night, instead i will still sleep late at night but wake up early in the morning...maybe that's because i want to treasure the time i still in Taiping...i don't want my time wasted for sleeping...hahaha...yesterday i just packed ready all the things to bring to UPM...i didn;t bring many luggage because my transportation is bus...there are some things i will buy in KL...some of my friends are now in KL so i guess I'll try my best to spend some time hanging out with them...hahahaha...don't worry it's my promise...^_^

Sleepless night...

2010-06-27T05:49:00.000-07:00

First of all, i shall apologize for not being able to update my blog...there are many reasons and the main cause is due to my home internet connection...I'm so sorry k...hehehe...
Latest news about me is i am going to UPM soon to further my studies...i was given my third choice that is Bachelor Science Horticulture in UPM...at first i do feel disappointing because i aim for my first choice in UM...anyway i felt grateful as i do like this course too...Thanks God...
i am going to KL on the 1st July then enrollment day is on 3rd July...so going to leave Taiping this Thursday...i do feel sad and having sleepless night these few days...hahaha...there are many things in my mind...i wonder how will the life be in UPM? Will i be able to adapt to the new environment?...i do feel scare...hahahaha...

It's coming...

2010-04-14T16:56:00.000-07:00

Just a blink in my eyes, another month have gone...now is already mid April...i don't left much time anymore...i think about 2 months more and everyone are going their way,way to their future...when i was jobless at home, i feel time pass so slow and boring but after i work that goes the opposite...hahahaha...anyway i plan to resign soon, maybe end of April or mid of May...i should spend more time to have fun rather than just work...currently i am working at a dim sum restaurant in Lake Garden as a waitress...overall the job was not bad but i do prefer my old job...hehehehe...there are some plans with friends in the coming months, can't wait for it...hahahaha...i am also feeling excited to enter university...i wonder how is the life at there...now i just hope everything go smoothly...hope that i won't face any financial problem...hope that i can get any loan or scholarship...hope that i can get what i want...may God bless me ya...^_^

Jobless...

2010-03-07T21:19:00.000-08:00

I should be happy because my mum didn't nag me to look for a job instead she told me if i couldn't find a job then stay at home...however i felt unhappy...i don't know why i will feel this way...sigh...being jobless suppose to be a happy thing,majority of the people hope for this kind of life...hahaha...to me it doesn't seem to be like this...i can't imagine i might stay at home for 3 months without any incomes...sigh...feeling useless for myself...if my family is rich then i have no worries at all...what i worries the most is the fees for my further education...with my current savings, i don't think is enough...there are still a lots of things to buy...i mean useful things for my life in uni...sigh...when talk about money really made people headache...i know ptptn loan will help me but i don't know how much amount I'll be able to get from ptptn loan or maybe i will be so unlucky to unable get ptptn loan..hahahaha...actually sometimes i do hate myself...i know there is a current job quite ok...that is be a kinder garden teacher...although the pay is not very high but at least the time is not long...the problem is i don't like teaching kids...sigh...i don't know whats wrong with me but whenever i imagine myself teaching kids,i feel scary...hahahahaha...that's y i still jobless now...another problem is my transportation...almost my whole family go to work with their own transport...my uncle with my mum will drive lorry then my elder bro will drive his car and my second bro will drive his motor...so left no other vehicles except my bicycle...sigh...i do thought of cycle to work but when i think of after work i have to cycle back to my home, i feel so tired...the weather, my energy left and bicycle made me feel so tiring...if i really cycle to work,i can guarantee the next time u all meet me, i will look like an Indian or Malays...hahahaha...to work i need to think of ways to solve my problems...sigh...how nice if i got motor now, then i can find any work i want...anyway i am not giving up to find jobs but if till May i still couldn't find any jobs then i will give up and get ready for my uni life...hahahaha...after telling this, i do feel some relief in my mind...^_^

A New Life....

2010-03-02T19:43:00.000-08:00

After knowing my STPM result, a new life start to begin...of course i can confirm that i am not going to private universities...my only way to continue study is get to enter local university...i have make up my mind...i have chose what courses and which university i want...i just doubt to place which courses is the priority...i doubt..i don't know which courses i should place it as my first choice then second choice and so on...to me what i have chose seem to be equal...i keep this in mind "serena, the decision u made shall be the correct way to your future.You should not regret it one day.Believe in your decision.God is always by your side to guide you and lead you."...honestly say i do scare that i might end up jobless in future...hahaha but this might not happen too...we don't know what our future are going to be...

i do feel excited to enter uni life...
Why? The reasons are...
1.i can get to learn new things.
2.i can get to meet new friends.
3.i can learn to be independent.

anyway i do feel sad because...
1.i have to leave my home sweet home for a period of time.
2.i will miss my family.
3.i will miss my old friends.
4.i will miss the memories i spent with all my friends and family.
5.i will miss my mum's cooking.

Hopefully the new environment suits me...as i am taking those courses involved with ecologist and biodiversity or plants, so i guess my environment will be mostly greenery...hahahaha...green means peace of mind...^_^ ...its about 4 months more and i am going to enter uni...so now i should grad every chance to go out gathering with my friends...of course there are also time for my family too...hahahaha...i know when i enter uni, i should focus on my study more than anything else...i want to be the best among the best...at least with this aim, i can guarantee for my future...^_^...all the best to my friends...may God bless us...^_^

My unlucky CNY...

2010-02-19T01:12:00.000-08:00

It's have been months ago i have not updated my blog...i can just said that i am busy with my job and i have nothing to share with everyone...nothing special have occur...lol...so now i am updating my blog because i hope that my bad luck will gone as soon as possible...i am not hoping for good luck but i do not wish for bad luck to fall on me...May God bless me...

Before CNY, i have cough for almost a week and i thought i will be getting better by the time CNY reach but this is just dreaming...i do visited the doctor and have already taken medicine but the sickness just won't leave me...sigh...

Anyway i was so happy on the eve of New Year not because of Chinese New Year or reunion dinner but it's because of i can finally sleep as much as i want...lol...after all at least on the first day of CNY i did come out with friends to play skating...so that was the first time i learn how to skate...it's quite scary and tiring...overall was not bad, of course i did fell down quite a lots of times...lol...

The second day of CNY, i stay at home whole day...so happy that i manage to read finish my series of comic...conclusion is that i spend my time reading storybooks,watching TV and surfing the net...

The third day of CNY, Wei Sheng came to Taiping and invited us to a movie but i didn't make it because there were a lots of people in the cinema...they can only get second row place from the screen...so it will be like so in front...i don't like to spend my money for a movie that i can't even be really enjoy watching...at night i do meet them at prima cafe...quite some time i didn't take cold drinks as my cough still has not recover so i just ordered a cup of hot white coffee...they planned to go skating and k-box the next day...so after that we meet up with my Convent friends at Prima Kopitiam...By 12.30am i reach home, i went to bed at around 1.30pm but i can't sleep...i think around 3am only i managed to fall asleep...

The forth day of CNY, i woke up early to go skating with friends...we reached Taiping Central at 10.30am and waited until around 11.45am only the skating place is open...this was my second time and i already know how to skate but there is still a bit fear, fear of falling down...lol...after all i only manage to do 2 complete round around the skating place and i fell down and injured my right hand...that's the most terrible thing i hate to happen on me...feeling my right hand was so tired and no energy...i didn't cry but was annoyed with my hand condition...i keep telling myself "everything is going to be back to normal soon, my hand please recover quick"...so i think i rested for more than an hour but my hand was still the same...tired and slightly pain...i saw people skating so happily...i want to join them too...sigh...after that my friend,Jun-Lyn came to join us at skating...due to my stubbornness i do skate again...just a few minutes later, i fell down again and injured my backbone...this is worse...i didn't cry but i shout in pain...i can't stand up and i was so scare that i might injured my spinal cord...after a while i did manage to stand up and rest at the safer side but my back are still pain...sigh...what an unlucky day...i spend RM10 to have fun but end up injured myself...so unlucky!!! I leave the skating place with Jing Rui and Sher Lyn ealier...we went for a walk and ended up resting at Nash Donuts...i was still in pain but i just try to bear the pain...i don't like that feeling...i hate it especially it's New Year time...why i can't back to normal...i hate pain...early morning i just ate breakfast and around 3.30pm only i ate my lunch at Mcdonald...i share with Jing Rui...although i was feeling hungry, the uncomfortable of my hand and my back made me not in the mood to eat...i only ate french fries...after that they headed to Shuh Pyng house...everyone seem so enjoy talking and laughing but somehow i was feeling uncomfortable...i kept telling myself "when i go back home, i should sleep and when wake up,everything will be okay"...so i did what i planned...my back pain was getting better but not my hand...at night around 8pm, Cynthia and some friends came visit me...they are just so happy playing cards and talking...i do join them...then around 9.30pm, we went out to Txin house for a movie and ended up going back home at 1.30pm...this is unbelievable, with my hand in pain i can still go out...sigh...

The fifth day of CNY, the most busy day...woke up early morning, my hand are still feeling pain but my back are recovering...as usual i still cough, i only found out that i got no voice when i contacted my mum...i was shocked and so sad with my health condition...my friends have planned to go k-box at 10.15am but i can't even speak...anyway i do go out to the hospital again...sigh...this time doctor gave me antibiotic...i really hope i can recover soon...after that i go "pai nian" with my friends and on the same time celebrating one of my friend, Yan Ming's birthday...that was a tirng day that my back felt tired and a bit pain...i only went back home at 1.30am...sigh...

The sixth day of CNY, i actually have to start work today...i woke up due to my alarm ringing...i try to talk but the attempt was futile...then suddenly felt so warm...i am going to get fever...it's really suffering...my hand is still the same,no energy and a bit pain, my back are tired too...no voice and keep on coughing...i really hope all this will go away from me as fast as possible...so i have to take leave from my work...sigh...after take medicine and rest, now i'm feeling better...hope by tomorrow my voice are back...it's so suffer that you can't talk...really pray hard to God...sigh...

It's New Year!!!

2010-01-02T05:29:00.000-08:00

So fast, i am now going 20...of course if count by my birthday then it will be months some more to go but usually people just count by year...so i can consider myself 20 years old now...hahaha...hardly believe it...i still remember when i was just a primary student, i thought of want to grow up faster, want to be an adult...u know why? so that i can free to do anything...hahaha...so now i am an adult and i can free to do anything...hahaha...

somehow i do miss my childhood memories...i miss those days playing legos,barbie dolls and hide and seek with my cousin...i can play barbie dolls for whole day...hahaha...

even though the things are still here but i left it keep in a box...no longer playing with it...once my cousin do ask me to play with them but i just feel it's boring...hahaha...never thought that i would say playing barbie dolls is boring...hahaha...i do feel myself no longer childish...sometimes i don't know why i can think more mature than my brothers...i am the youngest yet i doesn't give much worries to my mum...hahaha...anyway i do feel scare because i am going to face the world...i will leave Taiping soon to further my studies,meet new people,learn new things and many more...the future and challenges awaits me...i shall be ready...

Past, now and future...

2009-12-19T05:11:00.000-08:00

Hahaha...i can't believe that is going 2 months i didn't update my blog...maybe because of STPM, maybe because of nothings special happen so i got nothings to share...hahaha...as usual i repeat "time do pass very fast"...so fast that i had completed my F6 life in Hua Lian...one and a half years was fast...so fast that i had finish the most tough exam in the world,STPM...

The past, i still remember the times when i struggle to complete my revision on every subject for STPM...how i burned the midnight to finish the syllabus...
of course I'll remember the sweet times in Hua Lian...the new friends i met...the teachers there do help me a lot...honestly say i do enjoy F6 life...gonna miss it so much...

Now, i have half year of holiday...of course i can't just stay at home and online 24 hrs...hahaha...i have to work soon...hahaha...i should start thinking of the courses i am interested and also of course the courses that can help me to find job in future...hopefully I'll be able to find out the courses i want...

In future,i am going to University...i must ready to face uni life...i know is totally different from school life...i wonder how will it be...hahaha...i have to adapt to new environment again,know new people...all this can't be done in just a day...sigh...hopefully my uni life will be just the same like my F6 life...enjoy and have fun!!!

Graduation Dinner...

2009-11-06T21:45:00.000-08:00

Yesterday 6th of November, is our graduation day at school...2 more weeks and STPM is coming...wow really enjoy that last day at school...busy watching performances and snapping photo with friends...hahaha...snap funny photos with the guys...too bad i be the evil girl torturing them...hahaha...u will see it soon after my big exam over...after that went for lunch with Txin, Poh Juan, Li Chui, Ber YIk and Wei Sheng at Nagaria...that restaurant was not bad..i mean the food and the surrounding too...we plan to have trip to many places after exam...wow sure very fun at that time...can't wait anymore...hahaha...
Then at night around 7pm, my friend come fetch me to Txin house and we are going for dinner...a class gathering dinner about 13 out of 18 classmates come then join by 2 other not from U6C that is Ber Yik and Jennifer...both of them are only o.5% of U6C...so two together add up will form a person...hahaha...so actually U6C got 19 people...hahaha...we plan go Matang eat dinner...that dinner was not bad and the bill is RM212 for 15 people...the meal consist of 6 types of dishes and our stomach is very full after the dinner...then we went to Txin house to play some stupid games...hahaha...around 11 something only reach home...first time i never prepare anything for my MUET exam...i only manage to study until iam...luckily the test was not difficult except for writing paper...anyway i just try my best la...everything is in God's plan...now just have to focus on STPM...study hard, study smart...

What a surprise birthday party !

2009-10-24T02:49:00.000-07:00

First of all, i would like to thanks to all my beloved friends for planning such wonderful surprise party for me...this year my birthday was celebrated earlier by 6 days due to the coming STPM...hahaha...actually i plan this year i won't be celebrating d because of the STPM la but Thanks GOD for giving me such wonderful friends planning and spending time celebrate for me...Txin was really a great actress, it's was really a surprise party for me...hahaha...

My early birthday party was on 23rd of October 2009...

Txin : Serena, later after school we go Taiping Central k…my sis wana buy shoe so we can go and see also…
Serena : ok…no problem…so that means u come and fetch me?
Txin : yaya…wear nice nice ya…
Srena : Huh…??? Why?
Txin : Aiyo…later I wear nice nice so u also must same like me la…
Serena : ermm…ok.
I start to feel curious…
Txin : Oh ya, don’t eat so full k…later we go eat together…
Serena : Ok since my mum didn’t cook today…^_^
During recess suddenly came two of my friends wishing me “happy birthday” and just ran off…lol…what’s going on…then…
Wei Sheng : Na na..Happy Birthday!
Serena : Huh…???Today is not my birthday.
Wei Sheng : Oh…never mine because tomorrow I can’t wish u d…hehe…
Serena : Huh…tomorrow is also not my birthday… my birthday will be next Thursday…
Wei Sheng : Oh never mine, never mine…hehehe…
I came back home…when I start to prepare for my lunch…came an sms from Poh Juan calling me to wear skirt go out…lol…what big day is that I need to wear skirt?...i just refuse to wear but Poh Juan kept telling me to wear, said me bad serena, if I wear then she will go out with us also…I just laugh non stop but feeling weird with Poh Juan response…she hardly sms me like this…
Anyway suddenly raining, i thought Txin is going to cancel the plan but she insisted to come fetch me go…lol…I hardly believe this…

In Txin’s car…
Txin : Ermm..okok…your dressing quite nice…
Serena : ???
Txin : We go pokok assam eat first then only go Tpg Central…
Serena : Ok…(I thought she wanna fetch Jenni)
I told Txin bout Poh Juan’s sms and she just laugh only…I feel weird because izit really that funny…on the way to pokok assam…
Txin : Eh Poh Juan sms wo…she said go Rex box.( fake sms )
Serena : Oh ok but we can go eat first because Poh Juan won’t so fast reach Tpg rite…
Txin : Oh she already in Tpg…never mine la after Rex box only come back eat la…hehe..
Serena : Oh ok lo…suddenly feel like don’t sing k-box la…
Txin : Har…why le…
Serena : No la..just haven’t found the mood to sing…all so sudden..haha…
Txin : Oh…hahaha…

When we are reaching Rex box…
Serena : Eh I saw poh juan car and li chui car oso…li chui also join us ar…
Txin : yalo...she sot sot 1 la…
Serena : Oh ya lo…hahaha…

In Rex box…
Serena : Txin…why we have to wait outside….quickly ask Juan which room…
Txin : Wait first k…
Then I saw Agnes, Jenni and even Sher Lyn…wondering what happen…
Txin : Eh u all come out didn’t ajak us…
Jenni : oh…^_^
Serena : Yalo…so kebetulan meh…
Txin : Yalo…they cum out with Sgi gang…
Serena : Oh…
then i saw them entering a room while me and Txin wait on the lobby...suddenly i saw a pair of hand telling us to come...i told Txin and she just say come go have a look...i saw is a big room and wondering how many people are those sgi gang?
Suddenly rush out Wei Sheng holding a bouquet of lily for me and i saw most of my friends started to sing "happy birthday" song...oh i was just shock and after all it's a SURPRISE party...hahaha...feeling very touch and happy, tears roll down from my cheeks...really thanks alot to all my beloved friends...love you all always...hehehe...my cakes is the Nash Donuts...hahaha...after eating this birthday cake, got to wait for few more months before can really enjoy eating donuts again...hahaha...in order to finish up the donuts as many as possible, i feed everyone at there...hahaha...so we just sing continuous for 3 hours at rex box...we managed to snap some photo and its already uploaded in facebook!!!

Thank you so much to U all !!!

My heart said...

2009-10-06T02:55:00.000-07:00

"Overall my trial results was bad...very disappointed...i was feeling disappointed until i feel numb with myself...i start to feel that i was useless, why i can't remember what i have studied?Why i can't answer such easy question?...no matter how hard i had studied before yet i can't score well in exam...i hate myself...based on this trial results, i suppose to cry out loud but only a few drops roll down my cheeks...i was feeling very sad and disappointed until i don't think by crying will relieve my sadness...i blame myself for not putting much effort, blame myself for not paying attention in the class, blame myself to have such weak memory...i really want to cry out and shout as loud as i can but everything was just my wish...i can't do it...feeling stress with STPM...i try not to think of the past...till now i don't want to accept that i had chose a wrong pathway...i was still struggling to go through this few more months...to console a person is much much easier than to console ourselves..."cool down k...don't so stress ya", this is what i always told my friends and yet i found it difficult for myself to do it...my determination to study was not strong...i want to have strong determination to study just like how i can spend few days doing something i like...i am trying my best now to study for STPM...i don't want to fail...i hate failing...although this trial, i kept saying "fail ma fail lo...not a big deal right...i am ready to fail"...sound so relax but when i really got that result, neither cry nor happy, my mind was just feeling blank...i know my heart was very pain with those kind of results but i didn't cry so badly this time...sometimes i just thought of don't want study anymore...when i see my friends doing homework, i felt tired...when i see my friends studying and doing revision, i felt stress...i feel that everyone around me are so clever, even they didn't studied they still can score well...why i can't be just one of them? i felt myself so stupid...if my friends ask me question, i found it difficult to explain to them or i can't answer the question...feeling useless...sigh...as STPM is reaching, my shoulder feel more and more tired...how i wish the time can stop right now, i was scare to face STPM, i feel even more scared to face my result...i was scare...sob sob..."

i was feeling more better now after writing this blog...
this time i chose to say out instead of crying...as usual i have learn to think positive...there is still time for me to improve...i want to prove to myself that practice makes perfect...i give myself another chance to work hard for my real STPM...to my dearest friends, don't worry about me, i was just expressing my real feeling...don't worry, be happy...=)...my forever slogan "i know i can do it"...i am going to take my last chance...may God bless me...

Trial just over...

2009-09-30T08:02:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, my trial STPM just over...till now i never plan to study yet, maybe i can do some revision on my Peng. Am and maths but obviously not bio and chem...i plan to do revision after tanglung festival...now enjoy reading storybook and of course my part time job haven't finish but will end soon...hehehe...as usual planing to celebrate tanglung festival this Saturday but not sure whether i will be able to make it or not because i was still working at that day...hehehe...
Sigh...my trial results really drop...i do felt sad and disappointed with myself but i know i had tried my best...=)...anyway live a happy life...stay happy, stay young...hehehe...

Time for study...

2009-09-19T07:15:00.000-07:00

After 2 days of work...it's time to study for my coming trial..i don't think i will be able to study finish but I'll try my best...hehe...i don't put high hope on this trial, just hope for a pass in every subject then I'll be grateful...hahaha...sound so easy right but not to me...I've been wondering my memory start to deteriorate, i hardly be able to remember the fact...maybe i am more suitable to study those not involving fact all the time...in short form i am more to creative thinking...hahaha...anyway i will still study of course...hahaha...hope to go university is one of my wish...i want to experience the life at there...hahaha...i know i can do it...

Obstacles...

2009-09-17T09:19:00.000-07:00

First of all i want to ask God, sincerely asking, When will i lead a peaceful life?A life without any obstacles?...pray hard to God for answer...
i do agree about a statement stated "God hid our biggest rewards behind the highest barriers - our deepest fears. God wants us to face our fears, and hold ground in their presence, and let them go, and that's how we get out biggest rewards.
I understand this statement but there are a lot of doubt in my mind...
Why i have to face so many difficulties?
Why couldn't i lead a peaceful and enjoyable life like some of my friends?
Why i have to work part time to earn a living?
Why i can't get a good result in my exam?
Why i can't remember anything that i study?
Why?Why?Why?
There are still a lot of the question "Why" in my mind...
i know and i believe that everything is in God's plan...sigh...kind of tired...tired of living in this world...sigh...God have plans so many obstacles to me that i can't hardly be able to bear it anymore...i know that every obstacle given will have a solution, this is what God's plan, HE want me to look for the solution, be able to solve any problems, and learn to be independent...this is how i always console myself...God, U can't expect me to face so many obstacles which happens continuously...one after another...i am just a lady, i need a shoulder to count on too...i need a shoulder for me to cry out as much as i want...since i heard my mum saying "sigh, so damn tired...sigh...what's the point of living in this world? i can't even buy anything that i like..my salary all gone for the house...sigh...everyday come back from work, have to do housework some more?i can't even find some time to relax, to do something that i like, to enjoy life?"i was just dumb folded figuring out what shall i say...anyway i end up just keep quiet and continue reading books...after that i do keep thinking of this and started asking myself too...what i can say is "tomorrow will be better"...hahaha...always trying to think positive and that's all i can do...

My hectic life begin...

2009-09-06T19:13:00.000-07:00

i started working part time today...sigh...i only manage to rest for 2 days after my trial paper...haha...sound like i am a money minded person...haha...most of my friends encourage me not to work, better study for STPM and my another half trial paper which will be on 28th and 29th of September, so better study instead of working...i really got think of the pro and cons...so i just made up my mind to work but don't worry i won't work for very long because i need to prepare for my trial too...i hope i can manage my time well...i got to be more organize now...since i have chose to work so that means some of my time got to be sacrifice...the time for taking nap, time for playing and time for watching movie have to be sacrifice...sob sob...even though i have to work, i will try my best to spend some time for study...i know if i didn't do it, i can guarantee my friends that i am going to fail my bio and chem paper...so got to be extra hardworking d...i shall not disappointed myself and also my mum...hahaha...i was actually luckier to have a considerate mother...my mum won't give me any pressure on my study...she won't say anything such as "you better go study now","don't watch tv, go study","why u get such bad result"...till now i never heard her say so...hahaha...i only heard she will say "don't pressure yourself so much la, relax a bit" especially during exam time...hahaha...that's why she tell me that if i fail also never mine la...hahaha...so i won't have very much tension from my mum but sometimes i do jealous to see some of my friend being pressure by their parents...it's funny right...hehehe...anyway i was feeling very grateful to have such wonderful mother...hahaha...

It did really happen...

2009-09-05T08:15:00.000-07:00

I never thought it would happened to me that soon...i hear my uncle told me that every driver will need to experience this...so its the matter of time...sigh...people say during the month of Ghost Festival, better stay at home especially at night...i never thought this would happen...its still fresh in mind...5 of September 2009, i was involved in a motor accident...i was lazy to explain the whole accident...so my dear friends who are interested to know then ask me when u saw me k...i am sure at that time i will explain to u...hehehe...anyway its just a minor accident k but i was the one wounded the most...my left hand and leg got a bit bleeding then lebam...next is my right leg kena lecur a bit then my waist got lebam...aiya...very pain lo...sigh...but i also want to Thank God...i believe God is trying HIS best to save me...luckily just minor injuries...i can't imagine myself in hospital either broken legs or hands...lol...God really bless me...hehehe...

Half of my trial paper is over...

2009-09-03T21:57:00.000-07:00

hahaha...just only finish of of my trial exam paper...i got to thank to the school because my another half trial will be in three weeks time and that would be for my biology and chemistry paper...so now i got three more weeks to study for that 2 papers...since i feel i am going to fail my maths paper but hope not pa paper because i really got work hard on pa paper, i do hope my bio and chem paper will pass...this time i really want to pass my chem paper...hopefully my wish do come true...hehehe...now i give myself few days to rest then have to work hard for that two subjects d in the meantime i working part time job after school...so i have to put extra more effort to achieve my goal...i know i can do it...hahaha...

Not as i planned...

2009-08-22T19:25:00.000-07:00

Hahaha...i thought i can turn off the computer at 2.30pm to do house cleaning but end up 3.30pm only start house cleaning...hahaha...so i quickly do finish the work la...so sad i only manage to sweep 1st floor and ground floor...then when finish mop ground floor is already 4.20pm...the weather worse, raining...make me can't go pokok assam then can't go hiking too...so the hiking will have to postpone to tomorrow at 7.30am...sob sob...anyway what i can do it to complete my household chores...when i really complete everything, the clock shown 5.45pm...hahaha...after taking my bath, i sat on my study table trying to study so i only manage to study till 7pm...hahaha...so got to really study d lo...hahaha...

What a busy day! And yet its fun...

2009-08-22T14:10:00.000-07:00

Today is the first day of the 1 week holiday...yipee...anyway this holiday is not to have fun but to study for trial...sigh...after all i do plan to do revision but not today...today is a busy day for me...early in the morning around 6.45am, i have to wake up to study...hahahaha...bluffing k...crazy meh so early study...hahaha...joking k...i wake up to fetch my mum to the market...after that, of course sleep back la until 9.30am because later around 11am got appointment to play badminton with friends...hahaha...i went there quite early around 10.50am, luckily one of my friends reach at the same time too so we two play first...about 11.15am only we saw few other friends come..i think only at 12 noon i really saw most of my friends...hahaha...anyway the game suppose to end at 1pm but i have to go back early a bit...hehehe...sigh...got to do house cleaning today...sweep the floor, mop the floor, tidy up every room...i still wonder why i agree to do this...hahaha...anyway maybe because if my mum called me do it few days later then i won't agree d as i was suppose to study for my trial...so better do it now so that my mum won't have to do it later by herself...i plan 2.30pm start house cleaning then maybe at about 4pm i shall complete everything...hehehe...as i say is a busy day so at 4.3opm i will go pokok assam with tee xin to buy some food to eat...hehehe...after that another appointment with friends too that is go hiking at Maxwell Hill at about 5pm...hahaha...i guess we will hike till 6.30pm kua...hahaha...oh finally the day end...hahaha...my horoscope tell me that today is a great day with friends...i do agree with this...hehehe...that's all...bye...

What an unlucky day...

2009-08-15T20:32:00.000-07:00

15.8.09...i shall remember this day...the day when i feel myself so unlucky...the day before, i felt tired because tomorrow is Saturday and yet we need to come to school as usual..sigh..then at night i plan not to go school but suddenly i thought of an important things that i need to hand in to a teacher...so i got to go school on Saturday...i had to wake up early in the morning around 6am to bring my mum to the market..what an unlucky day when i found out that the tyre of the motorbike pancit when i almost reach the market...what i was very angry is how am i going back to my house..i was thinking "God, are U don't want me to go to school?"i tried to phone my youngest uncle for help but he was not in town then i phone another uncle for help and almost 7am only i reach home...so without wasting my time i quickly get ready to go to school...at first i thought of walk to school but my mum insisted that i cycle as the time was in a hurry too...so i cycle to school...luckily i manage to reach school just in time...Thanks God...anyway i felt a bit of regret because that day the class was boring...not many teachers are teaching...they just let us to do our own works so kind of boring at school...
time do pass quickly and its time to go home...i parked my bicycle outside the school so it was under hot sun...when i took out my key to open the lock, i was shock to found out that my bicycle key had lost...i search through my pocket but none...my mind was blank at that time because i don't have any spare key neither with me nor in home...so i thought of asking the guard help to break open my lock...anyway i didn't ask for the guard help...i planned to walk back home and discuss with family first...for your information, i won't bring a small umbrella with me unless i plan to walk home...so that day i walk back to my home under the hot sun...it was so hot and i was feeling hungry...sigh...the climax is on the way home i kept thinking how can i lost the key so i take out the key one more time and was feeling shock+angry...how can i take the wrong key to school...i mistakenly taken my brother's key...no wonder there is no bicycle key...i was so geram...why i can made such stupid mistake...anyway i do walk back home and when i reach home i asked my cousin for my key and they told me my brother had took mine key to work...i was damn angry telling them to give another key instead of mine but they can't find the other key...so i angrily enter my room and found out the other key was just on the table...i called them and told them...they answered "oh its here, i thought the key had lost.Thanks ya" and they just walked out from my room...oh my goodness why am i so unlucky...Is it the God really don't want me to go to school?when i managed to reach school in time, HE chose to let me can't go back with my bicycle..hahaha...
the story not yet end...my elder brother have to drive to work because of the motorbike pancit so he plan to bring me go take the motor during his recess time but he can't make it so he ask me to find any way to go take by myself...anyway with my friends help i managed to go to the town but on the way to the town, its raining cats and dogs so my whole body got wet...when i reach my youngest uncle shop, i was told that the motorbike key is not with them but the motorbike is at my uncle shop...i can just watch that motor without the key...i phoned my elder brother for that key and waited for him almost an hour in a wet condition...i only managed to wipe my body with a towel but my shirt and pant are still wet...i was freezing because of the weather...don't forget that my bicycle are still at school...that time was almost 6pm and its still raining...finally i got that key and drive back home...luckily my cousin is willing to help me to go take the bicycle...so i drive her to my school and she will cycle back to home while i will followed her back to home...after bathing i felt i was going to fall sick...so sad i can't go out with my old friends...luckily today i wake up feeling fine...i so scare that i might fall sick...Thanks God...that's all for now...sigh...what an unlucky day...

1st of August 2009 - What a wonderful day!

2009-08-03T00:04:00.000-07:00

One of the memorable day in my life...although i was not dress as pretty as my other friends, i do enjoy the day...1st of August is the day for Graduation Night 2008/2009...i can say that this year the graduation night was awesome...much much better than last year...Thanks to the Lower 6 students hard works...Thanks a lot ya...hehehe...that night was a wonderful night...we dance, we sing, and we really have fun...there are a lot of performances going on, people singing, digi advertisement, dancing and a guy performing Michael Jackson...everything was so nice...this yea there are four finalist for Mr and Miss Form 6 08/09...surprisingly both are also from my class...hahaha...Mr. Form 6 will be Tan Wei Sheng, a very friendly guy yet likes to do stupid things and jokes everywhere while for Miss Form 6 will be our friend Ng Poh Juan, a quiet girl but sometimes quite noisy too...after the prize giving ceremony, we ended that night with some dances...everyone busy taking photos and some dancing...that day is also one of my classmates birthday so we gave her a surprise party...hehehe...what a wonderful days...that event suppose to end at 10pm but 11pm only the event really end...even though the party ended at 11pm but i 2am only back to my home...hahaha...after the party ended, we went to K-box in Taiping Central...just imagine wearing formal clothes and walk around...haha...of course we became the main attraction to everyone...luckily Tee Xin and I went with few guys...if just we two then we rather stay at home...hehehe...i shall end my words here...all the memories that happened will be kept in my mind forever...will be remember forever...hehehe...

Graduation night coming soon...

2009-07-20T00:15:00.000-07:00

As graduation night coming soon its shows that we, the Upper Six 2009 are going to face the STPM and also means we are going to graduate!!!! This event can be consider as 1 of the grand event for the Form Six students...sigh...i shall feeling excited for the day but my feeling was moody...first is because i am having financial problem now and i don't have any dress for that event...my mum call me not to go to the party if we don't have any suitable dress but i don't want to miss that day...it will be one of the memorable day...sigh...i am searching for a solution now...May God come out with a perfect solution for me...honestly say i really don't want to look odd at that graduation night...really pray hard to God...i use to dream of someone giving me money now? although the chances is =0.01%, i do hope this dream can come true...hahaha...Serena!!!Stop Dreaming k!!!!...hahahaha...

A Tough Life To Go...

2009-07-17T06:52:00.000-07:00

First of all, thanks very much to all my beloved friends who are always by my side to support me...THANKS A LOT YA...hehe...don't worry i am feeling much better now...i know i still have a long way to go...i must always be ready to face any challenge that are coming...oh ya i retake my MUET exam end of this year...i am not satisfied with my result..sometimes i do believe that everything u do not only need the determination and hardworking but must also have the luck...maybe i am having bad luck recently...bad mood will make everything turn bad...i know i have to learn from mistakes...got to brave up myself...finally i realize that money is really an important thing in our lives...without money u can't do anything...sometimes i do ask God why was Him giving me so many obstacles especially this year,the year for STPM? Why? Can anyone tell me why? Why can't i face it next year? i am really hope time pass faster...after STPM, i will work hard to earn more and more money for my family and also for myself...May God Bless me...so that i will be able to go through this year...

Brave up Serena!!!!

2009-07-15T05:12:00.000-07:00

i have played a lot times the quiz asking what your horoscope means? what ur birthday means? and after all i found out that this is true to myself..what written here is quite true...

What Is The Meaning Of Your Birthday?
No matter what, every one will love you because you are ruled by the Moon.You day dream a lot, you have a very low-self esteem, you need to have a back up for every move in your life, you are very unpredictable. You tend to change according to time and circumstances, selfish, have a very strong sense of musical and artistic talent and powerful verbal communication.You can be sweet as an angel and can be ruthless when double-crossed. Some might say you have a sixth sense. You will become a poet, writer, an artist or a business person. You are not strong in love, so your relationship will be in disarray until you settle down. If you are a girl, you will be responsible for your family. If you are a man, you tend to get involve infights & arguments in the family. You will sacrifice your life for your family. You are gentle, intuitive with a broad vision. You make a well-balanced person.

I saw in many TV show stated that whenever u faced any sad things, don't think so much, wash your face and sleep early, tomorrow when you wake up, it will be a brand new day again...i try yesterday...before i fall sleep, i pray to God's once more...the next day i wake up, i feel refresh back...my energy to face the challenge is back to me now...sigh...maybe people will think i am a weird person as i do think myself is weird...i can feel very very miserable for 1 day and the next day this feeling just vanished...unbelievable right...hehehe...anyway life goes on...i can't just die like that...my family needs me and i am sure i am going to miss my family and my friends too...hehehe...so don't worry i am fine now...i have to regain back my energy as just left few more months to go...i know the next challenge might even be much much worse but i got to be well prepare to face it...always be ready...hehehe...

Everything is in God's hand...

2009-07-14T06:23:00.000-07:00

My computer got virus and made me can't online for few days...as most people shall know what happen recently...that is the MUET result...i can't believe i got band 3 for my MUET...i don't know what happen also...recently i had been facing a lots of problems...a lots...so much that i hardly can survive anymore...i can considered this year as my toughest year...i am very fatigue now...my strength had been used up...i just hope every unlucky things that happen to me will end soon...i can't bear it anymore...pray hard to God...i am very scared i get depression...i try not to...when i knew bout my MUET result...at that time, my feeling was blank...i so hope i can remain that kind of feeling...neither cry nor relieve...its just blank...but when i was at school, seeing most of my friends...my feeling suddenly feel so down...almost thought of commit suicide and every pain just end...why i got band 3?...i thought i answered that paper quite well...i just don't know why everything turn so bad...i know life is full with happiness and sadness but why am i have been facing so many sadness...where have my happiness gone?...i am trying to regain my strength back..my strength to study for STPM...my strength to live through this year... astrologist said that this year is a good year for horse but i can't get any good things at all...i have tried to console myself but i don't know why this time this doesn't help anything...maybe i use to console myself to lead a happy life and this time i just can't accept anymore...i feel that i am telling a lie to myself...i lied to myself that everything is going to be fine...maybe stress that cause everything but how am i going to release my stress when everything happen to me is bad...not even a good thing i received...false hope...sigh...i envy my fiends...i can say most of my friends...seeing them got good result, lead a life without worries, doesn't really study hard but can get a good result, get to eat and sleep well...i really envy them...i so hope i can have this kind of life but i know only dreams can help me...too many challenge i have to face...i don't know when everything is going to be fine...i just hope that at least God's can give me some time to rest...i need to rest enough to face more and more challenge that is coming...i know i can do it...for one more time i told to myself "i know i can do it, i have to face it no matter what also"...brave up myself...that's my advice to myself...sigh...

Get well soon...

2009-07-03T18:06:00.000-07:00

Just drop by to say that my wound are getting better now...
Last Tuesday, 30 June 2009, i went to the hospital to take out my stitches...
although this time will be my second time, i never thought it would be so pain...
so much more pain than my first time...plus from the way the nurse take out my stitches, oh my goodness, it made me feel more pain...hahaha..
anyway now my wound are getting better...hope that the scar won't be that obvious and i shall becareful in the future when handling sharp things...hahaha...

Going to retired soon...

2009-06-20T18:52:00.002-07:00

Yesterday, 20th of June 2009, the day i got my second cut on my fingers and also the last event of the Sixth Form Council which is the orientation camp to the L6 students...i have a mixed feeling...happy and also sad...happy because after that i will not have to be busy to buy things or do preparation for a new events...after all i also feel sad as time pass so fast and i will miss the time when i was enjoying the times doing events with friends...what a memorable times...yesterday the camp was not bad...kind of had fun also...hehehe...the only regret is i didn't join the orientation camp when i was L6...hahaha...anyway going to choose new AGM soon for Sixth Form Council and my Koperasi Club also...can say i am going to retired soon and have to focus almost 100% on my study d...sigh...i don't hope for much...just hope i can try my best in my STPM and get a good result to enter university...k that's all for now...

Again...Oh my Goodness...

2009-06-20T02:20:00.000-07:00

Sigh...i so hope that everything was a dream...i shall wake up now but so sad...sigh...after 3 years, here comes the second scar on my hand...sigh...every time when i get cut, i would think of why would i been so careless...the first time when i got a cut on my hands, i was so shock and scare...imagine u see blood bleeding profusely on your hand...i am even scare when i knew i have to stitch my wounds...so the first time i get 8 stitches on my hands...sigh...history repeat, this time i got a cut on my finger and is on the same hand...i am not going to tell why i got a cut as i think not really important and is hardly to believe it...just to tell that this time i was not scare at all...just feeling some kind likes "Oh My God...why i cut my finger again"sigh...it happened early in the morning...sigh...i am just feeling sad cause my hand will be spoil...imagine a girl hand with 2 scars...scary right...this i get 7 stitches...not really that pain and i dare to see the whole process on how the doctor doing stitches on my fingers...hahaha...crazy right...before i was sent to the hospital, my mum cal me to close my wounds with a handkerchief so by the time i reach hospital, the whole handkerchief turns from orange to dark red...haha...i admit that my second wound is worse then my first time but i just don't know why i didn't feel anything...not scare but maybe feeling a bit pain, just a bit k...the doctor ask me weather i need a painkiller...guess what i say..."i don't think i need it as i experienced this before"...hahaha...i also don't know why i can answer like that and the doctor just tell me if i am really feeling pain i can take paracetamol also...now the only problem i am facing is eating, bathing and doing my homework...sigh...hope my wound will get well soon and never happen anymore k...hehehe...

School Reopen...

2009-06-17T08:23:00.000-07:00

Oh is left only 5 more months to face the World hardest examination...haha...just hope at that time i am fully prepared for the examination...anyway kind of satisfied with my mid year exam but not very good...is just much better than what i thought...as usual i did very badly in chemistry..this test even worst the result for chemistry...oh got to work hard d...school life is back again...due to the new policy from the education ministry, all F6 students have to stay back at school until 4pm...kind of shock to heard that but of course i don't think any F6 students will like it...luckily my school only implant this policy to Lower 6 students...i as the Upper 6 student feeling so grateful as the school is so considerate about Upper 6...no point for Upper 6 to stay back as well because we had almost completed our syllabus..so i don't think i can pay attention in class until 4pm...plus the weather and we are not allow to go back to take a shower, oh my goodness...can't really imagine what will happen to me staying at school until 4pm...although the Upper 6 are still in discussion whether to stay until 4pm but most of my teachers been telling no benefit for Upper 6 students...so hopefully the school can make the best and most wise decision that is to allow Upper 6 students to go back as usual...hehehe...may God bless me ya!

Holiday is going to end...

2009-06-13T08:49:00.000-07:00

First of all let me sigh...as you know, holiday ends means i have to face the STPM soon...sigh...not really get ready to study yet...anyway here are some brief talk about how i spend my second week of the holiday...
First thing is the surprise birthday party for Jing Rui on 8th of June which is also my another friend birthday...anyway Jing Rui birthday is on the 9th of June...hehehe...so we go to Taiping Central and went to the KTV...i start to feel that place turn worst even the services there are not good...i plan if next time i want to sing song with friends i will not go there anymore...anyway we do have fun at there...after went to tops and have our dinner...
Next is on 11th of June that is on Thursday...i went to Mei Chen BBQ party at her home...i can consider this party is also a gathering of our friends who have complete A-level,matriculation and a friend that have gone to Texas and she just came back for holiday...so is our chance to meet them...anyway they are still the same..just the same like those staying in Taiping...to me that party seem to be very short...i just feel that time gone very fast at there...when i am on my way back to my home with my motor, i have been thinking...when will we have this again...maybe 10 years later...hehe...wondering the next gathering will all turn a new look...hehehe...anyway i just wonder...time do pass very fast..all the memories of my friends will be remember forever...Friendship Forever...once a friend, forever will be friend...hehehe...
So this is what happening...although i didn't go for a holiday to somewhere else but is ok...i feel quite nice staying at home and i do know how to relax my mind at home...hehehe...i just hope my home is in the jungle then it will be more peaceful...hahaha...just joking...
Somehow i have to find back my determination to study...i know is just a few more months to go then i can really relax and happily wait to be accept to any university...so got to work hard now...gambateh to all my friends...my slogan "i know i can do it"...hehehe...

Bye bye to my oldest pet...

2009-06-11T08:08:00.000-07:00

Wondering what is my oldest pet?...
taaadaaa...
that is my tortoises...
oh actually can't say is my tortoise, is suppose to be my brother pets...
i did rare tortoise before when i was in standard 3(if not mistaken)but had pass away after 1 year...so this 2 tortoises belong to my brother...the bigger tortoise which is female is already 10 years old while the other just 7 years old and is a male...at first thought want to let them mating...hehe...anyway the attempt was futile...for your information, the male tortoise is as big as your palm and the female tortoise will be much bigger by 20 % of the male tortoise...

On the 11th of June...finally my family made the decision to say bye bye to our lovely tortoises...there a lot of reason why we shall release them...
1)My aunt say we must not rare tortoise but must release them...as you all know when we want to get good luck and throw away the bad luck, we release animal likes birds, pigeons and tortoises..this is based on my aunt say...
2)My brother doesn't care his tortoise anymore...only my mum and me are taking care the tortoise...buying food and bath them...
3)I felt pity to keep them in a small baby bath tub...hardly got enough space for them to move...
4)I think is the time to let them become independent...hehehe...
Actually i tried a lot of time to tell my brother to release them but he refuse..after so long, he said is hard for him to release them...got feeling to the tortoises already...hahaha...anyway he had to agree finally...he had release them to the lake garden...somewhere near the zoo(i think so)...so if u had take a walk in the lake garden and suddenly meet up with a tortoise, it might be one of my lovely tortoise...hehehe...last but not least, i hope that my tortoises will survive at the new environment..really pray hard to God...hehehe...

What is love?

2009-06-06T08:15:00.000-07:00

I have receive an email from somebody telling me what is love?...and here's the definition...

Psychiatrist Harry Stack Sullivan says:
"When the satisfaction, happiness, and security of another are as real to you as your own, you truly love that person." This desire to see you satisfied, happy, and secure is more than a feeling. It is more permanent than an emotion. It is an act of my mind and my will. It is my decision (I am going to love you) and my commitment (I will say, do, and be whatever you need for your satisfaction, happiness, and security). In other words, I decide that I am going to love you as I love myself. And I am committed to provide as best I can whatever promotes your true happiness.

If based on this definition to say you are in love then i can confirm that i am not in love with any guys yet...hehehe...

Almost 1 week...

2009-06-06T08:00:00.000-07:00

Time do pass very fast...now only left 1 more week of holiday...sigh...this holiday been resting at home only...
i do have gone hiking with my friend on Thursday...
erm...
nothing much to say as nothing special is happening around me...hehehe...
but after all i think i can leave some comment about a novel i read during this holiday...
Title : Slow Burn
Author : Julie Garwood(New York Times Bestselling Author)
Comment : As you know i don't like novel that drag a lot without any much climax...this will make me feel boring with the book and it will took me few weeks to finish reading it...so my comment about this novel is it makes me spend 4 days to complete reading it...i won't say what is all about but i will only tell you that is worth reading it...enjoy reading this book...i was given chance to grade this book, i can say i will grade it 8 stars out of 10...

Peace of mind...

2009-06-03T20:05:00.000-07:00

Its already the 5th day of my holiday...yet nothing special...i have been staying at home, reading storybook and surfing the net...friends do cal me go out...but because of certain problem, i didn't go out...then they cal me go swimming today...sigh...i don't know how to swim,thus my mum don't let me go...so until now i do go out but is with my mum lo and is also because i became her driver...fetching her go market...that's all...been staying at home these feel days...feeling like i am resting my mind...i try not to think anything...feeling peaceful...but i think it will be wonderful if i was in somewhere where is full with greenery rather than at home...maybe in the jungle...hahaha,,,i think it will be nice to rest your mind in jungle...you can feel the nature call...how hope i was at there...hehehe...

It's HOLIDAY!!!!!

2009-05-30T13:13:00.000-07:00

Time to have fun...2 weeks for us to rest but after that we shall face the challenge that is approaching...the STPM...anyway yesterday i was kind of sad...sad with my result...i should know that this mid year test i would not get good result...sigh...no matter tou feel sad or happy life still goes on...so i rather chose to pass each day with a smile...=)

Exam fever....

2009-05-19T08:41:00.000-07:00

So long i did not update my blog...that does not mean that i have been busy studying until no time to take a look on my blog...hehehe...is actually because i can't log in to blogger since last week...not really bother about it until my bro told me that our computer had virus...so virus are the cause of everything...soon my bro solve this and that's why i can update my blog now...hehehe...erm during last 2 week, i fell sick for 4 days...i got sorethroat then flu and then fever...oh don't worry is not H1N1 k...hehehe...but at that time i really thought i might got it...hahaha...or maybe dengue...hahaha...i thought of this because the first time i had fever for so long...usually its only takes me 1 day to recover from fever but this time was different...i recover then i fell sick again...again and again...so i fell sick on Friday and then skip school on Monday...at that time i was not fully recover...i got no voice to talk...so scare because in the meantime my MUET speaking is coming...its almost took me 1 week to fully recover...on Friday i got no voice and that worries my friends because MUET speaking exam is on next Tuesday...my friends seem to call me to drink honey and some remedies to recover my voice back...thanks for their concern...luckily i manage to get my voice back and manage to do some practice with my friends just the day before my exam...so overall the exam is not bad...i do hope at least i can get a band 4...may God bless me...hehehe...now i have been rushing to study for my mid exam which was next week...full format...sigh...feeling so tired...hope that next Friday reach soon...then i can have fun for few days before preparing for my STPM...really want to have enough sleep...i can't wait for the holiday where i can have enough sleep, eat and have fun...hope the day reach soon but don't end that soon...hehehe...

Learning to be more independent...

2009-04-27T00:54:00.000-07:00

Quite some time i never update my blog...kind of busy actually...so just a brief about my past few weeks...talk about the latest...i just pass 3 paper of my MUET test...now left 1 more paper to go which will be on 12 May 09...anyway most of my friends say this test was very hard but i didn't feel neither hard nor easy...for me is ok la but i don't like what i feel about this test...whenever i say that test is ok, i won't get good result...its true...if i think is very hard at least my result will become better...hehehe...anyway i really hope this won't be true for this test...i really want to get good result for this test because i don't want to retake...have to pay extra money, spend more time...sigh...really hope i can pass my MUET test with flying colours then only i can truly focus on my study...may God bless me k...hehehe...ok another 1 things which i would like to talk about is my Genting trip with my friends...19th and 20th of April, i went for a school trip to Genting...neither very fun nor very bored...but at last i manage to went into the casino...wow...totally a different world inside...the environment was so bad, smell of cigarette ...can't imagine the worker there have to work for hours under such environment, high risk of cancer...anyway i also didn't stay there very long but i thought of want to play...hehehe...so the next day we went to Ipoh for shopping...maybe it was to hectic and tired...so not really in the mood to shop...anyway overall the trip was not bad...do really learn a lot things...i love to learn new things...gain more experience and learn to be observant...recently facing some problems...sigh...very tired...sometimes i just found myself suffocate...hardly to be able to breathe...thinking that i can't go on with my life...sigh but anyway is just a thought...i won't be that stupid to end my life...i know there is still a lot more things to learn...so how can i give up?...i want to learn more...so be optimist...i always bear in my mind about my slogan "i know i can do it"...so i shall learn to be more independent...i know my whole life won't be like that..there must be ups and downs...so just face the challenge now...hehehe...

Doubt....

2009-04-12T23:04:00.000-07:00

Something just happened...i don't know is a good things or a bad things...but this time i was quite calm...never over worried...hehehe...i believe as people grew older, their mind start to think more mature...this is what happen to me now...oh my goodness...sometimes i just feel that there is a gap between my friends...not all of course...maybe because i had experienced a lot of things, somethings which i don't hope to experienced it and yet it happened to me...so i learn to be tough...i know everything must end with a solution...so i learn to figure out the solution...there are a lot of things i have thought before...something impossible but what will happen if that is possible? Just like an example of if i was not good in my study, maybe i will start working right after SPM, then i can earn money for my family...if not like now, i still need money from my family...sometimes i just think what is the purpose i study? People will say you get a better degree then your salary will be higher...but i start to doubt...

Time pass quick please...

2009-04-09T08:47:00.000-07:00

Recently i felt my life was so busy...i never felt like this before...maybe because i stress up myself...STPM do really a scary examination which makes people headache, hectic and fatigue...almost like dying...anyway i just pass my MUET trial yesterday...i sat for 3 papers except speaking...so at least i do got a good result in paper 1 which is listening part...very happy but yet tired because this was not the real MUET test...how nice if it is...at least i can relieve for a while...anyway 2 more weeks and i am really going to sit for the test...but i can't focus fully on MUET as my mid year exam is coming soon...this time is even much much harder than my previous test...awww...i not really can understand chemistry...really very tired...i so hope this year can pass as fast as possible...i really can't bear to face it...

Busy yet fun...

2009-04-03T08:12:00.000-07:00

I can say that this year is the most hectic year i ever faced...somehow is kind of fun also...compare to last year, this year i knew more friends...hehehe...early month of this year i had been busy working and doing biology project and after that i thought i could rest but i had to study for monthly test but the result was bad..sigh...so after attending today's six form counsel meeting...my life start to turn back busy...i have been in charge of the souvenir for Teacher's Day and orientation camp...then i was chosen to participate in Forum Pelajar competition...some more mid year exam is coming and MUET test also...next Wednesday will be MUET trial...oh my godness..almost going die soon...sigh...

Another piece of artwork after 2 years...

2009-03-27T19:39:00.000-07:00

When i heard about a stamp design competition which held in school on last Monday, my reaction was nothing...if the past of me i am sure i will be very interested to took part but not now anymore...after all i do took part in this competition...hehe...first is because my friend called me to took part seem like i guarantee will win..hahaha...its funny k...second is because i want to get co curriculum marks...i plan to complete my co curriculum marks as soon as possible so that i can spend more time for study...anyway i started drawing on Tuesday and then spend about an hour per day to complete my drawing...so i took 3 days to complete it as the dateline is on Friday...hehe...when i finished my final touch up, i have the feeling of don't want to pass up..i prefer to keep it...hehehe...anyway i was happy that the drawing turned out great...since i had pass my SPM, i think almost 2 years i never touch on my water color...hehehe...i thought my coloring will drop but luckily i still manage to maintain my standard...hehehe...

School reopen...

2009-03-23T01:38:00.000-07:00

Finally after 1 week of holiday, everything back to school life...recently i felt that what i wants to do end up doing nothing...sigh...what's wrong with me actually...i got to wake up from dream now...no longer honeymoon time...now is time to study...today one of my teacher told us about how good if u become a teacher...teacher is the only job that after you graduates, you will automatically become a teacher with a basic salary of almost RM2+++...after that, i just can't understand why suddenly i feel of wanted to be a teacher...one of my friend got shocked and asked me "are you serious?"...then i think throughly all over again...hahaha...i guess i was just out of my mind for a while...after some time of thinking, i don't think i can teach...honestly, i can understand something but i can't explain about it...a funny thing right...hehehe...anyway i will think is a waste of 1 year if i give up STPM and go teaching courses...moreover i wants to experience the life in local university whom my cousin and teachers were telling..."the most enjoyable time in your life is the life in university"...so i don't want to miss this...hehehe...so i think the only way for me to achieve this is to work hard...gambateh serena!!!!hehehe...

Its holiday...

2009-03-12T23:17:00.000-07:00

Happy Holiday...hehehe...seem like i had been so long didn't update my blog...anyway i just finish my monthly exam and the result are not that good as what i wish...got improved but also vice versa to certain subject...overall i am kind of disappointed with my result...the effort that i had put shows such kind of result...so just disappointment fill my heart...anyway i will think positively..i shall think this way...i have not put much effort, i shall work even harder and harder now...so this holiday is not a holiday to me...i must take this time to work hard...i still believe if i work hard i will success...i know i can do it...

Exam coming...

2009-02-24T00:34:00.000-08:00

Time pass so fast...so fast is already mid February...so fast my monthly test coming but luckily just a simple one...i mean not in full format so every paper will be a modify paper...kind of relax for me...hehehe..because i still didn't fully prepare myself for STPM....got to go do revision already...hehehe...luckily i heard a very happy news to me...i am going for a school trip on this April...the best thing is most of the thing was free of charge...this is because this trip was organize by the school koperasi so as a member of the koperasi, we get to go there without paying so much...we only need to pay for the expenses like games...yeah...kind of fun i think...hehehe...hopefully ya...

What a shock...

2009-02-17T21:41:00.000-08:00

Everything is in God's plan...just like today...i never thought i will faint in school...hehehe...today my school had held a blood donation champaign..as usual i volunteer to donate my blood just like last year...due to this blood donation and my biology practical experiment, i chose to come school in state of going Ipoh with my family...something unbelievable happened...this was my second time i donate...so after donation, my friend and i wanted to go back biology laboratory..at that time my friend asked me together go back class which is on the third floor to take our books...at first i refuse because i feel something will happen to myself if i go up but anyway i also went up as my friend seem to so desperate to go upstairs...hehehe...so i follow her go back our class..once i reach the classroom i start to feel a bit dizzy...i try to rest myself...soon we go downstairs back to the lab..once i reach the lab i straight away sit on a bench and try to close my eyes,relax myself...the worst thing is my vision went blur...what i seen start to turn white dots..more and more...at that time i start to feel scared...i might die..hahaha..this is what i thought...then my teacher say that my face looks pale and he called me to rest...after some time, my face turn worst..white,very pale...my friend was shock to see me like that...so they decided to bring me go see the nurse...at that time my vision was almost white..i can't see colour..scary for me but i still can hear something so i try to walk go but i just manage to walk till the door of the lab and i just pass out...hahaha...can't believe it...after that my teacher and my fellow friends help to wake me up...very thanks to them...just when the nurse come to the lab, i am back to conscious...i manage to walk back to the hall for some rest..drink some hot drink and rest for a while...soon i am back to normal but for me everything was just like a dream...i had wake up from my dream...during my unconsciousness, i heard how my friends and teacher help me...i can hear but i can't open my eyes...wow...seem like i had bring much trouble to everyone..very sorry ya...hehehe...anyway thanks to does who are so care and help me a lot...thanks very much...what happened today will be remember forever...hehehe...

Sport Day = Valentine Day ...

2009-02-13T23:29:00.000-08:00

Today,14 of February, my school had held the school sport day...kind of disappointed with how the sport day are hell...it was totally different from my former school...really can't believe it...i never thought that my last sport day are going to end up like this...not as grand as my former school...really can't describe my feeling...even my friends also feel weird..sigh...anyway the red team had win which mean my team had won the overall beat team for 2009...after so many days busy about the sport things...is time to relax for a while...just a while only...now i have to work hard for my study already...sigh...form six life was tough...been busy since the beginning of the year...sigh...i need rest but i know it will be after December...so i still have about 10 months to work hard...after that i can rest as much as i can already...really hope that day come soon...

oh ya today was a Valentine Day...a very special day for couples but not for single...so today was not a special day for me...hehehe...i still don't know when will i celebrate Valentine Days...anyway i will wait...wait for God's plan...hehehe...anyway Happy Valentine Days...

Kind of disappointed...

2009-02-11T22:04:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a great day...i enter the sport event for 4x400m,1500m n tarik tali...so yesterday was the event 4 tarik tali n so happy that we manage to go final round which will be on tis sat...but today i was kind of disappointed with myself...i enter the 4x400m event n we only manage to get third place...kind of sad to myself because i was the cause of everything...i can't speed like the rest...sigh...very sorry to my others friends...now i have backache, leg n hand also pain...sigh...i scare i can't do better on sat...sat is our school sport day so i hopefully i can still run and have the energy to beat my opponent in tarik tali...may god bless me...i can't believe that i can run...i got that feeling that my stamina had improve a lot...last time i won't enter any running event...now i feel running was quite nice also...maybe after sport day i might go for a jog during my free time...hopefully i got the time to do it..i scare i don't have time to relax also as time is moving fast so STPM is coming soon...gotta work hard d...sigh...really hope that i can perform better this sat...gambateh...

Still In CNY Mood...hehehe...

2009-02-05T06:20:00.000-08:00

Now i kind of relax and enjoy my life...hehehe...i have time to finish up my homework, time to take a nap, time to do household chores and time to watch television...hehehe...really enjoy my life now...but i shall wake up already as only left 9 months for me to study for my STPM...wow time really past so fast...my mind are still fresh with the time when i just enter lower six...sigh...i shall work hard now...gambateh serena...i know i can do it...

Time Waits For No One...

2009-02-01T06:26:00.000-08:00

So fast my 19th of Chinese New Year had passed...tomorrow school is going to reopen and as usual i am going to cycle to school...sigh...another time of disappointment...at first my friend had promise me to sell her motorcycle to me but she broke her promise then my dad promise to give me a car but i don't really put high hope on what he say...and then my brother promise me that he will help me financially to buy a new motorcycle and end up, it was just like talking without any black and white...i was so sad...i cried once more but this time i don't feel so sad...maybe because i had experience so many times of disappointment, so i don't really feel too emotional anymore...i will just accept the fact...i came from a poor family so i shall not ask for more...this is what i shall remember in my mind...i heard people tell me that everything is God's plan...if it is so then i hope that there will be no more any disappointment on me...i can't bear it anymore...seem like this year is the year where i experienced so many times of disappointment..i was very tired...i hope it can stop now...now i doesn't really hope for anythings anymore...although i still hope to get a motor, but i know the chances is very small...sigh...

Happy Chinese New Year 2009 !!!!

2009-01-25T21:28:00.000-08:00

First of all, i want to say to everyone...Happy Chinese New Year!!!...hehehe...as usual my first day of new year, i will stay at home...my relatives still not yet come to visit us...this year might be late... so sad...so i was kinda boring these coming new year day...but i do have plan for myself...hehehe...after all, i finally off work...no longer working part time anymore...yeah...i can start focusing on my study...i want to score good result...i want to enter local university...i want to keep on studying...may God bless me...ok..that's all...i want to go watch any nice chinese new year movie already...once again...Happy Chinese New Year!!!...may this year brings lots of happiness and health to you all...may your dreams come true...hehehe...

A Great Day!!!

2009-01-22T19:28:00.000-08:00

This year is my last year of schooling...this mean my last time of attending cross country organized by the school...for the last 5 years, i had never won any prizes in running for cross country...so today i won...i won the number 11th among the 3o0+ students...so happy when i receive this...after that...i never thought my red team had won the champion of this cross country...i was called to go to the stage to receive trophy as i was the girl president of red team together with the guy president...
i think i really can't angry or hate a person for very long time...after 2 days of not talking to her, finally we start to talk back as usual...at that time i just felt relieve as i am not going to angry anyone anymore...its so suffer to angry a person...must well i forgive her but i think i will not forget what she had done to me...i will take this as a lesson for me to learn...don't trust her so much...hehehe...and some more i might going to get a new motor soon..my brother might help me financially to buy a motor...kind of happy...hehehe...
the best thing is 2 more days and we are going to celebrate Happy Chinese New Year!!!this year is the year of ox...may this year bring happiness and good health to me...hehehe...i was going to start my study now...after my last day of work...maybe i will rest for few days then have to start revision already...i really want to achieve my dream...i know i can do it...

Anger...

2009-01-18T23:10:00.000-08:00

From the first i already tell myself that if possible try my best not to hate or angry with anyone...to hate a person is a very tiring thing to do...so i always tell myself learn to forgive and forget...sadly the first time i angry with a person...usually if i really get angry i will forget about it the next day but till today i can't talk to that person...not even a word...so i know that when i did really angry with somebody, i would not talk to that person...my mood will just turn dull when i see that person...i so hope that i can scold, shout and tell everything i want to tel to that person...at least by doing this i will feel better...so sad not even a word i was able to speak out...i just keep everything inside my heart...and as usual tears will flow down from my cheek...i thought,yesterday which is 18 of January 2009 will be my best day cause i am going to get something which i really want since December...so sad everything turn upside down...at that moment i got that feeling of being fool by people...i was so sad...thinking from the beginning everything was just a dream...if possible i don't want it to be a dream...i was very disappointed...i thought i can forget about it the next day but its impossible...since morning when i go to school i thought of "how nice if i can have it now"...everything was just like.........i just don't know how to describe...not many people will understand how i feel including that person...i never had such great disappointment before...once and again...that person disappointed me again and again...for the first time i had forgive and forget but the second time was terrible...i can't imagine it really happen to me...i want to try to forgive and forget...maybe it needs time to be able to do this...i just hope it won't take long but my feeling had told me that this was the first time i really get hurt...i need a very long time to heal my pain...

My Biology Project...

2009-01-10T17:59:00.000-08:00

Taadaa...finally i and my friends had finished the most difficult part in our biology project, the collection of 25 species of insects...it almost takes us 2 month to complete this...nice right?...hehehe...i like the background of this board so much...we use nature resources to do it like sand and dry leaves...so happy that we did it so well...although this project is 6 people in a group but it seem like only 2 person in this group...majority of the work was done by me and my another friends...the rest kind of help also but not so much...before i complete this project, i got stress up quite a number of times...anyway luckily it had over now...just after we finish up this project, i was so relieved...Thank God...now only left the plants part...it was also almost finish...yeah i finally can rest, can have some time to relax, can have some time for my homework...very happy...hehehe...

Stress...

2009-01-08T22:12:00.000-08:00

i can't believe today i wake up late for school...so end up i didn't go to school today...seriously say, kind of sad actually...if can, i want to go to school but i just don't know what happen to my body because it refuse to move...maybe i was really tired recently...i couldn't find any time to rest...i used to sleep at 1am to 2am even during my school day...i don't have enough sleep recently...very tired...really very very tired...sometimes i just hope that i could focus on my study...January 2009 is the most busy month for me...i have to go to school in the meantime i have to work...i tried to manage my time properly and wisely...i really tried my best...i just don't know why i have so many things to do...i hate myself...i don't like myself for being too hardworking and very scare if i didn't complete anythings...and sometimes i hate group work project...i would be the one who worries this and that and would tried my best to do everything in order to complete the project...i just wondering why my group members doesn't seem to be worried...i hate irresponsible person...i hate people who did not put effort in their work...from the group project, it makes me hates this kind of person more...most of the time,only me and one of my friend who did everything...we always sacrificed our time and energy to complete the work...i was very very tired...in future i hope my group members will be like me and my friend...willing to sacrificed...be more responsible...everyone have a limit...i have exceed my limit that is why i was saying something to make me comfortable...or in the other hand to help me release my stress...now i just hope i can complete my work as fast as possible...

The begining of the year 2009...

2009-01-05T05:09:00.000-08:00

Today was the first day i went to school as an upper six student studying biology and chemistry subjects...i was kind of shock and feeling tired as i never expect this kind of situation will occurred...
after assembly, we went back into our class...as expected, our new form teacher will come in and discussing the organization of the class...my friend was voted to be the monitor of our class...hahaha...obviously she don't like this post...even me too...anyway i was chosen as her assistant monitor...i will try my best to help her...hehehe...at least she won't feel so tense up... after that our study life start as usual...teachers entering the class and start teaching...i was like thinking "Are we that hurry?"...everything starts so fast..i heard lots of announcement like next week there will be a pre-test for organic chemistry, next week we will have to pass up our biology project, this Wednesday have to pass maths and chem homeworks and do presentation for Pengajian Am...aaarrrghhhh...kind of stress up because i didn't complete yet...seem like suddenly everything move so fast..i want to slow it down...sigh...
then after school, my mum told me that today she want to bake biscuits for Chinese New Year...so i have to take leave for my work...during baking, i start to think...thinking i should speed up myself...thinking i should be more hardworking to finish up my homeworks, get ready for the pre-test...thinking i should plan my time properly as time is golden, i was studying while working..so time is very important to me...i will try to spend my time more wisely....
anyway today will be the start for my last year of schooling...i shall spend my time wisely in school with friends and teachers...hehehe...just be myself...enjoy my life...and my slogan "i know i can do it"...

My Driving Test...

2008-12-31T06:57:00.000-08:00

yeah..finally i had pass my driving test...now waiting for my motorcycle test which might fall on the 14th of January...first of all i was very grateful and thanks God for protecting me throughout my driving test...if not i am sure i will have to take the test for the second time...luckily God bless me...and of course not to forget my friends support to me..thanks so much ya...what i had experience during the test will be remember forever...i really believe that God's is always by my side to help me and guide me...feeling very thankful...hehehe...

i am scare...

2008-12-25T06:51:00.000-08:00

how nice if i can be like my friends, not to over emotional and over worried...i hate myself for being such a crying baby...very easily my tears will drop...i just don't know what happen to me just now at my friend house...maybe i was kind of too stress...so after that i felt much better...i was really scared...i didn't finish up my homework...i was very scared...i am going to sit for the JPJ test for driving...i was really scared as i didn't do any revision this holiday...every time what i have thought doesn't seem to happen in daily life...i thought i could finish up my homework before i am working...i thought i could finish up my school project by early December...i thought i could do revision everyday...and yet not even one have completed...i don't know why i like to blame myself for being so lazy...if i could be more hardworking to do what i want to do,maybe i won't felt that stress now...i want to relax myself but i can't make it...i found it so difficult...i tried to spend more and more time to do my homework but i don't know why i can't complete even one of my homework...what i have study from June till November in Hua Lian is like i experiencing lost memory...i don't know how to do my homework...my maths especially, spend so much time to answer the question and yet i can't even answer the question completely...sigh...anyway i still hope i can finish up my homework as soon as possible...

A busy holiday....

2008-12-24T05:06:00.000-08:00

sigh...i was so tired...my 2008 holiday is so busy than my school life...i want to find some time to relax myself, yet is so hard to find out...sigh...so miss the time when after SPM...no worries and no school work...i was very busy...i just can't believe and don't want to accept the fact that my holiday are going to end...oh my god...my homework are still at my study table...i scare i can't finish up my homework...so sad...i was damn sad not just because i didn't finish up my homework but i also didn't spend some time to do revision...i just hate myself for being so lazy...sad...when the clock struck 12 in midnight...MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!....first of all i would like to make my wish...ermmm...hope i can finish up my homework as soon as possible...hope i can catch up with my study at school...hope i can improve myself in every subject that i was studying now...and hope i can get what i want in the future...hehehe....may dreams come true...

2008-12-09T05:35:00.000-08:00

i think is quite some time i didn't write on this blog...a lot of things really happens during this period of time...some good and some bad...anyway good things that happened is i pass my KPP test n now already in the process of learning to drive motor n car...i am going to take the test on 31st of December...kind of scare but i think i can do it...just relax right..hehehe...then my biology project are going to finish already, we have finish almost 70% of the project even my PA folio too...kind of happy with this...and on 6 of December i got the chance to see Linda Chung Kar Yan in Taiping Central...quite ok la although that day really crowded with people...oh almost forgot i also got to watch the latest Disney movie entitle Bolt...quite a nice and funny movie..worth to watch...ok now is turn for the bad things that happened to me...first is friendship problem that happened a few days after the maxwell hill trip...kind of can't believe what i had read..i quite angry with what i had read...anyway i am not sure that girl realize or not but i don't think i will be very close to her anymore...now we are like just a very normal kind of friend..of course she don't know anything but i and my another friend will be very careful whenever with her...she looks scary to us now...hehehe...kind of wearing mask to face us...hahaha...after that is my school homework!!!!!i didn't even touch it also...anyway now i had touch it but i don't know how to do...somebody please help me...i need to finish it as soon as possible...i want to...i am going to work this sun which is 14th of December..so i want to make sure that i almost complete everything that was given...then only i will have the time to do my revision...aaarrrggghhh...God please help me k....

My undang-undang test...

2008-11-20T21:52:00.000-08:00

Saturday, 15.11.2008, finally i go listen to khusus KPP...whoa the time was so long from 8am to 4pm...at first it was very boring and as usual i fall asleep during the khusus...it was divided into 2 sessions so the first session was very boring but the second session must better...so after that i knew that the latest test is on Tuesday...if i didn't take Tuesday test then Friday only i can take d because i have a trip to Maxwell Hill with my class friends on Wednesday and overnight at there...only yesterday i come back from Maxwell Hill..this is all because of the biology project to catch insects...so finally i made the decision to take the test on Tuesday...only 3 days for me to study...luckily i pass the exam...so happy...so tomorrow i will go for khusus motor...haiz again will take very long time until 4pm...

Thank God...

2008-11-10T00:17:00.000-08:00

i am thankful to God about yesterday incident...if i give up, i am sure that will be the end of my life...i went to waterfall nearby my house with my cousin sister...i almost drown...my legs are unable to stand on any stone in the waterfall...so at that time i only use both of my hand to hold on a big stone...if i leave my hand, i will be drown in the waterfall as the water is flowing very fast...my mind at that moment was like "shall i die here? Is this the end of my life?"...till now i still remember this incident very well...still fresh in my mind but i felt scary also...luckily at last my leg manage to touch on a stone ...wow...a very scary experience to me...this year is a bad luck for horse...so be careful k...hehehe...

disappointment...

2008-11-04T05:43:00.000-08:00

i kept consoling myself...feeling very sad and disappointed with myself...my final year result is not satisfactory for me...i think is worse than august test...so sad...i just keep blaming myself for not working hard enough for my study...or maybe i should change the way i study for my exam...i must proof to myself that i can do it...i know i can do it and i must make sure that i can do it...don't give up...never ever thought of giving up...as long as i work harder and harder for my next exam, i am sure i will get good result...may God bless me...i know that i must sacrificed a lot of things in order to get what i want...its just depends on whether i am willing or not....

Maxwell Hill...

2008-10-27T20:04:00.000-07:00

wow after the final test i have been going out everyday...from Friday night till today still going out...hahaha...on Sunday around 11am already go out with my old friends again,Cynthia,Rue Wen,Yee Ling,Chong,Beh and Pei Ying...this time is not bad but also got a bit boring...hehehe...then yesterday again go out ..hahaha...but i go watch movie with my friend at her home then at night go my friend,Raimathy, house to celebrate Deepavali...hahaha...really look more busy then during exam...hahaha...
then today go hike Maxwell Hill with Tee Xin...first of all felt sorry because i wake up late so actually start to hike at 7.30am but end up 8 only start to hike...hehehe...anyway quite nice...we hike quite high but Tee Xin say we have not reach half of the hill also but i feel like we had hike very high already...so tired and we didn't bring anything go up also...water, camera all also didn't bring...hahaha...at first we thought want to go Maxwell Hill to catch insect for biology experiment but end up didn't get anything also...luckily went we went down the hill we get to watch something interesting,a very long and big insect..i am not sure the name of the insect in english but we use to call it train worm...wow really very big and we saw twice...so sad can't take picture of it...hahaha...anyway planing to hike again some other day and will be going up higher than today...hehehe...

2008-10-25T08:52:00.000-07:00

finally i knew that as time pass,we as a human being will change...i was very surprise just now,i went an old friends gathering at kenny roger...i hope i can enjoy but it is not as fun as yesterday gathering with my new friends...i am not sure weather is i have change...feeling kind of odd at there...it is not like the old times anymore...things will change...when we are get use to another new environment, the old environment will make you uncomfortable...kind of sad...anyway forget about this...i am going to take motor and car license....yeah hope that i can pass my exam one time will do...hehehe....

2008-10-24T08:48:00.000-07:00

first time i go out together with my new friend in hua lian...quite a lot of people almost two classes...hahaha...at first i thought it will be boring but so happy because it turns fun although we didn't follow our plan to go watch cinema...no more ticket tats why have to cancel but if really want to watch will be very late already...so maybe plan next time only go...anyway i knew that whatever my result will be,life still go on...so must well lead my life happily rather than worrying this and that...hahaha...